*hugs everyone that needs it*

I have no idea what is wrong, just got that damn sinking feeling. I went out to friends to distract myself and it worked for a while but now it is back. My parents are back tomorrow and no doubt there will be something I haven't done that they wanted me to and on top of that I will have practically NO privacy for the next three weeks. Just work and hassle and they never go out so SI will be hard. Oh yeah and I am spending three days with my grandparents. Which should be nice but just...hard. If I as much as sigh they want to know what is wrong, so smiles all around for 3 days with no net and limited mobile signal.

Sorry, just wallowing and feeling a little destructive. I just want to be left alone to do what I want and hurt myself as I see fit you know? *sigh*

*more hugs for people with the option of muffins* x

*sits and talks to self*

I have work in an hour and a half and I just want to sleep. *finds coffee to drink* How is everyone else?

Oh Emma.

You can get through the next three days, I believe in you hun. Don't worry about calling me, seriously. Just maybe count down the days til you get back to uni??? Esp, as you're coming to see me soon XD

Gosh, the person came around to our house, took measurements blah de blah, no photos inside haha, waste of time tidying up but the house looks lovely. So looks like we're going up for sale this week, as soon as my mum has one or two things sorted :D

*Hands out homemade cookies*
How is everyone?
xxx

Cookies.

My mood is coming down again. ****'s sake :(

Nobody cares, so why should I bother talking.

BAD BAD BAD!!! ><
*sobs*
Im....Im just...g..gonna...hide and never...come...out...
*sobs again*

*Hugs Helen and Alex tight*

*Sigh* I dont deserve it...but thankyou...

Thanks.

I'm extremely annoyed about someone hitting my friend for no ****ing reason. GRRR >.<

sorry to hear that Helen :(
Is your friend ok?

*I go die now yes? good ^_^*

*Hugs, Helen, Alex & Emma*
Katey - How are you today, feeling better I hope. PM me if you need to chat.
Had a good day today, house hunting is good fun. I hope I find something soon.
Cookies for all, double chocolate ones for those most in need.
Liz

Hey everyone, hugs all round
Really need to hide somewhere been in the hospital since yesterday. How can things get any worse?
I'll be over in the corner then...

I really need the double choc one :'(

I'm having a shitty night =[

Alex, don't die....and yeah I think my friend is ok

splaaaahhhhhhh
*makes other dieing noises*
I cant DO this anymore :pinch:
you know how bad I was when I text you this morning Helen...
I really really cant :crying:

I know how bad you were hun and I've been so worried about you *massive cuddles* What's making you feel so bad hunnie? You're so worth so much more than being dead, seriously!

Me, arrrrrrrgh I'm gonna ****ing do something >>.<<

I feel...DEAD inside....im not getting pleasure out of anything anymore...
all the things i used to love doing...now dont make a blind bit of difference...
I keep getting urges...everywhere i go...everything i do..
Im not gonna make anything of myself so why should i bother?

Hun, I know how that feels. Depression sucks majorly I know hun, esp when everything triggers you. *hugs*

Seriously Alex, I know you don't believe you can make anything of yourself. I think that at times, but look at me...I'm finishing college in a few weeks and been offered places at universities...so must be doing something right.

You can get through the dark days/weeks/months and still make something of yourself.

*cries and curls up*

*holds Alex*

It's going to be ok. x

It wont be....
I should be locked up...
and the key thrown away...
Im no good for ANYONE

Hun, you are good for so man people.

Believe me, you showed that you are, by showing that you cared about me the other week...even though we barely had talked.....

