*hugs everyone*

hi guys did you miss me

Still here, hope everyone is okay.
Feeling very sick at the thought of going to to see the cheater (in an hour).
Still not sure if I want to shout & scream (I chose a public place to feel safe and will stop me doing anything bad), cry, be silent or just stay in the house forever.
*hugs to all*

Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up. Fed up.

Whats wrong Helen?

Where to begin wifey? :( Just a huge mess that I don't know how it out...

Hey all,
Back in one piece, managed to hold it together for about and hour and a half, ended up sobbing.
It's gonna be a long night.

*cuddles to all*

xx

Start from the beginning Helen.
There's always a way. XXXX

*hugs everyone*

I... can't.

*cuddles Hana*

Neither can I sweet.

*runs in screaming at the top of voice tears pourin down face*
everything is fallin apart i reil reil reil reil need some advice someone help me plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
*hides under a sleeping bag ans cries*

whats up just-another-girl? xx

*offers cuddles to all*

* walks over to just-another-gurl sits down beside the sleeping bag*

whats wrong hun?
want to talk?

*cuddles*

so ****ing pathetic, I am pathetic. I can't even SI properly. Just cut and it is pathetic, just scratches really, not even stitch worthy. I can't even do this right. Tomorrow I will....tomorrow I have it planned I will hurt myself as I ****ing deserve. I am so weak. Scratches....no! I need to see the inside and now I can't bloody do that. I don't deserve to be here. I cant even SI properly. I am weak. I need to OD to punish myself, not to die but so I learn that not SIing properly has consequences. DDDAAAMMNN! AAArrrggggghhhhhhhh!!!!!!

*waves* I come in peace...to sleep in the hall or something.

*hugs everyone*

i really need 2 talk alot of horrible stuff happen n i hve no idea wht ive done or y im being blamed :'(
*cries harder*

*hugs you* I'm around if you wanna chat hun.

thnx hun i jst feel sooooooooooooooo awful :(:(:(

I... I can't live like this anymore. My.. well one of my best mates' houses, I have to go over a bridge to get to it. and I just... I can't do that. But I need her. I have to go over that same bridge to get to church, that bridge is key to getting anywhere that'll make me feel better, but... I don't trust myself on those things. I can't hear the word out loud... I can't... I'm scared. Of what I might do. Of who this post is going to hurt. Of... everything. I can't deal with life at the moment.
I just... I'm trying to help Tom, Will and Allie (thier mum) through a pretty damned tough time at the moment, and I can't do all of this. I can't.... I just... it hurts. all of it.

I... I dunno what's going on... I can't deal with this. James is violent. toms mum's coming round, i cant deal with this.