someone hold me please i wanna..

Yay thanks dayna, i hope it does too, i hope it works out for you as well!!!!!!!!

Hey Becca, I'm Katie.. are you ok? *cuddles*

i was ok till someone who is visiting here not invited by me started ****..

*Hugs Becca tightly*

Thanks, Katie

*clings* try n keep meh safe

*leaves some cans of drink for ppl*

Hope everyone is doing well there xxx

Hi Becca *waves* I'm Arwen. *Safe hugs*

My care co ordinator didn't call me back yesterday so I phoned her again today and am still waiting for her to call. Useless.

Saw my care co ordinator, she wasn't much help and I was feeling too crap to ask if they actually believe in the voices, couldn't handle it if she said no.

leaves hugs for everyone.

Secrets is stupidly busy and cant really help at the moment, sorry.

Hi everyone,

Zowie - sorry you are feeling crap *hugs*

Secrets - is it good busy? *hugs*

*waves at Becca* as you can tell I am Mary Anne :)

*hugs Dayna, Ravyn, Jetforce, Kahlia, Katie, Nicole, Helen, Pixie and everyone else* (this place is so busy just now!)

I'm poop :(
In that zone where I just can't see things ever getting better, I am destined to live feeling this crap forever.
He-devil declared that I have a great life, he just does not get that no matter how much 'stuff' (ie house, friends, job etc) you have none of that matters when inside you feel so horrible.
Looks like it is just me and Fraggle (cat) forvever and great as she is I just can't see the point in any of this.
Feeling sorry for my big fat self.

*gives puppy Sinclair a cuddle and curls up in the denial tent*

HA.
Last night was interesting to say the least.
I have to go see someone tomorrow to report an incident that occured in the early hours of this morning, sadly involving me =/
Fun.
Am so tired :(

*Hugs everyone tightly*

GUESS WHO HAS SOMEWHERE TO LIVE =DDDDD

DAYNNNNNAAAA DOES

YAY DAYNA THATS FANTASTIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

See :P Lol...

Well we don't have anything yet BUT we got the letter last night soooo I'm going to be applying for places today, ringing up some more to get some appts and then hand in app forms today and yeah FINGERS CROSSED!!!!!!

*cuddles everyone*

*Tackleglomps Helen and Katie* ^______________^

We haven't actually said yes yet, because my housemate wants to check things over with the people who're going to be helping with our advance payment, but it is looking very good indeed! And ooooh, good luck Katie! <3

*hugs everyone*
*goes and curls up in a corner*
how come I go out and have a really lovely time and then ruin it all because by the time I get home I'm feeling bloody shitty again?

congrats Dayna!!!!!!

That's awesome :)

*hugs Hannah* That's not fun :( Do you want to talk about it?

Good luck on the house hunting Katie! Keep us uptodate.

Helen - that doesn't sound good; what happened?

Mary Anne - it will pass; sorry that the he-devil is such an insensitive jerk :(

Secrets - don't feel bad; what are you busy with?

Hi Becca, nice to meet you. Hope you feel welcome.

Arwen - how are things going now?

Jem - thanks for the drink *sips thirstily* How are you doing?

Pixie - how are you?

*hugs everyone*

Hope everyone else is doing ok; trying to start replying more posts; I'm really sorry if I missed someone's.. I have read them all. *leaves lots of hugs*

Well hope it works out for you Dayna! *huggles*

Wildly- geez, I'm the same hey.. or I feel like **** during the time I'm out and get bored and therefore ruin it for others *rolls eyes* *cuddles*

ravyn- how are you today? *snuggles*

*cuddles tight* hope ur ok xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Thanks Katie *snuggles back* I'm not doing too bad; wish my cold/sinus infection thingy would go away though..

Oh thats no good *cuddles* hope u feel better soon. im dreading that about winter lol..

Ravyn: Thank you! ^____^ *Glomps* And bleh, I still really hope you feel better soon D:

>_O *Hugs Wildly*

Katie: Thankies ^_^. I'll keep everyone here up to date with how things are going

Thanks Katie and Dayna *hugs back* I hope I feel better soon too; and hopefully you guys stay healthy! Whenabouts does winter start for you Kaite?

Sweet dayna, so will i :) going to make some phone calls soon.. ugh hate being the one to do it but oh well..

ravyn, well autumn starts in just over a month, then winter 3 months after that :)

Thanks Shell *hugs back* hope you shake the cold soon

don't think it's anything in particular I just don't think my brain works right :-p I went to see Slumdog millionaire at the cinema with some friends and I just ended up thinking how pathetic it is that I'm miserable when I have so much more to be happy about than so many people, but that doesn't help, it makes things even worse, the other option is going out and seeing so many gorgeous, skinny, intelligent girls out there and I just end up feeling like nobody is ever going to want me and even if someone did I'd be so scared that I'd screw it up anyway. blah sorry, as I'm usless at opening up I thought I'd take a step forward and try a little bit.

Glad you found a place Dayna, hope you finalise it soon.

Helen, hope things are okay

Becca, you feeling any better?

*hugs Secrets* hope you're not too stressed

Thanks for the drinks Jet, hope you're okay

thanks Katie *cuddles back*

Arwen I hope your care co-ordinator gets off her arse and manages to give you some help. Is there anyone else you can call? *hugs*

MaryAnne, sorry to hear you're feeling so shitty hope you feel better in here *hugs*

Katie: Good stuff ^___^

*Hugs Wildly* Thanks. Hope you feel better soon

Bleh. Goodbye good mood ;-;

*offers hugs to everybody*

Can it stop raining now please ?? I always get more depressed when it won't stop raining. I just want to curl up and start crying. =(

i am a bit better

It really isn't good :( I will say it was lucky I didn't get anymore hurt than I did. Will explain later maybe.

