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MammaMia 31-12-2007 11:53 PM

Thanks Monarkh

I'll join you when the party is over haha!

****ing glad 2008 is almost here =P

jdpasino 01-01-2008 06:50 AM

i wanted to read all the posts, but i couldn't make it....*signs myself in* boy do i need this place

xyon 01-01-2008 07:17 AM

Checking in again, it's been a while cuz my internet access is ****ed. I need this place too. Hope you're ok dance.

Ileana 01-01-2008 09:22 AM

I'm like...suicidal right now. Funny.
I'm not doing anything, just that eternal rest is calling me to her arms again. Nothing to worry about.

MammaMia 01-01-2008 08:32 PM

I'm sorry. I'm scared again. So so so scared.

Seraphsigh 01-01-2008 10:37 PM

Hide under the blanket!
*brings flashlight*
I wish I could make you feel better. It should be a happy new year.

MammaMia 01-01-2008 10:47 PM

*hids with you*

I was doing okay.
Then I started feeling crap.
Then I started getting scared.
Now I'm bawling my eyes out over a 12 year old.
She's not worth it and I'm better than her.
I knew her for what 5 months?
I did nothing but comfort her.
She helped me too.
Then, she turns around and tells me she's not gonna be online.
So I emailed her one night when I was missing her and she replied.
Then I forgot because of Christmas & New Year.
So i emailed her today.
And she doesn't want to be friends anymore.
She "wants to be with her friends of her own age, this is the year I want to get better and I can't solve your problems."
Her 12year old friends won't understand.
I didn't understand self harm, overdoses, suidices etc at that age.
****ing hell, I help her and this is how she repays me?
I am sick of people walking out on me and making me say goodbye.
It's hard enough trying to get over my parents split, even though I still see my dad regularly.
This really hurts.
Everythig hurts me.
I want to cut the hell out of me today.
I can't.
I have a party in 4 days.
I'm scared about that too.

Bella_forever 01-01-2008 10:59 PM

*stops rocking* I need a book... *grabs a book from the book case then returns to the couch and starts reading it*

Seraphsigh 01-01-2008 11:05 PM

*Grabs another book and pounds the heck out of the bad vibes*
Oh, my girls. I'm sorry you're sad.
Come here *hugs*.

I'm checking out. Sure it won't be long till I'm back.

Bella_forever 01-01-2008 11:16 PM

Aw we will miss you till you get back... *walks to her room and sits in the dark with her big fat book*

MammaMia 01-01-2008 11:32 PM

Do you have to check out :(


Seraphsigh 02-01-2008 05:04 PM

Okay I'm back. Might as well just stay in here.
*clears a spot and meditates*

Seraphsigh 02-01-2008 05:10 PM

Oh and hi again, Miss Dance. I missed you :).
Look, I brought you all New Year gifts...but since we are in a ward, they have to be safe. So, here are... *reaches in bag with a flourish*... pink rubber tiaras!!
I hope you boys like tiaras.

*goes back to meditating and tries to keep mind off things*

jdpasino 02-01-2008 06:10 PM

i'm sorry about everything you're going through dance....*hugs you* *sits next to you and looks around feeling awkward*

Bella_forever 02-01-2008 07:07 PM

*runs out and puts on tiara* How do I look? Don't lie!

Seraphsigh 02-01-2008 08:25 PM

Hahaha! Beeeeeautiful!

MammaMia 02-01-2008 09:23 PM

Thanks guys, means a lot.
Ugh not impressed.
Started today with barely any sleep to feeling rough to feeling awake to feeling awesome to now feeling really badly triggered & angry.
(I think we all do).
Mine sodding kills and she battered me up mainly thru play fighting.
*hides until she's found*

Seraphsigh 03-01-2008 01:00 AM

Ugh. Periods.
*hands you a heating pad*

MammaMia 03-01-2008 01:43 AM

Thanks :]

My tummy is feeling better again so let's hope the pain will sod off.

I feel like **** and not just because of the peroid =P

Bella_forever 03-01-2008 01:59 AM

I surry lovie

jdpasino 03-01-2008 02:24 AM

by the way bella you looked very cute in the tiara!

MammaMia 03-01-2008 02:51 AM

You did indeed :]

Ugh I give in, I can't fight anymore, what's the point in trying to recover?

Seraphsigh 03-01-2008 05:09 AM

Duh. The point is that some day you are definitely going to look back and say "wow, I'm really glad I quit SI, because now I am a strong person"
I really doubt that if you keep trying, things will turn out badly. I think you're pretty cool...you've shown us that! Just keep being strong and push through this...don't give in to those voices telling you you can't do it!!! I can't yell it loud enough!!!!
Are you deaf yet?



Take care, sweetie. Hope that tough love wasn't too harsh.

MammaMia 03-01-2008 05:55 AM

I've known you a few days & I already love ya haha.

I was already deaf thanks :]

I keep slipping and it's not fair, makes me want it back. God my head is screwed up.

