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Kat ~ *hugs you tightly*. Sorry I don't have any words at the moment. Just hoping and praying that you can stay safe.
Helen ~ *hugs you right back* *hugs Dayna, Jem & anyone who wanders in* * * * * * Had a bad day yesterday. Kept disappearing into my room. Finally managed to cry for a bit, and got tired, but not tired enough to sleep. Decided I was a danger to myself if I stayed on my own for too much longer so went and interrupted one of my housemates. After a smoke and a little chat we went for a drive down to McCafe to "get [me] out of my head, and out of the house". We ended up going down to the pub last night and I had a couple of drinks. Felt like trying to get sh*tfaced, but we drove down there and my housemate was going for gold so I had to stay sober enough to drive home. [Also don't like getting sh*tfaced 'cause I don't like feeling out of control ...] Followed this up with a bad nights sleep and ... meh. So tired, almost out of smokes and want to cut. And it's freaking O Week ... |
*Hugs everyone*
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*holds Dayna while she is screaming and cuddles her when she stops*
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*hugs Jem**hugs Jade**hugs Katie**hugs Alexx**hugs MaryAnne**hugs Ileana*
*hugs Julilly* you wanna talk about it? *hugs Dayna* hey how's the new place? *hugs Arwen* did you manage to avoid the filming? *hugs Helen* hope you're okay, you feeling any better? *hugs Shell* hope you had a good weekend :) *cuddles Kahlia gently, gives cushion so the wall doesn't hurt so much* *hugs Kat* hope you get through this, stay safe *hugs to all entering the ward* curls up in a ball, wishing next week didn't have to start so soon. |
*cuddles hannah*
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No net from tomorrow =(
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*comes in wiv big duvet, wants so sleep and never wake up*
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Chkymnky - I want you to wake up *hugs*
Snuffles - good luck, will be thinking of you *hugs* *leaves hugs for everyone* Sorry I abandoned you all over the weekend, had a horrible sickness bug - being ill is rubbish :( x |
Dayna Welcome back. How did the move go???
Wildly < big hugs back to you > thanks Mary Anne Hope you get better soon xxx Hugs for everyone else xxx Having a better day today so Hopefully I can spread good vibes around. I hope everyone has a good day Love Jade xxx |
arrrg - Why me? Why Now? Why wont people stop trying to rule and ruin my life!!!!
*grabs her teddy and cries* I am so sick of everything - my bf mumhas just been onthe phone to me giving me agro! dont know how much more of this i can take - first it wa my mother now its his - no one wants us to be happy!!! im am so sick of it all |
Just checking in. Just for the day. Looking around and just want to watch people. That helps me. Thanks for the virtual ward. This would be my first time admitted here.
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Sorry I disappeared, been trying to calm myself back down as I've been driving myself (and probably everyone else) up the damm ****ing wall about that ****ing incident. I JUST WANT TO STOP THINKING ABOUT IT AND FOR IT TO BE GONE.
Because nobody's going to do anythung. I might aswell make myself move on. But I don't know how to. The more I try to forget, the more I think on it. Nearly od today, not sure I can go much longer without. :( |
Hugs and welcome to Nikki and PoeIsAliveInMe
Dear Helen xxx Im sorry that nothing is getting done and you are feeling angry and overwhelmed. Please keep posting, dont do anything silly. You are much thought of on here Jade xxx ::::::::::::::::::: hugs to everyone :::::::::::::::::::: |
*clings to Jade*
I'm sorry. I just don't know what to do. =/ Well I do... But I'm too scared to talk to my counsellor...(well shes techically not my counsellor again yet until I have an appointment) ...but I dont know how to cope til then :S |
Firstly sorry I haven't been around, so much has happened in the past few days and Im just not sure how to deal with it yet so I was taking a break from the world.
*hugs Helen* its hard to forget about it, maybe write bullet points if you can't talk about it to her yet? *hugs Katrica* *leaves hugs and sweeties for everyone else* I shall try and check in regularly for a few days. |
*hugs Secrets* Thank you hun
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Stresssssssssed.
Wildly: New place is okay, thanks. A tip, but okay Jade: The move was stressful, lol, but the worst of it is out of the way and done with now, thank **** *Hugs all* Sorry, I don't have the patience or the concentration to make a load of individual replies today |
Hugs to you Dayna, Put your feet up and relax xxx
They say moving is one of the stressful things you can do xxx < helps unpack > xxx |
Moving is VERY VERY stressful.