*cuddles Katie extremely tight :P* Love you

I wish they were.

*cuddles Kahlia* I know how you feel :(

*offers cuddles to all*

Thanks Helen. It's a pretty common reaction to constant rain, right ??
We are scheduled to have continuous rain until approximately Sunday. :(
Poot. I'm going to have damaged myself by then if this keeps up.

*offers hugs and cuddles and sits with Puppy SinClair*

Puppy Sinclair gives Kahlia a big wet sloppy puppy kiss, but only if she lets him :)

*hugs everyone and leaves coffee and muffins for breakfast*

Thanks Hannah ... oh and Puppy SinClair as well.

Can I steal a coffee for dinner instead of breakfast ??

but of course, but only if it doesn't stop you sleeping, I had an espresso once, I was bouncing off the walls till 4 in the morning :)

Gah :-(

I'm such a waste of space...

*Hugs Jem* You are not a waste of space. I don't think so, I think the ward would be a very different place without you.

I'm doing better. My care co ordinator finally got back to me and took me out for coffee. She wasn't much help, but my dad's phoning her today to ask her to get me an appointment with my psych.
I'm so hungry but I absolutely hate food at the moment. I just want to starve until I'm skinny again.

*cuddles zowie* thx's

Just going thru a rough patch i suppose

trying to battle out of it..but i think sleeping it off might help hmmm

xx

Sleeping usually helps me when I'm going through a rough patch. Try to have a rest and maybe you'll feel better xxx

Hi all,

seems like a fair few of us are feeling a bit podgey just now, sad things is we are all most likely absolutely fine the size we are but our brains don't see it that way.
Right now I am a little scared I am going to go down the ED line again but am working hard at resisiting and trying to be sensible.

*leaves loads of hugs for everyone and a bonio for puppy Sinclair!*

Kahlia, constant rain sucks sweetie, try watching dvds and stuff? I don't know....

Jem, you're not a waste of space one bit, get some sleep, it'll help :)

May Anne *cuddles*

Zowie, hope you're okay sweetheart, please be careful =(

One hour & one minute to go until my meeting about the incident. :-( But first I have to go to another meeting (with the person I saw last week), am sorta looking forward to it buit I'm so tireeeeeeeeeed.

Oh & guess what joke my lecturer made today when dicussing revision *rolls eyes*

thx's guys

tc there..have a good day ppl xx

I swear I should drop out of uni. My mood swings are starting to make it so I can't focus on anything. I'm either hyper to the point that I can't sit down or I'm depressed and I can't move. And I'm not sure they're willing to change my meds even though they haven't been working for months.

Grrrrr. I can't sleep either.

*leaves hugs and creme eggs*

hmhmhmhmmmmmm...
im tired...
to the point of 0____0;;

hmmmm....
sleep.


Haha...someone ACTUALLY wants to go out on a kinda date with me on Saturdayyy,.....


Lets hope I turn up...




Hope everyones ok.

*leaves hugs and vaious other bits 'n' bobs.

{{{{{{{{{{{{ hugs to everyone }}}}}}}}}}

Sorry I wasnt around to support anyone yesterday, I had to go to hospital.

Thinking of everyone

Jade xxx

Are you okay Jade? *hugs*

*cuddles Helen* how did the meeting go?

Voice (sorry you name escpaes me right now) - yey a date :) *hugs*

*leaves hugs*

xx

Voice- a date sounds like fun, go for it.
*hugs Jade* how are you?
*hugs Helen* Lecturers are often insensitive, I'm sorry you had to listen to that.
Rockaroni- is there a tutor you could talk to about how your feeling and how its affecting your work to see if you could get some help.

*leaves hugs for others that come in*

*Hugs Helen* How did the reporting of the incident go hun?

*Hugs Katie* Can you talk to a tutor about extra help you can get? Maybe talk to your doctor about the problems you feel you're having with your meds.

*Hugs Alexx* Hope you managed to get some sleep!

Jade, are you okay? *Hugs*


I slept through most of the day. Am trying to keep myself together so I can go out at the weekend. I honestly feel so much stronger when I'm around TRUE friends. So tomorrow I should be going to the pub with my pub friends, and then on Saturday our neighbour has asked me and my dad to join him for a few pints.
So I've got **** to look forward to which is giving me a bit of a boost, but at this very moment I'm really struggling to shut the voices up.
I ate some cocktail sausages today. I feel like I've failed.

Thanks for being concerned everyone, Im fine.

Mary Ann <hugs to you>

Mamma < how did you meeting go ? >

Secrets < thanks for the concern are you ok ? >

Zowie < I hope you do have a good weekend. Dont be so down on yourself honey xxx >

< big hugs to everyone >

Jade xxx

*hugs everyone*

Sorry I haven't been around much recently, hit a bit of a dark spell, and just haven't really done much of anything. Not helping in the parts where I need to find a job, get money, and generally get everything back on track, but I just... I'm letting everything get on top of me a little too much, and right now... I'm just kinda falling apart.

Tonight's been bad. Tom doesn't understand anything, not even the fact that I'm in a bad mood, he's just too damned affectionate all the time, and when I'm like this, well... antisocial tends to be rather high up on the agenda. Can't really talk about what's bothering me, because he's sat right next to me and I don't want to risk him reading over my shoulder because... well, yeah.

Sorry for the lack of support guys. *leaves massive cuddles for whoever wants*

Auburn, sorry that you are going through such a rough patch right now. Keep hanging in there and fighting xxx

I really hope you feel a little bit better tomorrow

< hugs >