Why am I gone back to being very bad at sleeping :(

Seraphsigh 03-01-2008 06:30 AM

You're in England! Oh my goodness, get to bed.
Hm...I guess that means I'm in England too, since we're in the same ward. Or maybe you're in California. Anyway, this is too much for my small brain to handle. So lets just say cyberspace.
I'm sorry you can't sleep well...seems like you're worrying about a lot of things. For me it helps if I concentrate all of my thoughts and energies towards certain parts of my body: my breathing, then my arms and legs, fingertips, toes, etc. Feeling warmth, heaviness, etc. Usually, by the time I've gone through a few of them, I'm very relaxed and find it easier to sleep. I hope something like that works for you!
All I can really offer, though, is a warm hug, a lavender scented eye pillow *hands it to you* and best wishes for sweet dreams.


MammaMia 03-01-2008 06:49 AM

I don't want to sleep =O

(I'll regret it later, will probs fall asleep within an hour and then fall asleep after I wake up perhaps)

MammaMia 03-01-2008 05:55 PM

Oh Carole hunnie, I wish I properly woke up at 11am when I first woke. I feel bad now. I hope you're okay *huggles*

Me, I have a banging headache. That's what I get for sleeping in til 4.30pm >.<

jdpasino 03-01-2008 06:30 PM

carole what's causing you to feel this way? *gives dance a hug* i feel so awful....*groans* i'd rather feel depressed than this...

Seraphsigh 03-01-2008 06:38 PM

*wakes up in an angry fog*
Sorry I missed all the excitement.
I really hope you are all a little better now. *hugs everyone individually*
My wrist hurts.
*curls up in corner and continues to be confused*

Seraphsigh 03-01-2008 06:41 PM

I'm from New Jersey. Sigh. I miss the east coast.
Hope you're enjoying it! :)

MammaMia 03-01-2008 06:50 PM

I have AWESOME news oh yesssssssssss.

I got another uni offer & it's from a place I desperatly want to get into, infact my desire for it is awesomely strong!!!

zowie 03-01-2008 08:09 PM

I want to hurt myself so much just to feel something. The Statue is here but I think this is all a dream.
I can't remember the last time I washed.
I think I'm really unwell. I think I need to talk to somebody, but I can't let them take me to hospital. If I phone someone they'll take me to hospital.
AHhahaha, Im being the crazy person in our ward today arent I?
I love you guys, take care of yourselves

MammaMia 03-01-2008 10:58 PM

I should be awesome.
The pain of my parents split keeps coming back.
I thought I was accepting it now.
God, I want to move on.
But I still want what I can't have.
This is going to take ages?

Spookshow Baby 04-01-2008 02:13 AM

I hope everyone is okay. :(
I'm feeling triggered and finding things really hard.
Today has been the worst in ages. :(

MammaMia 04-01-2008 03:11 AM

*hugs everyone lots*

I am happy.
Just feels so fake you know?
I wish I could sleep :crying:

Seraphsigh 04-01-2008 07:01 AM

*lies flat out on the floor*
I feel like all the walls and air and energies are pressing in on me but I can't die yet. It's torture. I think it's time that someone came and clubbed me in the head.

MammaMia 04-01-2008 11:07 AM

*huggles you lots*


~KemicalRain~ 04-01-2008 11:45 AM

*walks in looking worse for wear* sorry about the torn clothes i just cant be bothered to get changed *sits in corner and cries silently siniging to himself* but anyway i am back again....

~KemicalRain~ 04-01-2008 11:58 AM

*sits with carole* do you want to talk about it hun

~KemicalRain~ 04-01-2008 12:29 PM

well i am here if you need to talk just about any old stuff and i am sure recetionists arnt meant to do that hun *hugs for you*

Sugar and Spice 04-01-2008 12:31 PM

*hugs back* Thanks hun.
But, enough about my craziness :P

How are you holding up?

~KemicalRain~ 04-01-2008 12:33 PM

i am surviving i think just with the help of music and stuff i am getting by (i think) arapt from my clothing and my head being a little bit all over the place i am fine lol i dont know how i am really my head is all over the place

Sugar and Spice 04-01-2008 12:43 PM

Sorry to hear that. At least we can hide in here for a while

~KemicalRain~ 04-01-2008 12:45 PM

yeah true well i left a couple of months ago i just felt out of place so i hid but i feel better now so i am ack i just dont feel to secure in my head

Seraphsigh 04-01-2008 04:38 PM

*hugs you both*
I'm sorry you're sad. Steve I think you're a hottie, even if you have torn clothes :p. Carole, if you want to cry I have a shoulder.
I completely freaked out last night but now I'm off the floor if anyone wants to talk.

MammaMia 04-01-2008 07:26 PM

At the rate I'm going, I won't be going to the party.
I realllllllllllly want to go :(

jdpasino 04-01-2008 08:52 PM

why won't you be going to the party dance? carole you need to tell someone about your thoughts....*hugs you* i still feel like crap! ughhhh.....hope everyone is doing ok....oh and nj is ok...*shrugs*

MammaMia 05-01-2008 12:01 AM

It's silly to stress so much over a party.

jdpasino 05-01-2008 05:40 PM

why has therapy made you worse?

MammaMia 05-01-2008 07:59 PM

*hugs Carole back*

Ah ha, not stressed about it anymore yay :)
It's like in 30 mins, but wont be there at that time.
That'd be pretty sad :\

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