*Cuddles everyone*
lol Lia, thats ok :)

cuddles mark, charlie and lia. curls up, damn it im freaking out so much. damn i wish thur would hurry up.

*Cuddles Jill* Are you ok?
Do you think they do lemon chocolate.............?

no not really, have a panic attack, more i try and stop the worse it gets.

*Huggles* Have you tried breathing exercises and distractions?

Breath deep Jill

thanks guys.just need to stop thinking about stuff, and relax. if it goes belly up,
it goes belly up there is noithing i can do about it, but try my best just hope its good enough

*flails*

I don't want to be here anymore. I don't want to be anywhere. I feel burnt out... there's nothing I want to do anymore, there's nothing I am looking forward to, I just want to give up and STOP. Stop breathing, stop living. My life... hurts so much right now.

The diet is really really harsh and makes me so angry. Irrationally so, because it's only "for my own good" but honestly... I miss my desserts. >:| Sounds dumb but you try going for 4 days without having any "real" sugar!! I've had aspartame-sweetened tea and diet soda but nothing else sweet. I don't usually have a lot of sweets but when I know I can't have any I miss them like crazy...

We're in the "eye of the storm" right now... got ~6 inches of snow this morning and then tonight we're supposed to get ~2 inches of ice. I'm not working tomorrow, and work today was easy-peasy and boring. We had a pizza party (since I can't have the crust due to the gluten, I just ate the toppings off one slice) and the staff had a training (it was kinda interesting, on creating safety for someone who's gone through trauma) via telecon. I also got caught up (some) on paperwork. Hubby also has tomorrow off so hopefully we can find something fun to do... although I have no idea what we'll do, especially if the power goes out and we can't drive anywhere because of ice accumulations. >_>

I'm so over everything. And I'm sorry for not doing individuals, I just am really overwhelmed right now. :(

*Holds April*

*gives all more hugs*

I just give up right now... i'm tired of fighting for everything, especially relevance in my reality. *sigh* Oh well.

It's all empty again.....
I'm not gonna run around naked again though cause people always turn up XD
*looks around shiftily.*

*huggles everybody*

*glomps April* - good to see you sweetheart!!

The cyclone is due to hit between Innisfail and Cardwell (about 2 hours up the coast from us) between 10 pm and midnight tonight. TC Yasi is now a category 5 cyclone and still intensifying. She's about 500 km long and the area expected to be covered by her destruction is from Cairns to Townsville (where I live) which is a 4 hour drive to help you get some perspective on her size. If she hits up north we will most likely have destruction similar to being hit by a strong category 2 so we are expecting severe destructive winds, power losses, storm surges of up to 2 metres on top of high tides etc.. The city has been evacuated in some areas already, but we have gotten off lightly. Cardwell has been completely evacuated as the storm surge there is expected to hit 7 metres about the high tide which will swamp the town - and with Yasi hitting as well, Cardwill will be completely decimated.

Sorry, I know that no-one is probably interested, but we are terrified. TC Yasi is massive - the biggest in living memory - in pictures next to the QLD coast she's almost the size of half the coast. We are in danger of losing all our possessions as well as our lives. We fear for everyone in the path but cannot do anything. Feeling powerless is just so ......

I don't know. I'm sorry.

*cuddles Puppy SinClair*

*hugs kahlia* i hope that you are ok, it sounds scary and vey terrifying what is going on.

*hugs April* its nice to see you around again, sorry things are not good and that diet does sound very harsh.

*hugs Charlie, yodabear, Jill, Mark,Lia* how areyou all?

*hugs Kahlia* i hope that you all get through this safely and with not much damage

*hugs frenchhorn*

*hugs for everyone else in here*

Meh. I haven't really changed since earlier today. Still very unhappy

anyone here

*Hugs Jill*
*Hugs April*
*Hugs YodaBear*
*Hugs Charlie*
*Hugs Kahlia*I hope you are safe hun :S
*Hugs Oliver*
*Hugs Julie*

*hugs everyone*

I'm seeing someone from the crisis team today but I doubt they will be able to help. I'm holding on to see my brother on Friday but then that's it. I've completely had enough.

Lindsay Hun maybe the member of your crisis team will be able to help , please be honest with them *Hugs*

hugs everyone, curls up. damn im getting so freaked out about this interview, please let it be okay. =/

*Huggles everyone*

*Hugs Jill* Whens your interview? , I'm sure It'll go okay :)

*Hugs Charlie*

hugs mark back. the interview is tomorrow at 11.30, so nervous, can't calm myself down really want to sh. meh

So.......... I say I'm feeling flat today and my Dad's reponse is "Yeah well we all get days like that" , FFS he doesn't get it , does he have days when he absolutley HAS to Cut ? No , so we don't all have days like this ..... :( Anxious enough to need a Diaz ....

hugs mark, im sorry your feeling down, and that you want to sh. i feel the same tonight. please try and stay safe.

Thanks Jill Hun *Hugs* You take care too :)

Drinking Tonic and PLJ , I like it and it's alcohol free and I must go a day before I meet with my Keyworker tomorrow. I could go out for booze but NO! not tonight.

Hey guys :)

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Jill*

*Hugs Charlie*

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Ian* How are you mate?

Thanks Mark :) im good thanks, how are you?

*peeks out from the corner I've been hiding in*
I know I've not been commenting or supporting or even saying hi lately... at this point some of you may even have forgotten I'm here... but can I have a hug?

Hey its ok. We dont expect you to be hear 24/7 and we all struggle, sometimes it gets to much and you have to have a bit of a break. *Hugs Crimson* How are you?

Of course you can have a Hug Crimson ! *Hugs*

How are you Mark?

Well , I'm sober , Bit pissed off at myself TBH , I don't much like myself right now , such a screw up :(

*cuddles crimson* i'm not around much either anymore... but i definitely haven't forgot about you!

*hugs ian* glad to hear that you are doing good today!

*hugs mark* you are not a screw up!

*Hugs Laura* Thanks hun , I just feel like I should have beat this by my age ........... *sigh*
How are you doing Laura?

hugs mark, you are not a screw up, whats made you think that about yourself?

*huggles Laura, Mark and Ian* thanks guys...

*hugs jill* how r u?

*hugs crimson* u okay?

*hugs mark* there is no requirement for when anyone has to "beat" anything. everyone is different. On another note. I know that you can beat this! Things can get better.

I've been better. Fine though. Its a snow day here, so i'm glad about that. Last night i had to walk home in waist deep snow!!!

hugs everybody, erm i not great tonight laura. whoa waist deep snow thats crazy.

*Hugs Jill*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Crimson*

I know There is no "Set time" but I've fought for 16 years , isn't this enough?

Has Facebook gone down for anyone else?

hugs back.nope still working for me mark sorry

*Night time Hugs my Wardies*

Sleep well , or have a great day (Hemisphere depending) :P

Hey all *hugs*

hey lia, hows it going?

Hmm, very quiet night. *Hugs everyone*
I don't think I can handle college today, we have cooking which means lots of sharp and hot objects :(

*Hugs Lia*
*Hugs Jill*
*Hugs Charlie* plaese try and stay safe hun .

*hugs ward*
I am a terrible wardie, cause I always go missing, but I hope you all have/are having a wonderful day.
And I love you all!

You're NOT a horrible Wardie Felicia *Hugs*