I've moved 5 times already. Mum's moved at least 10 times, if not more!!! We were looking into moving last year, for several reasons, but that fell through, though if my Dad loses his job, we could be looking at having to move though the encomincal crsis is pretty *****. |
Wow thats a lot of moving, Helen < fingers crossed > that you wont have to move again xxx
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Jade: Thanks *hugs back*
Helen: Christ alive o____o;; I never want to move again. I think I'd go completely loopy if I had to move five times D: *hugs you too* |
Bye everyone =( I'll be back one day =( Take care *cuddles*
Dayne good to see you back!!! Hopefully when I get back we'll have a place =) |
Take care Snuffles xxx Miss you xxx
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*Cuddles Katie* Hope to see you soon <3
How're you holding up, Jade? |
Dayna Im doing better today thank you xxx
Thanks for asking xxx How are you doing???? |
Glad to hear it, and you're welcome. Between friends **** and our old landlord, I'm stressed to high hell
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Helen: Eeeee, I'd hate to leave somewhere after 10 years D:
Ah crap, the dog wants a walk. Back soon |
*leaves hugs for all*
Am just going to disappear into a corner for awhile okies ?? |
Thanks for the hugs. That was neat. It did make me feel better. Even for the moment. So thanks.
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Wooo.
Needs to rant, and dunno how to start myself off =D |
*hugs people* Poe welcome *offers tea and cake*
*hugs Dayna* hope you get to de-stress soon *hugs Jade* glad you're feeling a bit better I hope it keeps going that way *finds kahlia in the corner and offers a big hug* *hugs Kat*doesn't sound fun, no words, just hope. *hugs Helen**hugs MaryAnne**hugs Chkymnky**hugs Nikki* *hugs Secrets* hope you're doing okay. *hugs Katie* good luck am doing okay, feel like im in a bit of a nowhere place right now. leaves a variety of assorted muffins - there are even sugar free ones but I don't think they taste as good |
*leaves a hug for everyone*
thanx for the hugs guys xxx |
:-D mmmmmmmmm thanx *spots the bluberry muffin*
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*Hugs all*
Wildly: Chance would be a fine thing, but thanks, lol. * * * ...I hate that I still love him. And I feel so stupid bitching about it, considering the seriousness of other **** that's been going on, blah blah. And here's me essentially going 'OMFGBOYPROBLEMS?!' like a Goddamn kid. It just...it hurts. It keeps hitting me at the most unexpected moments. Usually, anyway. The past few days again, it's been bothering me solidly. I'm so sick of hurting because of him. Restricting contact with him doesn't help, either, because then I miss him. I got to experience that when I was offline thanks to the move. Yes, I missed everyone, but my God, I really missed him too, and what the **** for? I'm a stupid, naive little girl, an idiot who craved love too much, and blinded herself to the very real possibility that things just might've been going wrong. I was scared to think that I might've been losing him, and so I ignored it. I knew, deep down, I knew that he didn't love me any more, but I tried to convince myself otherwise. I don't even know what it is that's made me so...wanting love. I've no idea. And I'm a whore. A pathetic, wasteful little whore. I took...pictures that he wanted, even though he knew that I was uncomfortable with it. I did that for him, just for his damned lust. So yes. No two ways about it, I'm a ****ing whore. 'I don't understand how you've done These things to me I can not comprehend your lack Of loyalty For you I would have shaken down the Heavens from the sky But it seems my love was stronger than This love of yours that died Did you think it wouldn't hurt? Did you think I wouldn't feel when the world came falling down? Or maybe you didn't think at all And that's why I feel what I feel now Did you think I wouldn't fall? Did you think I wouldn't cry? Did you think I wouldn't beg you to stay? One of these days you're gonna realise Just what you've thrown away'. The mental images of suicide are coming back, too. Overdosing, hanging. I want to SI so much. And not just cutting, either. I want to bitch and rant about the...other means, but that'd break the ****ing tipsharing rule. So I guess I'd best stfu about that. Urges won't leave me alone again. To swallow every pill in the house. I keep wanting to cut my arm open, but I don't have the physical strength to do so. I just...I don't even know any more. I fail. I'm sick of it all. I don't even remember what else I had to say |
Dear Wildly xxx sorry your not in a nowhere place right now xxx
Dear Dayna I hope the dog walk did you some good xxx Dear Helen Sorry that you will have to move again Hopefully it wont be soon xxx Hi ya ChkyMnky Hope your doing ok ::::::::::::::::: sends hugs to everyone ::::::::::::::::::::: How is everyone doing this afternoon ???? |
Jade: Nah, it just made me cold, lol. Doing pretty fail here, tbh, and yourself?
