*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Heather*

Sorry, my name is Patti. I baked cookies, anyone want one?

*Hugs Patti* Ohh Ty ! Nom's

*Hugs Ian* I'm so sorry to hear about you Grandfather :( *Huggles*

*hugs Heather*
*hugs Mark*
*hurs Patti*

'hi everyone' hugs

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Patti*

How is everyone?

I'm ok, haven't been up long. How are you today? hugs

How are you Patti?

Hi Doikers, I was doing fine. But, now not so good. 'hides under blanket"

*sits near*

thanks for sitting with me. i don't feel safe right now

I is here if you wana talks. *sits near* i share elafint mhm.

*Hugs Patti*

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Alex* It's almost 11am not can you wake your Husband?

:hug:Had to wake my husband up early because of the voices they where telling me i must die
feel like i should but i talked to my husband about it and am feeling OK now .

That's good Alex :) Have you taken your meds now?

Thats good Alex :) *Hugs*

*group hug*

*hug*

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Heather*

Morning Wardies ! *Hugs*

*hugs all*

how are you?

*Hugs Laura* Hows you?

*hugs Mark* how are you?

therapy was great and shitty at the same time today.
I have a session with my mom next week... urgh.

*sits with*

*Hugs Laura* It's to early to tell atm.

*Hugs Heather*

How are you all?

I've got an appointment with my psychologist today. Not really looking forward to it because it takes so much effort to try and hold my emotions inside. And I miss my previous psychologist.

How is everyone else?

you dont gotta hold emotions in, that what counseling for. <3 [know its hard to let emotions out tho]
*offers hug*

im...ok.

*Hugs all*
*Curls up*

*hugs all*

Work is busy... but unless I am doing work, my mind wanders to terrible places. My dreams can be occasionally frightening. I hate it. Feb/March/April are always terrible times for me. I don't like being the keeper of things. People tell me stuff cause I am so personale and always listen and make them feel better. I wish I could have that reprocity, but I shut up cause I am afraid to say anything.

Sorry for the rant, just had to say something before I do something wrong. Cause doing stuff wrong gets attention. And its the only way to get attention from the people who are supposed to love me.

*hugs Heather*
*hugs Mark*
*hugs Lindsay* how was your appointment?
*hugs RAAWR*
*hugs YodaBear* Sometimes I just write things down that I shouldn't tell anyone and rip it to little bits (just so noone can read it), to get it out and then I don't have to think about it as much.

*hugs laura back*
when's your therapy appt? hope its not too rough <3 [feel free to message me; on here or msn or aim :P]

My next appointment is on Monday at 11am.
I'm just worried, because my mom hasn't witnessed dissoziation yet and I don't want her to see it there for the first time. I don't want her to see it at all.

*hugs gently* maybe there would be the best place? Cuz if she sees it there your therapist can explain it? Like, it could be better in a sense for her to get the info or w/e from a professional? And it'll be in a safe place? I unno. <3

*Squishes Laura*

*Huggles Heather*

*Hugs Charlie *

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Lindsay*

Hey everyone. My apointment was just pointless, as always.

Anyone doing much today?

*hugs Heather* you are probably right. I just wont dissociate, so I don't know why I'm so scared of it happening when my mom is there.
*hugs Mark*
*hugs Lindsay* why was it pointless?

It just seems like my psychologist listens to me, nothing changes, and I go back to struggling through another fortnight until I start the process again.

How are you, Laura?

*hugs Lindsay* does your psychologist know how you are feeling about the appointments? Maybe you could ask her for advice when you are unsure about what to do. Do you have goals for therapy? Apparently it is important to have goals that you want to achieve. Maybe you could talk with her about possible goals and then try to work on them in future sessions?

I'm a bit triggered, because of a song. Yeah.. it's that easy to trigger me. Too many songs that are triggering and all I can do it change the radio channel or walk out of the room.

*hugs Laura and Lindsay and everyone else in here*

*puts brownies on the table* fresh and hot! :)

That makes some sense Laura, but I like to keep my writings to see how I am progressing, if that makes any sense. I guess it does. Right now, I just want to hide from everyone

*hugs YodaBear* (did you tell me your name once? I don't remember it if you did)

*Curls up* Just got back from the hospital...

Don't worry, I am quite forgetful with names too lol. Mine is Matt :)

*hugs RAWWR*

*Hugs ALL*

Sorry Matt I've been calling you Ian :(

um hey guys long time
i just need some good compony today
and u guys r always great

*hugs Julie* I missed you , how are you?

my grandma had a stroke last night so i'm worried but im ok

*Hugs Julie*