<crashes into the thread with a duvet and pillow>

Hi.

*hugs Katie* I hope you feel better hun

Hi Celtic *hugs if okay*

soothinglycalming :D still feels like a headcrab sits on my head. ô.ô video is calming.

*hugs m0nk* hope that's okies :)

*leavs some goodies on the table - brownies, choc chip cookies, chip and drinks*

I feel trapped with the end of the road coming up quickly :(

*hugs Matt*

Apparently I dissociated and actually cut myself in the middle of a club. F*ck. Then, supposedly, came home and cut some more. I remember going into the club, then I remember looking at my arm in my room and realising I needed stitches. Feel so hopeless right now.

That sounds horrid sapphire hearts :( How are you feeling now? I hope you're okay!

Been having a really sh*t day. Really want to curl up and forget the stupid world. Hate my moods.

thanks celtic *offers safe hugs* wasn't fun.

Sorry your day is **** - hope things improve for you x

*hugs Katie and Celtic* I hope both of your days get better :)

I wish I could have a good day for once without looking over my shoulder and hoping no one is watching me

*hugs Matt* someday you won't have to look over your shoulder, I promise. Hope things get better for you sweetie.

*hugs Katie* I hope that will be true someday. Things fluctuate for me it seems like on an hourly basis... sometimes I am fine and then i end up depressed/angry over something... ugh. Wish it would all go away... wish I could just go away for a while

Cut the deepest I ever have last night. Can now barely walk. All stitched up and nowhere to go... Except my eight and a half hour bar shift tonight. Not sure how I'm going to deal with that, frankly. I'm so screwed up right now.

I cant stop crying... I am so tired and so stressed... my head hurts so bad and I just wish I could self destruct... blah... fun times

*hugs Katie* hope the bar shift went okies. How are you feeling today?

*hugs raining_inmy head if okay* what's making you so stressed?

*hugs raining* what's up sweetie?

*hugs Matt* A&E two nights in a row :( not good. Stressed out because my partner for tomorrow's presentation dropped out at the last minute without doing any work, so have to try and do it myself.

How are you doing sweetheart? xx

Hugs all,

Hope everyone is safe...

Fun times, realising you are completely alone... No one to talk to at all...
I need to learn to deal with me myself... Hmm...

Checks in for a few days... And puts the kettle on...

It's very quiet in here.

Sorry i've been awol, was in hospital for 12 weeks.

Back in again.

Had a bit of a relapse last week- nothing too serious, but I'm still upset it happened.

I also have a friend calling me selfish and a terrible person because I won't go drinking with her, even though I'm barely managing to make it to lectures right now let alone socialise.

/crashes in the corner

i always let myself be forgotten on the back burner.
maybe i just need the time... here... to pull myself back together. remind myself that i'm important enough for the front lines.

I think I better check in for a while. I have been lurking but need some kindness.

*Brings in fuzzy warm blanket, peppermint tea, and fluffy pillow*

*offers tea to everyone*

it's a rough time. i'm so stressed. *hides under blanket*

checking in

* curls up *
Don't feel safe hurt myself things too bad :(

*sneaks in and curls up in the corner* I am so tempted to go get a tool out tonight ...........

*leaves a box of hugs on the table*

(So unhappy and alone tonight, I need to stay here a while)

Checking in. Possibly permanently. Everything is so f*cked up right now.

*snugs katie*

Thank heather *snuggles back*

<3 checkin in ><

*joins heather* will live here now. Too much.

"If you could argue with religious people there would be no religious people" - Greg House

i wanted to cut during christmas but didnt. idk. cristmas spirit saved med. ho ho ho

I am a secret dream
All the things inside myself never to be revealed.
Secrets that will stay forever hidden by my shield.
All the words that I could say never could explain
The reasons why I do these things seeming so insane
All the desperation that motivates my mind
The loneliness, depression, for things now left behind
I wander through this darkness to never be unveiled
For if I would let down the mask it would be as I had failed
Did I ever exist as the person I thought myself to be?
Or was it just an image I portrayed for all to see?
I will never find those answers so I continue on in vain
In an endless search for memory and that which will remain
Laughing voices call my name looking frantically for a face
But these are just the ghosts of past now gone without a trace
This is how I bide the time until my days have past
No one to remember me, but as shimmer at the last
Search nevermore for my face, for it never did appear
All was just a nightmare, an illusion born of fear
I am a secret dream

*Glomps Wardies*

*plays soothing music* I'm checking in for the minute don't feel too good, too lucid just too lucid everything is bright I feel vulnerable.

*checking in*

I want to hurt myself today, no one wants me and everyone would laugh and cheer if I died

Midnight Star ,people wouldn't laugh and cheer :)

I feel very out-of-control. I need to be somewhere safe for a little while.

i am disappearing again... blah... i feel another psychotic event coming in the Force, so i will hide n here so that they will all go away

Checking in..might need to stay for a while

Sigh.... I am going to stay in here for a while... I am losing it

um hi

*checks in for a short stay*

*offers Melissa a cookie*

*takes cookie and eats it*
*snuggles up with duvet and ice-cream with julie*

Hey guys

*checks in* having someone to look after me would be very nice right now.

*gets dragged in struggling*

*gets locked up in the ward's padded room*

*snuggles into a corner* I'm staying for a while

*comes back in smuggling something in with me to hurt myself - not that anyone cares*

I care *hugs Midnight -star and pries away the tool*