Thank you! I just don't want to be on the 'outside'
Oh this pillow is well soft :D

How about a mug of hot chocolate too? *passes a mug*

Night everyone i need to be up at stupid o clock so i can do boring monotonus tasks for shiny pennies.

Alexx hun, if he doesn't listen then please see someone else...
Night night 1ofmany (sorry I don't know your name)


I have the next couple of days to myself...so triggered...

just thought i'd to share my chocolate with anyone who wants it. theyre revels so its pot luck i'm afraid

oooh revels steals one... hope its not a raisin one.

plenty to go around, so if it is it doesnt matter

oooh revels...coffee <3

*puts them in a bowl in the middle of the room for anyone who wants them then goes back to her corner*

hello ppl :-)

How is everybody today? xxx

Hey =)
Pass. How are you?

Errrh, i'm okies i think :-)

How was ur day Ku? Hope it was pleasant

My day is just about to start :P

It was...a mix of nice and boring and annoying. So overall fine.
But doesn't stop my thoughts.
What've you got planned then?

aww...*hugs Ku*

Got friends coming over so yeah, it should be a nice day overall hopefully

*hugs back*
Hugs are good.
Sure it will be. Always good to have mates round =)

Yeppers!

Hahahaha.... I bought a blade to work >.>

Hun be careful...

*thinks there is plenty of cushions, blankets, pillows, etc to go around and EVERYONE is deserving of them*

I got back from sydney yesterday... today my partner has gone for two weeks... maybe more... have asked if a friend will come stay this weekend... am I safe? Nope. not even close... I kinda wish she can't come... >.>

*hugs Jess*

*hugs everyone*
*hands a pillow and blanket to mors certa* You are as deserving as anyone here.

It was nice to have a client who paid without complaint. Even about the price of making the pattern, actually appreciated the work that went into it and the benefits of having it. Liked what I made and wants plenty more of them.

Call Forwarding tonight, the last shift of it, I've had to quit, can't afford the sleep loss. So maybe I'll get a nap before my husband gets home.

*goes back to her pillow and blanket next to the wall and again just kinda looks at people until she falls asleep*

*storms around a bit before flopping down in her corner and crying*

That's it. It's official. God hates me :crying:. Still no keys. No big deal except I was already feeling bad enough... And for some reason unknown to man I just can't bring myself to cut most of the time, even if I want to. Guess that means I'm hitting the grocery after work and getting some booz and some gatoraid.

**** me. :crying:

*smacks head against the wall* i feel sick.

*walks beside Mors Certa*
Want some company?

hahah friend coming to stay overe tomorrow but not saturday... oing to cut this afternoon. i have it planned out... oh dear.

*hugs Jess and joins her in the head banging*

Hunni, it's not worth it, you've done so well *snuggles*

*offers her champagne around*

*downs all of ally's champagne and collapses on the floor feeling dizzy*

today, i am dangerous.

*lays in fetal position, holds head, and cries* Owwwwwie!!!!!!

Sure. *passes Mors Certa the nonalcoholic champagne*

I shouldn't be drinking... It doesn't even taste good... I just want to not feel... *crys in her corner*

C'est la vie. *shrug* probably should be in hospital but no way on earth am I going.

Anyway how goes it with you?

*grabs head in dispare*
Good lord I want to cut :crying:

Hun, no need to leave. I'm sorry you're having such a rough time of it. I'm glad you don't have any alcohol. Sounds like that's the last thing you need...

It the last thing I need, for sure. One bottle of champagne down and I've already had my head in the toilet :pinch:good news is I've lost the calories from that more than half the medium pizza I ate... Well, a lot of them anyway. Not to mention in my state of mind alcohol just adds fuel to the fire:crying:.

*hugs* Take care, hun.

Mors Certa, sorry we couldn't provide a safe place for you. I always have non-alcoholic free stuff; just diet Pepsi and raspberry Diet Rite, which i think is local but I bring it with me wherever I go.

Btw, the blankets and furniture and carpeting and the walls of the tent are magic. They never stain.

My last shift of call forwarding for AA. It has wrecked my sleep too much. I feel bad about having to drop out, but as much as they need the help, i'm no good to anyone including myself if I get too tired. And some of my fellow sufferers in her know, for me "dizzy" means tired to the point of lightheadedness.

*hugs everyone*

Off to my sofa and the travel alarm and my cell phone.

*cuddles every1 in the psych ward*

PM me if u need a chat or anything there
Hope everybody is ok? :-)

so I did a little cut... just a small one...didn't hit the vein. Ran out of time... but now i have a goal. My doctor got teary.... but still wont admit me beacsue he knows it will jus... be it.

Got a reminder at 12:30 about why this is my last shift of call forwarding. I gotta tell my husband about this one. Too special for words.

*cuddles Jess*
Oh hun... *more cuddles*

My husband says that what I did with that phone call last night was appropriate.

*cuddles Jess*
*cuddles Ally*
*cuddles Jem cause he's here*

Even if I snore, please, let me sleep?

Ty Susan
*Cuddles u and ally together* Group hug lol

*places a blanket over Mors Certa*

:-) How r u there?

Hey all. Argh i am such an idiot, i forgot my keys and had to climb a ladder and get in through the bathroom window. Gave my neighbours a laugh.

lmao..silly duffer :P lol

Don't worry about waking me up. I have to start to wake up anyhow.

Mors Certa, it isn't about deserving. Not here. You are trying to help yourself by being here. We'll help you and you'll help us.

*pulls Mors Certa out of his corner and hands him a bowl of her RootBeer Float ice cream* it's pretty much amaising.

And susans right...

Jess, Mors Certa, sorry to hear that you're really having a tough time, please try and stay safe *extra special snuggles*
*snuggles everyone else*
I hope we're all doing ok in here today guys. I've only just felt like chatting today as been trying to distract myself with cleaning my flat, though it probably didn't need doing. Been crying on and off all morning and didn't think I'd have the strength to snuggle and offer support. I now feel weak with hunger but I don't want to eat as worried that I'll be sick cos I'm soo worried at the moment. I've not had any communication from Eoghan for 10days now, we've not gone that long since the beginning of his tour 4months ago. I'm so scared that he's stuck out in some terrible contact, I mean I know this is his job and that no news is good news, but still, really terrible thoughts have been invading my mind and I feel terrible for not thinking positive, but I just haven't the strength today to be strong. I'm not strong without Eoghan, I'm just pathetic..........
sorry for rambling.....
*goes out to smoking shelter for a few fags to try and calm down*

*hugs everyone*

don't know about a jail cell? I'm sure you don't deserve that. I have been a few times in the padded cell in here, not so bad, it might be vacant if you feel you really need it. If you shout really loud we can still hear you if you need us.

oh yes, padded cell corners were rather comfy when I was in there. Great for rocking in. Don't forget to holler if you need us. I wish I could offer you more support than pointing you in the direction of the padded cell, but I really don't have much to give today.
Do you reckon you can actually run out of tears?

HELP!!!
I know how to stop myself from crying but it really isn't the best idea and will only cause more tears in the long run.....I've really had enough today, I just want to know that Eoghan's ok, but now I'm scared of him phoning as I can't break down on him, he can't know that I'm struggling, he can't worry about me, he has too much to deal with out there.....
I want to go to sleep and wake up when he's back safely in 13weeks.....if i'm sleeping then I can't cut......

*sits next to Hayley and holds her*
don't wish away 13 weeks something amazing could happen in that time.