Ugh, I need to stop supporting people and forgetting myself. I need to look after me and still help people.

yeh..but...you're important...
i was worried about you...
im not worried about me...
i dont even CARE about me...
I can go..die for all i care ><

*Hugs Alex*
Alex, You're a great person, you're important and we care about you.
You're really good to people, you've helped me, through giving me advice and chatting to me.
*Hugs* don't know what else to say but I care about you. Hope you are safe.
Liz

*sigh*
*hides*
Imabadperson
Imabadperson
Imabadperson

She says it. She says its true. Cant get away from her...

hey, thankyou to everyone who was around last night. not feeling loads better but a bit, have calmed down a bit though i got really really worked up last night. i've spent most of today excercising though needed something to do and it always helps me.

hope everyones ok x


*sits in the corner and stares into space!*

She needs to not be allowed to control you hunnie.
Please tell someone?


Now I wanna say summat bowt me.
Sorry for being selfish but why can't someone care about me.
Noboyy cares.

Katey, I'm glad you're feeling better :)

Psssssst....


I CARE

Nooo :(

I'm somebody nobody really honestly cares about.
Honestly.

Helen,
I care too!
Liz

*hugs* thankyou.

i care too !xxx

SEE HELEN!!
we care...so much...
*hugs*

Okay.

I believe you, the voice is trying to win.

*stabs it*

I love you guys.

I feel so bloody.....useless and unworthy? Or something....

Ok...so me and Helen...
are gonna put these nasty voices and problems...in a box
and lock the box
and tie a boulder to it
then throw it into the deepest ocean..
so it sinks RIGHT to the bottom
then live HAPPILY ever after....
......anyone else wanna add stuff to the box?

*Edit....I wanted to make it colourful...:blush:

It's so awesome Alex. Ily xxx

can i add things too??
(how bigs the box!!??)

i wanna put all my guilty thought n feelings,
all the memories
all the bad n negative thoughts in there.

Hey all

*hugs for everyone in need, and some good strong tea*

My hand hurts... Cut it deeply... Should have stitches but the health centers not open until Monday and I don't have health insurance...

I've spent 99% of my time in my room today... It's been nice I guess but I'm not happy with the fact that I've stayed in here because I just can't bring myself to go hang out down stairs :pinch:...

*sigh* I suck

Much love to you all, I hope everyones doing better...

*more hugs and cake with the tea*

Think I'm gonna stay in the tent...

*pokes the fire back to life for Callie*

*sigh* I miss my RYL Twin :crying:

I miss Cally :(

*jumps up and hugs Ally lots though :)*

*hugs those in need*

Why God should I try to be nice? It never really gets me anywhere...

*hugs everyone who needs it, Ally, Liz, Katey, Helen, Carole, Cally in spain, Alexx, Chloe and anyone else I missed out*

Helen.....SSSHHHHH I CARE YOU SILLY BEAN!!! *hugs* don't be silly hun- stab the voice! I like you and Alexx's idea!

Course you can :]
Its a magic box...it keeps getting bigger and bigger..so everything will fit :)
*tries to jump in it*

Where is Cally?:(
xxxxxxx

*EDIT...I just realised....she's in spain...*pines for her :(*

I love you Em <3

But I seriously don't deserve all this caring >.<

*is trying not to go downstairs and get those ****ing painkillers*

Love u 2 xx

*puts up a big huge indestructible invisible brick wall to stop Helen going downstairs*

YES YOU DO!!!
I dont know anyone else who deserves it more...
*Steals your painkillers*
You can do this,...you dont need them..
*big hugs*





There IS a reason im cuddling my dogs toy....
Yes...I miss her...
and i need comfort...
the kinda comfort i get..when she cuddles up to me when i cry...
but my bitch of a mother wont let her sleep on my bed anymore ><

Ah I wish that wall was here, or even better, you and Alex.

GODDAMMIT!

psssssst...Emma *whispers*
If she DOES get past the wall...
I stealed the painkillers...
We just care too much to let her do it eh?:]
*hugs for Helen*

*cries at the sweetness of you two*

its coz we care darlin'
*hugs*

*squeezes Alex*

*squish^_^*
Here ya' go....
Have..a cup of teaa...and a cookie...and a nice warm blanket...
You're doing so well sweetheart..
Keep going :]
And Millie will be here tomorrow ^_^