Am half & half at the moment
Half excited about Christmas half feeling bad about Christmas

Hugs everyone :) How are you all today. I'm sorry to hear you're half and half Willow but not to worry the C day is almost over ;) Additionally your namesake is a flexible tree, it can withstand anything even the most harsh of winds, it bends but does not break, it is resilient and so are you dear.

I'm sorry you're half and half too willow , But I'm similar , not really exited though , and there meat and other animal products which I don't like as a vege . I'm feeling that high pitched , fizzy shooting in me anxiety :)*sigh* I had to take a Diaz and I've only been at my parents a few hours , I'm here for 4 days. sorry I don't mean to be all Bah! Humbug :S

How are you Aoife?

I'm not too bad, although my neighbours are making a lot of noise while my brother is trying to sleep so he'll get up in a bad mood and bring me down.

Less than a day til Christmas <3

Oh my god. Christmas Eve.
I have got so much to do.
*hugs ward leaving everyone presents and cookies*

I'll seriously talk to you guys after Christmas!

*Christmas Hugs Lindsay* I hope your brother get some sleep despite the noise .

*Christmas Hugs Helen* How are you hun?

*Christmas Hugs Felicia* * Sings "Jingle Bells to ya" :)

Merry Christmas Eve everyone. :)

*Christmas Hugs Ya Lia*

*Hugs Mark* Happy Christmas :) How are you today?

I can't believe it's Christmas Eve already. I exchanged presents with my best friend last night, she got me a 'I believe in nargles' t-shirt and her mum knitted me a griffindor scarf and put on the label 'To Lia, from Mrs Weasley' :)

I'm feeling okay , a little tense and the anxiety is niggleing at me .
Those are epic ( word for the day ) Presants , is their Surname really Weasley? that would be AWESOME !!! oh , whats a nargle? a HP beast ?

Epic! That's my word! haha.

Oh, I don't feel good. I think I'm just nervous.

Merry Christmas Lia and Mark? How will you be celebrating? I hope you are both well. Hugs :)

I know Felicia , I stole it :) *Hugs* Whats making you so low ? Christmas?

Christmas Day at My Parents with my Parents , Granny, Sister , Brother in law and baby Neice then Boxing day at My Sisters familys :) *Hugs Aoife* What are you doing for Christmas ?

I m ok Mark, holidays are not my favourite time of year, its the calm before the storm so to speak, my family usually has a huge argument right after Christmas so I'm mentally preparing myself for that. Mum and the girls are in the kitchen baking, I'm staying as far away as possible, my feeble attempt to stay out of the way and avoid any potential disasters. How are you doing? The anxiety any better? Hugs, I hope you day goes well. happy Holidays.

Word stealer! You're lucky I'm nice and know how to share.

I don't particularly want my grandma's neighbors and their kids at our house when I open my presents at her house tonight. She said my gifts were rather ostentatious. Well, I don't want everyone to think I'm trying to make myself and what I get seem impressive, so i'm a bundle of nerves about it.

Oh dear not to worry Kitty, you'll be just fine ;)

*Hugs Aoife* I hope your Christmas go's well and this isn't the calm before the storm .

*Hugs Felicia* I hope your presant giving and receiving go's okay hun , let us know what you get . Dull moment , whats ostentatious? Does it mean fancy? You cannot be held responsible for what others give you though can , can you ? (Rhetorical Question) You can't

Merry Christmas Felicia and Aoife. I hope you can both have a good time. I have to go now, visiting family, but I might pop in for a visist on my phone, and I will be back before the day is out I'm sure :)

And yes, I am Lia :)

P/s No Mark, it's not their real name, but she was just being awesome :) And a nargle is a creature that only Luna Lovegood believes in, she's slightly insane,but awesome :) She thinks mistletoe is infested with them.

Have fun with your family, Lia.

Thanks, Aoife, I try not to worry, but sometimes it gets the best of me. You can call me Felicia if you like, I just realized I never introduced myself.

Mark, ostentatious means with the intent of being impressive/fancy/pompous. I know I can't be responsible, but it angers me that she buys a ton of stuff for me then tells me I'm supposed to look ostentatious and not care. Oh well. I hope you have fun at your parents!

*Hugs Felicia* Well I hope it's not too bad for you .

Massive rows with my fiance today. I'm so fed up of this christmas thing already. Just wish it was over so I can go into hospital and get some peace.

I just hate it, he keeps getting mad at me and I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I hate this. I told him truthfully I'm disappointed some days when I wake up. Now he won't talk to me until I apologise.

Edit - Now he's talking to me. I said I didn't want to start a massive row at home to stay with him Christmas night, because if I can't get people to agree I'll have an awful Christmas and I'll see what I can do Saturday night. But now its in another argument, so this is insane and I hate it.

