Hi secrets. how are u.. i hope ur keepn good.
wildy insane.. hi i hope u to are well

thank u to both of u. you were kind to me when i was feeln way down.
im doing good these days. worried yes that il fall, but its nothing i havnt experience before. tc xx

*dies*

People suck, but **** them all (Y)

Sorry, would do individual replies but only just woke up. Feeling a bit drowsy.
Had some weird dreams, I didn't like them. They upset me.

*hugs Lucy* am glad you are in a better place, don't worry about it because it may never happen :) stay strong and take care

*hugs Arwen* sorry to hear about your dreams, hopefully you can forget them soon enough.

*hugs Helen* I hope things worked out

*hugs Ashley* am so glad you are feeling better, take care of yourself

*huggles for everyone*

I nearly commited murder yesterday. He saved himself.

hugs steal maiden . what did the nurses say

today is going to be the day. im sorry

wow vets was busy last night!

*hugs Sorcha* I'm glad you can check yourself out, hope being at home is lovely.

*hugs Mammamia* dont give up honey, and Im with you on the people thing atm, my flatmates have stolen the little food I have. =[

*hugs hannah* I'm so glad you had a lovely night, you deserve it.

*hugs lucy may* I'm so happy for you that things have improved.

*hugs zowie* nasty dreams aren't fun, hopefully as time goes on you can forget them.

*hugs Steel Maiden* Im around if you want to talk

*hugs cheryl* what's happened honey?

Secrets has rage this morning, shes been woken up numerous times by drunks, the best way to be woken up and after working up the courage to have breakfat she's found her food vanished. The fairies obviously were hungry, though the fairies decided the chocolate buttons would substitute =]

its all just 2 hard i give up. thanks or the hugs wish somebodies hugs cud sort me out

sorry ur flatmates nicked ur food.

*goes around and gives you all hugs*

Arwen, deams suck, I know the feeling. Want to talk about them?

Hannah, ahaha, wouldn't say they're sorted but me & jade had a good rant *coughs* I mean chat :P I was bit naughty, was pratically shouting my head off at one point, bearing in mind it was like 3am. But some of what you'd said helped us both ;) Hope you slept okay ;)

Secrets, how rude of your flatmates, could you steal any of their food??

*offers more hugs for everyone*

*Hugs Hannah and Secrets back* Yeah, they were horrible dreams, but it's not bugging me anymore.

*Hugs Steel* Replied to your thread in Serious.

*Hugs Cheryl* Do you want to talk about it sweetie?

Thanks Helen, but I'm trying to not think about them. I did have one nice dream though which involved having a cuddle with my old rabbit :)

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It's so hot today! The sunshine gave me the energy to have a bath, put on a pretty dress and do my hair and make up. I've got nowhere to go but sometimes it feels nice to make an effort rather than bumming around the house in my PJs.
Did a bit of food shopping, and as we have vouchers (which expire today) for £5 off anything over £15, Dad's gone back to stock up on booze :D
I'm going to go sit in the garden with a Diet Coke, a ciggy and a book :)

*Leaves hugs and warm thoughts for everyone*
<3 xxx

*hugs to everyone that wants them* I feel like s**t i'm supposed to be getting better but instead i seem to be getting worse, my heads a mess and yet i have to be supportie for the rest of my family and pretend that everythings ok!

.... rant over!

*Hugs shadowed* I know what it's like to feel like you need to be okay for the sake of your loved ones, but I've come to realise that they'd probably rather know what's wrong and be able to help, rather than be in the dark and later on have things esculate and become worse.

*Hugs Kat* What has made you realise he's so in control? You are your own master, and you can fight him.

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Dad's actually bought so much alcohol, it's really going to tide us over. So, yup, drinking tonight!

*hugs Zowie* i suppose your right but its so hard to tell without sounding whiny or attention seeking!

Have fun with your drinkies :0)

*curls up in a ball*

Hiya, am now ensconced at my parents, my mum has already told me not to stay up too late lol. Loving the weather, oh my yes. I am now the proud owner of a pale grey rat and a dark grey rat I have named Freyja and Puck respectively they are uber cute, but still rather terrified at the moment.

