*hugs Mark and Lindsay*

*goes to bed*

*Squashes Laura*

*CAN'T BREATHE*

*throws bubble wrap in Marks direction*

hugs everyone

*hugs Louise*

*curls up in a corner and sucks thumb*

*hugs Zebedee if ok* sorry, don't know your real name.

Curls up in corner

*hugs back* You can call me Zed

*hugs Syrup*
*hugs Zed*

how are you?

*Hugs Y'all*

*sits with zeddeh*
hey lovely one <3 how you doin?
*offers hug*

*Hugs Heather*

hello,
anyone here

How are you today, Laura?

*hugs Lindsay* how are you?

I'm not well, feel like a walking time bomb. I'm more dissociated than here. Doin skills a lot, but it's only working as long as I'm doing them. Walking is funny when you don't really feel your legs, but I went for a walk for more than an hour. Being outside is helping... as long as I'm outside. It's freezing cold here (we got the air from Siberia... said the weather person). I'm going to my best friend for the night now. She can help most of the time. I think I'm going to walk there (45min) and freeze a bit more, at least then I feel something.

*hugs Laura* I hope it helps to see your friend.

I'm trying to deny my feelings at the moment. Don't want to know how bad everything is.

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Laura*

I'm...not here, IDK how to describe it.

*hugs Lindsay* how are you now?
*hugs Mark* are you dissoziated?

Spending time with my friend helped, as long as I was there. I'm feeling even worse than yesterday now.

I don't know Laura , I hadn't even considered that :/
*Huggles*

*hugs Mark* I can't know cause I'm not there, but it could be a kind of dissoziation. Not all dissoziation is bad you know, my therapist said that it can be useful at times. Does it feel like you can't connect with anything, like you are kind of floating or as if you are under water? I get that sometimes, but I'm not sure if that's dissoziation. Do you like being not here or do you want to come back to 'here'?

I wanted to be "here" but then Didn't I've no clue . *Hugs Laura*

*hugs Mark* are you more 'here' now than not here?

I'm about to go to bed.

I think this is a really good thread. I'm going to commit myself to posting here daily....at least until I'm 'safe.'

I'm not doing too well recently...had a suicide attempt on Friday, kind of have that feeling you get when you're about to trip over your own feet. That right before you fall feeling. I have a friend who's been making me go to her house nightly cause she doesn't trust me to be on my own anymore. I should consider myself lucky. I don't know just not feeling the whole...life thing lately. :(

Anyway thanks for listening.

*Hugs Laura* I hope you slept well.

Hi Abrokenone , I'm Mark , *Hugs if okay*

*hugs ABrokenOne if ok*
*Hugs Mark* I did get to sleep, but then I woke up and felt like ****. Still feel like ****. Why is life so shitty for me? I guess it's my fault isn't it? 3 hours until I get to see my therapist.

how are you?

*Hugs Y'all*

Thanks for all the hugs. I wish I had better news. Still feeling all the alone/sad/hopeless crap. The site is helping though....some people really just do want someone to listen to them. Just for a second even. *Hugs EVERYONE*

*Squishes Laura*

*Hugs ABrokenOne*

*squishes Mark*
*hugs ABrokenOne*

how are you both??

I had therapy yesterday and I really didn't like it.

=[ therapy isnt really a likable thing :-P
*but* here if wanna talk x

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Heather*

Hey everyone. *bakes special cookies*

*Hugs Lindsay* *Noms a cookie* , Ty , How are you hun?

*hugs Heather*
*hugs Lindsay* *takes a cookie*
*hugs Mark*

I felt better for the last 2 days, but now I'm getting this ungood feeling again.

*hugs Mark and Laura* I hope you feel better soon, Laura.

I felt kind of ok this morning but the badness has snuck in.

*hugs Lindsay* it was the same for me.

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Laura*

I feel low , night time I think.

night night guys <3

*curls up with teddy in corner*

I hope you are sleeping well Heather Hun :)

Afternoon. How are we all? I was supposed to go to a focus group this morning but just couldn't get out of bed. Again. So annoyed with myself.

Oh Lindsay that happens to me too , Be kind to yourself hun *Huggles*

How are you, Mark? I kind of got your text but not all of it, my phone is playing up.

I'm so un motivated this morning :/

*Hugs Wardies*

I need help

*cries*

I've always had a therapist, psychiatrist or psychologist growing up and I don't have the money now. My friends abandoned me.. I'm frightened and I feel really alone. :crying:

I can imagine how horrible that must be for you, i'm dreading the time when someone decides i've had more than my fair share of therapy. Have you tried phoning a helpine? I'm here if you need to talk.

RedHorse , That must be awful *Hugs If Okay* I'm around this thread if you want to talk.

*sits in corner and cries*

What's wrong, Laura?

hugs everyone