you ok there?

Todays been a better day. Not totaly back up yet but not as low as i have been!
How about yourself?

I'm getting there. Just rather tired for no particular reason. Starting to freak out about driving test on Thursday though :S

Glad today's been better for you :)

Whats werid is i started my summer job today and was up at 4 this morning! Will have to go and lie down and try to sleep soon.

Its all we can do though isnt it? take the days as they come.
(ps i think me and my friends are sorted again :) and my paranoia isnt so bad at the mo)

4am? Rather you than me!

Yeah, all we can do, take it day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute if we have to.

Good you and your friends are sorted again :) and that your paranoia isn't so bad :)

Thanks! I am so glad i joined! Think this has been a big help.
Pillows for all! *hands out pillows*

*takes a pillow*

*hands out hot chocolate and blankets*

Well I've cheered up a tiny bit, but I think I'm losing it :pinch:

Good Luck for Thursday

it'd geting worse. ****.

*snuggles Jess*

I'm jumpy today, the kind that I get after an episode of ptsd. Even though I didn't have ptsd, just an intense memory.

Takes a pillow and blanket. Goes into a corner and curls up with just her face peeking out.

*leaves hugs for all*

I'm an idoit, I missed two calls from Emma. Really needed to talk to her. Pleh will have to wait until tomorrow. Omg a month free of self harm, made a thread about it :]

sleepy.... shouldn't sleep too much thouhg...

Helen Contratulations! Excellent!
*hugs helen*

*retreats back into her corner with only her face showing and watches people*
*sulks cause no one has replied to her new thread*

Thanks sweetie.
*hugs you tight*
I'll go look at your thread :)

susan i coiuldn't reply. i'm sory. *hugs*


*hides* i want o have a vath. but i lwys dut in bath. cnt help self. must stay safe.

Thanks Jess.
Shower no better? Basin bath?

Please stay safe?
*hugs you*

i'm going to have a bath. i'll be safe.

battery dieing on laptop. might not be back on. don't know.

Good...stay safe jess!!

passed out in bath. cat jumped on me. oh dear. i dunno what i'm doing. so out of it. feel so crook right now. would just love to let it all go. :(

*hugs jess*

I think it's the anxiety tablets u took...luckily u didn't pass out on the wheel :-S

*hugs Jem, Jess, Susan and Helen*

thx's hana

*cuddles u back*

Thanks Hana.
*hugs jess*

Right now it is 4:30am California time. Woke up after an un-remembered bad dream. Jaw hurts, slept on it weird. Woke up to what sounded like coyotes snarling a bit at each other.
So one peanut butter and jelly sandwich and a dose of ibuprofin later, i'm back to bed. I'm going to be hungry for lunch about the time I get out of the shower.

*cuddles jess*
*retreats to corner in blanket with only face sticking out and tries to go back to sleep*

*checks in apprehensively, looks around for a space & sits*
Hi, this is my first time on veterans bit, only been on RYL for a week, I'm 27 and yesterday avoided being locked up for real as I don't have kids that I'll put in danger and agreed to double my meds and go to out-patients councelling, but theres a few weeks wait, so thought i'd come in here for the time being. so anyway, hi all. xx

Hi Hayley :) Welcome.

Susan, I hope you got back to sleep okay.

*hugs everyone*

Jess, you need to take care. Please don't let go. You've got so much to live for. What would the tall people amy do without you hmm?

Hi Hayley, welcome. I've never been close to a psych ward and hang out here anyway.

Yep, I went back to sleep until the alarm went off at 6am. Woke up with the cat sitting on my feet.

I don't have much work today, so maybe it is time to do another chapter in the child abuse workbook. Oh yeah, and do laundry and dishes.

Did I mention that yesterday I stopped at the fabric store to get thread? And they asked me for more business cards. Okay God, obvious message.

*hugs everyone then returns to corner*

Sounds good Susan.

I feel like I'm constantly hitting a brick wall. GRRRRRRRRRRRRR! CAN NOBODY SEE WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME? NO? OK

*screams*

I'd like to thank you guys for supporting me.

*really needs a crying breakdown and knows she's not gonna get one*

I'm procrastinating on starting my day cause it is going to be empty anyway. Most of my friends are at work. My husband has to work overtime. So today it is just me, some dishes, some laundry, and some serviettes and place mats that don't need to be done until the 16th.

Don't you hate it when someone who's been pushing you to keep going then turns around and tells you that you're never going to make it anyways so you may as well not try???

My head's a mess.

*hugs farawayfairy*

Thanks *hugs back*

I feel like I'm not here.

*hugs hana*
*hugs faraway fairy*

I still don't have many replies to my thread. Sigh. (hint)
*goes and showers*

*hugs blondiebear* I just read your thread but don't feel up to replying at the moment. Sending you lots of hugs though.

*hugs farawayfairy and susan*

*wanders off to look at susan's thread*

Thank you Hana.

I have a friend who has been beaten and the brain scans do not look good.

Now I see why I don't have work this week. Tears on place mats are not good quality workmanship.

I have a turtle charm that represents her. It is fun because it has head and arms on the top, feet and tail on the bottom, and the middle is filled in with a bead. I found a bead in her favorite color to do it up. In the shower this morning, I had a vision of incorporating the charm into a mourning bracelet.

*crawls into corner with teddy bear and prayer shawls*

well its time for milk and biscuits to wash down my meds, thanks for the welcome guys, its nice to see how everyone supports and hugs people. I used to love hugs, and I guess I still do, I just get apprehensive cos If I hug someone it means I care and then that leaves me open to get hurt, so bear with me whilst I get used to this and hopefully I'll be able to hug people better too. I may not be online for a few days as have to have a biopsy at hospital and recover at my parents for a few days, but i'll keep my spirit safely in this psych ward if you don't mind. night night everyone, I hope we all find some peace in our dreams. xx

*huge snuggles Susan*

Oh, sweetie, I wish I had the words for you. All I can do is send hugs right now... I'm so sorry...

*more huge hugs*

Sorry, Hayley, seems I missed your introduction post earlier. Welcome :) Hope you're not doing too bad and that the biopsy and recovery goes well. Good luck with it all. Take care of yourself :)

*hugs*

Hana
xxx

I feel like I can't do this anymore.
:(

*huge hugs*

what happened sweetie?

It's just...people letting me down or their actions....which makes me jealous of them. I guess.

So nothing's really happened as such. I just spinning out of control still....yet I haven't done anything to die yet.....

*huge huggles*

Thank you sweetie xx

I'm sorry not replying. All i can think of right now is that packet of blades i have and using them and never waking up again. never never never. *crwals ito the corner*

Please don't do it Jess

I'm in tears about my friend. I'll call my brother-friend in an hour or so when he wakes up. The "teddy bear" was a gift from him. It is actually a pink pig so I tied a rose colored ribbon+bow around his neck and named it Fredfred.

That is okay that I am crying. Whatever happens, it is for the best. Not my plan, God's.

*puts out a plate of chocolate with peanut butter chips cookies and welcome everyone to help themselves*

*watches everyone, wondering how they are doing*

why not? :'( why. i'm so tired of hurting *whimpers*