Oh Sarah *Huggles* I'm sorry you had a huge row :( But at least you are talking now . I hope tomorrow improves for you and that you have at worst a good day going up to Fantastic!

-hugs ward- I here everyone

Thanks Mark. He's still going on about one thing I said, calling me aggressive about it. I said I might not be able to stay at his Christmas night because it might be horrific at home. And things are a mess. I hate this. I don't want to wake up tomorrow. Even if it is Christmas, its all hurting so much, even though things are good at home, things suck elsewhere. Hey Kitty xxx

*Hugs Sarah* I hope you DO wake up tomorrow , I would miss you if anything should happen to you .

*Hey Kitty* *Christmas Hugs* How are you ?

*cuddles Mark* thanks. Beginning to feel like the ward is all I have left :(

*hugs wardies*

I hope we all have a lovely Christmas. Please try stay safe & enjoy yourselves xxx

hey sarah -hugs-

-hugs mark back- I'm ok right now.



Tomorrow will be difficult but it will be over soon. How are you?

*Hugs Sarah* I rely on this ward too.

*Hugs Helen* I hope you have a safe and happy Christmas too hun :)

*Hugs Kitty* Be careful there hun :S

Thanks Mark :) *hugs lots*

I'm careful. I can't get in trouble for it I don't have any on me. It's just that it helps me when I am able to have it. So yeah. -hugs again-

*cuddles Kitty* good, we don't want you in trouble hun

*snuggles Mark*

*huggles Helen* Have a safe, happy Christmas too

All is happy again, Christmas brings so much stress to everyone

I am so not looking forward to tomorrow, though. It's going to be a horrible day. But I'm going to embrace the time I do have when I can enjoy myself before I have to face the big, the bad, and the ugly. Hehe.

*Snuggles Sarah back*

*Hugs Kitty* No , like Sarah says ,we don't want you to get in any trouble :S

-hugs mark- Like I said, I won't. The person entertaining/hosting us is legal.

-snuggles and squishes sarah-

Goodnight everyone :) hugs. A pleasure to meet you Felicia. HUgs Sarah I hope you do wake up tomorrow and all the days following it. Hugs Kitty I hope tomorrow goes well for you. Hello mark thank you, we'll see what happens. My asthma's been flaring up again, its a sign of whats to come :(

Here at my mothers for half an hour and there aguements about a damn tv
makes me feel like i want to cut .

Back to arguments. I've had enough. I really have. I just tried to be nice, thats all I ever do. I never do anything to hurt anyone and this is what I get. :/ I love you guys. Thanks for being here when everything else has been ****.

*huggles/waves at all wardies*

Another milestone reached: 28 months SI Free today! Woot!!

-> Hels, do you reach a milestone today (christmas day) as well?

From the GP visit yesterday: I have to get a CT scan of my spine to check that my nerves aren't damaged. :-( Hopefully nothing is too bad. && I have to replace my mattress, which isn't going to be cheap. *sigh*

May everyone have a good day and find something enjoyable in it.

*leaves hugs and safe love and care packages for all*

<3 <3 <3

congrats on the 28 months! :)

I send my congrats on 28 months too! That's a huge mile stone and you should be very proud! :)

I'm new to the Psych Ward. I've read a few posts above about family arguments and such... seems like every Christmas ends in tears for me... makes me dread it and I hate that. i have 3 beautiful children and I want to love Christmas as much as they do, but the truth is that i hate the stress, the drama (it always happens no matter how much you try to avoid it) and the arguments (can no one just suck it up for ONE day!?).

I'm looking forward to seeing the kids open their gifts in the morning, but the rest of the day kind of feels like a chore. We have my parents/sister's around 9am and my hubby's dad's after that. We prolly won't be home 'til late tomorrow. If I had my way I'd watch the kids open gifts in the morning and crawl back into bed with a cup of hot mocha and a good book and not move for the rest of the day! lol

*hugs ward*
please tell me after the holidays I won't hurt like this anymore.
Improvised a tool, harmed, still can't focus/feel okay.
I can't do this... I just can't.

*Hugs Aoife*

*Hugs WIllow*

*Hugs Felicia* I'm so sorry you injured hun , please take the time to look after your cut/s .

*Hugs Limeep if Okay* Welcome to the ward , I'm Mark :)

*Hugs Kahlia* 28 Months! Go you!!!!!!!!!*Throws Christmas confetti*

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Kitty*

*Hugs Helen* Go you !! on your milestone too hun :)

Well I was cold and forgot my warm tops , they are still flung over my bedroom door in my flat and I am at my Parents 2 towns/villages over , so I'm wearing one of my Dads old cardigans which is warm.

Whilst I'm online this morning I'd just like to wish you all a Happy Holiday Period and a fantastic 2011!!!!!!
I love you guys :)
*Festive Hugs*
<3
Mark.

Thanks Mark, the same goes to you.