*hides in the psych ward for a bit and curls up in the corner*

hey jem. please don't OD. have u sorted out seeing a new psych yet?

*jumps on emma too* glad you're safe sweetie.

helen, tablets are annoying but trust me malaria is worse!!

keep going with those pouches susan. i'm sure you're doing a great job.

ally? are you around? if so tell us how you are.

i am currently dyeing my hair back to brown after having it red. then i get to see my counsellor later on. wish me luck with both things - if i get hair dye on the shower and it stains i will be IN TROUBLE lol.

Good Luck hun.

*hides away*

*Uses sturdy fat thighs to stop Jess' box*
*takes Deb's hands one at a time, and puts anti-germ ointment and bandages on injuries*

My doc explained everything to me.
*sobs*

When my husband got home, i suggested that he might want to change his shirt. He said that the one he had one could take a tear soaking just fine.

I'm off to bed with my teddy bear Fred-fred and my husband Philip and hopefully Bozo cat will sleep at my feet.

Nope..i haven't figured out what to do about my new shrink yet hmm..

but yeah, i think i'm going to be refered back to my GP at this stage and go from there

But at this stage....my urges ain't too bad....although probably get worse when i come back home...i'm out travelling for the past few days

ooh, travelling where?

explained what susan, is it about your friend? how is she? *hugs you*

Explained the specific medical terms about what is going on. Can't say more.
*Sighs*
*notes that sleep shirts don't have pockets for bandannas*
*notes that there is a box of tissues in reach*

*sighs*
three diet pepsis, a bit of bread and butter and some brownie bites is not the breakfast of champions. it is the breakfast of sour stomach.

sighs with blondie bear

*hides her stockpile of meds from the passing Psych.*
I recon im about there

Home. Slightly productive. Trying to figure out what sewing technique i want to use on the placemats and serviettes. Still have to hem party-favor bags, 17 of the 20 of them.

wildone, please, don't don't don't.

*sighs and goes back to the sewing machine*

Just to let you know I've heard from Em.

So least we know she's still physically okay.

She's gonna call me later today.

I'm in canberra chloe....so yeah, i'll back back tonite after a 4 1/2hr train trip ugh...

But yeah still feeling :-( how r u chloe?

hate my boss. so easy to just... go.

*hugs jess*

*snuggles Jess*

Let go in what way?

Do not even think about letting go!

We all have bad bosses, especially me! :laugh:

emotions okay for now, but no expectations.

i have so much work to do, trying to decide if I i pre-sew then pin and press, or what.

had enough of this ****! i want to quit evetyhign.

you want to quit even us?

not you guys... it's just so hard though susan :(

I'm sorry yo're going through a hard time too. have you heard anythign about your friend?

I talked to my friend. And to her caretaker, helper, interpreter between the hospital and the rest of us. Nothing is certain, it a matter of wait and see. Today it was better, tomorrow might be a serious challenge.

So, i'm stable. My husband is being a sweetie and picking up some groceries on the way home.

On the seams of store-bought clothes, you know how there are extra threads looped over the raw edges of the fabric? That is called serging. There are serging machines for home use too.

I'm going to go see if serging mud brown linen with boring brown thread will make the proscess of hemming all that stuff, serviettes and place mats, go any faster, especially saving time at the ironing board. 40 pieces, four sides each. There is a method to make it go fast though. Then if it works with the brown, i'll try it with the white.

Thanks for reading that boring bit. Of course I'll check on y'all here when I get up in the morning, my morning that is!

Jess, i know how hard it is. *gives you a comforting hug*

*snuggles Jess*

*huggles

*huggles Susan too*

*huggles Jess, Susan, and Helen*

i'm feeling empty.
numb.
suicidal, basically.

i wish i was invisible and then nobody would miss me and i wouldn't keep feeling guilty.

I was loading the dishes into the dishwasher tonight and found a spider. I wonder if the neighbors heard me shriek?

I'm working on the job, a bit at a time. One thing about working from home, it is always easy to get in some work at odd hours.

*accepts and returns hugs*

Finally back from my trip

YES!!! i'll miss u chloe!! i've missed u for the last 3 weeks..it wouldn't be the same without u in the psych ward :-(

*hugs you lots*

*hugs you* Oh hunni, I'd miss you. I know so many of us in here would miss you.

Been discharged from the hospital. Went out last night but my meds made me feel sick, so I came home early.
I hate my meds. They give me the shakes and make alcohol have a bad effect on me.

*hugs everyone* Just popping in to say hi. I've got an appointment with the psychiatrist in a couple of weeks so I think I'm going to ask for my meds to be upped.

*hugs you two*

Welcome home Zowie :D

*Sending you all loads of hugs*

If anyone needs to chat i'm here :) well i have to go out in a minute but i should be back soonish just gotta go see a friend that don't stop worrying about me, and he wants to see me every day it's kinda annoying but oh well.

xxxEmmaxxx

*runs in and hids in her corner under her blanket and sobs*

I. Just. Feel. ****. :crying:

I'm being melodramatic, I know, but it just all seems too much at the moment, everything is happening at once, all these appointments, all this humiliation, everything :crying:

Love you all.

^ *hugs*



Low.

Zowie, you will get used to the meds and the side effects will not be so bad.

*hugs Zowie and farawayfairy and Ku and Ally*

My worries are at a low level right now, cause today's events haven't clicked into my emotions.

*hugs everyone*

*hugs susan and helen*

just wondering if i can join the vitual psych ward please? as ive just taken an od so not feeling great. hugs to everyone.
throws lots of sweets and chocolates about.

it keeps raining...it doesnt stop...i cant do this...

You can, trust me hun

but im tired...

Course you can nancy. But sweetie if you've od'd you should get checked out...
Alexx hun you can, honest. Listen to Jess, and me.I know you're tired but you can do it.
Not sure I can though.

Who isn't?
Emotionally, mentally, physically all of them
But you've come so far, beaten so much
Why give it all up now?

Ignore this post ><

because i cant take anymore...

We are all here for you
We will all help you in anyway we can
We won't let you fall

I just want to sleep..I dont want to wake up.

Ive ****ed up and let you all done...

I should make more of an effort not to get involved with people...

You haven't let anyone down
You couldn't, even if you tried hun
Not get involved? That about who / what I'm thinking it is?

wow I'm not online for 36hours and so much has happend in here. I never left the psych ward mentally, I feel safe here.....well kinda, but I wasn't trusting myself so went to stay at my best mates and had a good ol cry and tantrum and am now back, still crappy but better than some and so here to offer support to those who are struggling. Please don't give in yet, so many people here care about you and I haven't been given the opportunity to get to know you all yet. Please don't give up and let go, stay for just a while longer at least and see how things go. Maybe at some point i'll be able to give you a rainbow to help make all the rain seem worthwhile, but for now, even though I don't know you all, just remember that we are not **** ups. We are the good people, the reason we struggle is often because we care too much. Why should that be a bad quality that we punish? Lets all pull together and try and think at least one good thought about ourselves before we go to sleep tonight, even if its as simple as "I survived another hellish day" then I say good for you, cos I know how hard it must have been for you, but believe me it does get better, unfortunately it takes a lot of time.
....don't know where that came from, was feeling insighful for a change.....i'm gonna get brave now and attempt to snuggle people....
*sheepishly and tentitively snuggles those in ward*