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Oh Dayna You sound like your going through some tough times. Im here to listen.
Please fight the urges honey, no one is worth taking your life over. Please stay strong. You have just gone through one of the most stressful times of your life < moving > give things a chance to settle back down. Im here for you Love Jade xxx |
I'm trying, I really am x__x. And I'm just hoping that things go okay for my housemate today, too. She got a load of **** off our old landlord yesterday, the bastard actually made her cry, so I'm hoping that she doesn't have to talk to him again today.
And bleh. I don't even know if...he...realises just how much **** he's caused. He admitted that he knows that a part of my suicidal thoughts and urges as of late has been because of the crap he's done, but I dunno. I haven't felt able to speak to him about it for ages. I guess...I guess I don't really want him to know just how much I'm hurting :/ |
Im sorry you are having trouble with your Landlord. What a bastard making your housemate cry, epecially because she is feeling delicate too.
Maybe if you told him how much he is hurting you he will stop it ??? I dont know because I dont know what he is like. Do you have a past together. Still listening honey carry on |
I know. He basically blamed her for the problems we had with the rent (she lost her job after her depression flared up again, so we didn't have enough to give to him) and basically slagged her the **** off.
And well, I dunno. He shattered my trust completely, so I can't really believe a damned word he says any more. What's done is done, nobody can go back in time and make him stop acting like such a dick, so I guess I just have to try and get over it. Bleh. I've never experienced heartbreak before, so I don't really know how to deal with it ._. |
Oh honey I am sorry that you are heartbroken. Time is the healer for a broken heart but I know it doesnt help you now. xxx
Have you tried writing a letter to him but not sending it, explaining how you feel. It might get all your feelings out honey xxx Love Jade xxx |
I had a biiiiiiig rant elsewhere that I didn't show him, although that was a few weeks back now. Might be time to do so again.
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A good old rant always helps honey xxx
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Yeah...I don't really know what else to say right now. My mind's just died on me, lol D:
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*checks in*
and this time i dont feel like leaving!!! First agro from his mother and my mother Got good news got a small part time job which will help me (i thought) untill i got home and flat mate has acused (sp?) me of stealing money from her secret money hiding place which i dont even know where it is and wouldnt do that and now she is kicking me out!! been to the council and im not a prioraty case because i am not local to the area because i moved down from scotland!!! i just want to give up i know have a small 4 hour Pt job that i get 20 quid for and the jobseekers allowance - which because i work fort hat 4 hours i am gonna get moeny taken off my job seekers becasue i get more than 5 quid!! can anyone give me any advise on where i can go to get a roof over my head??????? |
*Hugs Nikki* Is there no way of convincing your roommate it wasn't you? we have an office that can help you find somewhere that you can afford with help from housing benefits, which you can get when you're on JobSeekers. Maybe there is a place like that where you live?
*Hugs Katricia* I know how horrible it is when you feel unsafe around people, whether it's for your own safety or theirs. Is there any professional you can talk to about ways of coping with these feelings? *Hugs everyone else* Didn't have time to read all the pages since my last post, but will check in with everyone later to see how you're all doing. I got interviewed for the TV show my sister's going to be on, and got ridiculously camera shy! They're coming back again tomorrow to film us being a family, which we never do...They tried filming it on Saturday but said it was too unnatural. That's because we're not used to sitting together with the TV off and just talking! |
im checking and definatley staying cant go out there no more *sobs*
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Am checking in, am really not with it.
Need to shower but can't even be bothered. |
Secrets, xxx I totally understand xxx
Katrica I really hope this new psych will be great Free Spirit Stay here, your welcome Nikki I havent got anything to suggest, but wanted to offer my support xxx I hope you can convince your room mate it wasnt you. For everyone else ::::::::::::: hugs ::::::::::::::::: How are we this evening???? |
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