-offers oliver a protective teddy as well- Sorry you are struggling too, Oliver..

I'm sorry too Oliver! At least we're not alone.

Sorry guys but I don't know if I can do this I don't even know if I will survive the night..



-rocks faster-

*hugs Kitty lots* please stay safe, is there someone you can talk to, or be with. Is there some sort of helpline you can call where you are, like we have the samaritans here. Please find someone to talk to and be with to keep you safe

-hugs oliver back- I don't have any friends. There is a crisis line but if I call it and tell them I am suicidal they will have me sent to the hospital and I can't afford that. I don't have the money or any health care..

Kitty honey, there are so many things running through my head that I wanna say to you that I can't even pick one. Just please stay safe! Please!

even in an emergency you still have to pay for hospital treatment.
I'm sorry that sucks. Keeps talking to us, is there some sort of national helpline which is more anonymous, so you wouldnt put you in hospital.

*hugs Kutty and Solo*

What do you want to say to me, Solo?

-hugs oliver back- I don't know. Maybe. I've never called the national hotline before I'm not sure if they track your call if you say you are suicidal and send an ambulance or anything...

And yes, to answer your question. It's against the law for them to refuse treatment if you are unable to pay, but you still get a huge bill. Like I went to the ER in november to see if I needed stitches I was only there for like 15 minutes with the doctor and they charged me $625. That bill is on its way to collections, which means it's going to ruin my credit. And that was only for 15 minutes!

oh my god, hearing that makes me glad for the NHS.
well going on the national helplines in england, they dont track your calls, i have called them after taking an overdose and they offered to call an ambulance for me, but i refused so they couldn't do anything.
I dont know what it is like where you live.
*hugs*

-hugs oliver back- I don't know, either. I have heard they do put you on hold, though.. =/

*hugs Kitty* its worth a try at least. please stay safe. are you on yor own at the moment?

Yes, on my own.. sorry guys..

-rocks back and forth-

*hugs* is there someone you can visit, or be with? just so your not alone

I'm havin computer troubles again. I'm also gettin drifty. I want to say lots of things about how special you are n how many people care about you n other things you won't listen to.

I'm sorry kitty! I read that back n it sounded harsh. I didn't mean for it to. I kept driftin while I was tryin to type it on my iPod. I can barely see. I just really care about you n I want you to stay safe. I want so badly to help but I don't know how.

-hugs oliver- No. I have no friends, and I don't know anyone in the area..

You ok solo?..

I dunno. I can't think. I don't feel well.

Did you take anything? Do anything?..

I've been doin some things to lose weight. My heart's doin gymnastics.

Solo... what have you done??? Do you need medical attention?!

I think I better lay down. You gonna be ok? Will I talk to you tomorrow?

I don't know. Can't promise anything at this point. Go lay down and take care of yourself. If it gets worse, you should go to the hospital..

-waves to amy- How you be?

Can you use a fingernail clipper and/or a filer? It's better for your nails. I don't want to burden you with talk about me. -offers fingernail clipper and filer-

It's ok, Owen. You doing okies?

-spots and waves to laura- hows you?

*Hugs Helen*
*Hugs Sarah*
*Hugs Lia*
*Hugs Kitty*
*Hugs Solo*
*Hugs Ileana*
*Hugs Ian*
*Hugs Oliver*
*Hugs Amy*
*Waves to Owen*

I'm sorry you are all struggling so much :(

*Spots and Hugs Kahlia* How are you hun?

*huggles all*

*hugs Mark* - a bit tired and very sore. how are you?

*Hugs Kahlia* I'm sorry you're Tired and Sore :( I'm feeling okay , determined today .

Hello everyone.

Hey Lindsay :) How are you feeling today hun?

Like I want to kill myself. I wish I had the freedom to go ahead with it.

How are you, Mark?

*Hugs Lindsay* I'm sorry you feel like crap , is there anything you can do to take your mind off it? Listen to some Linkin Park? I would miss you if you went ahead with it :(

I'm watching the clock , Waiting for it to be 1pm so I can go to meet my befriender Becky.

Nothing seems to take my mind off things any more. Hope you enjoy your meeting with your befriender.

*Super Huge Hugs Lindsay*

My anxiety level is through the roof. I have tachycardia and I'm shaking...and I feel like running into a wall (only FEEL like it). I'm wigging out. Meh. I don't even know why I posted it here. Sorry.

I'm sorry you are so Anxious Ileana :( *Hugs* Do you have any Camomille Tea or Lavender oil to put on a hanky? these are meant to be calming :)

Thank you. I wish I did but I don't. I'm doing some things here to calm myself down. I'm writing, it helps.

Hey guys, im back again. Just feeling low cause my girl broke up with me =/
Just lonely i guess.

**** today!

Couldn't sleep last night, had only 4h sleep.
Woke up in a bad mood because of low sleep.
Couldn't afford food whilst at uni, had a bag of hula hoops to tide me over though.
Uni, my first lecture was just a joke. Did the stuff 3 years ago. ¬_¬
Second lecture, assignment is group work, and its on something I can't do. Anyone found not doing equal share of the work will be given a 0. I can't do said work, I'll need time off for medical stuff, I'm not mentally capable of doing the work. Ugh.
Then got the bus home, full of screaming children. My fiance had to go to a garage, so he couldn't pick me up from uni like he said, no big deal, just got the bus and arranged to meet 2 friends.
Both friends "forgot" about plans I made 20 minutes previously. At dinner today, noone was interested in talking to me, my friend got an iphone, so that was more interesting than talking to me.
Voice has been bad today. Feel really paranoid I was almost sick with it. Cried all the way home. :/
Now my fiance is telling me to stop being silly about everything. AGH!

*Hugs Sarah* I'm sorry today has been so crappy. I love you. <3

*Hugs Matt?* I'm sorry you broke up man :(

*Hugs Sarah* Wow , it sounds like you have had a crap day, I'm sorry about that hun :(

*cuddles everyone* I love you guys. Just want to curl up and hide in a little hole now.

*Cuddles Sarah*

-hugs everyone- Sorry you are all feeling so crappy today. Sorry bout last night.