*hugs Helen* hope next week is better for you and i'm always here to help

*hugs Shadowedseraph* I know it's tough, sometimes you have to tell people that things aren't okay, you have to look after yourself sometimes

*hugs Kat* stay safe hun, don't let him make you do anything you don't want to do

*hugs Cheryl* don't give up, keep fighting

*hugs Secrets* am so sorry to hear they've stolen your food, that sucks, hope you found some food and that the rage went and you ended up enjoying the day.

*hugs Steel Maiden* how's hospital?

*hugs Arwen* sounds like you had a pretty lovely day, am so glad, enjoy those drinkies :)

*hugs Jem, Katie, Emma, Todlich, Gil, Vicki, Lucy May, and anyone else hiding in a corner or just dropping by*

Feeling really low tonight. :'(

*Drops by with chocolate cupcakes*

Hope everybody is keeping well!! xx

Things change. Places change. People change.

Life just full of changes hey? :( It's knowing when to move on for the right reasons.

*hugs mammamia* change can be good or bad, how are you doing?
*hugs wildly insane* i know i should talk to them but im not sure what to say

Indeed it can :) I'm not doing so great but thanks for asking :]

Whats the matter MammaMia? im here if you want to chat

I had another nice day in the sun :)

I wish that I could act on my suicidal feelings without hurting my brother, or that they would go away. This has been going on for too long.

feels really shitty after a od last night. and phoned and left a message with my ot so she will phone at sum stupid time(be4 9am) 2morrow but i dont know wat im gonna say to her cus she will tell my cpn and ive gota c him at 130
hugs wud be nice

*hugs all that need them* my head hurts, I think it's the consequence of too much sun.

Secrets is a happy secrets today, she is no longer a hermit and feels suitably sunburnt, hugged, feed and child-messed. Though she desperatly needs sleep.

OH MY. Guess who got completely rat arsed and talked a lot of **** last night xD;

That's the way to do it 'Damnation' :D.

*hugs all that need them*

XD Oh yes.

Thank **** my housemate warned my dad and gran that I'd probably be drunk last night, 'cause I sent them emails <_<;

Nicely done!

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Please...is there anybody around? I can't handle this anymore...! I need help. Please. Anybody? There's a very desperate girl in the Psyc Ward here...

*hugs Vicki* what's up? shout, scream, vent, rant, rave, cry, whatever will make you feel better.

*hugs Todlich* did you have a good time last night? Hope you didn't have too much of a hangover today

*hugs Secrets* am so glad you had a good day, I hope you get some sleep.

*hugs Cheryl* sorry to hear that hun, how did the phone call and meeting go?

*hugs one step closer* I'm sorry things are so hard, please keep fighting

*hugs Arwen* yay for another nice day

*hugs shadowedseraph* how are you?

*hugs Helen* yep change happens and there aint anything we can do about it. hope your sunday was okay

*hugs Jem* ooh chocolate cupcakes

leaves hugs for anyone wanting them, am shattered, time for bed

argh!!!!! okay this was a stuiped idea, but i was looking at photos of myself from ages ago, and videos and i really dont like what i saw. i look and sound just, hmm felt like telling myself to shut up. just feel really upset and triggered. deff didnt like what i saw. and now i want to cut, crap. =/

sorry to hear that, people always look and sound wierd and different on videos and photos can be very unflattering at times, I'm sure there are also some lovely photos of you. It's in the past, it's not now and there's nothing you can do about it, except be strong today *hugs*

yeah i know, just dont have the best opioin of myself to begin with, so that didnt help, my own stuiped fault. knew how it would effect me, but i did it anyway. which was bright. =[

havent had them yet its in 8 hours the phone call and 11 hours for the psych

i feel so wired.

Are you ok Becky starz? *hugs* what's up? x

*leaves hugs for some of the VPW regulars, Hanna, Zowie, Kahlia, Nicole, Secrets, Marie-Anne, Kat, Jem etc*

*Also leaves hugs for everyone*

I feel **** myself so i have no wise words to give right now, sorry peeps.

o.o;

*Hugs all*

Never had one before. My housemate was hungover today though <_<;

*hugs Pomegranate* it sounds like you're in a bit of a pickle, Im sorry I have no advice but I thought I'd let you know I'm thinking of you.

*hugs rockaroni* haven't seen you around in a while, hope you're ok.

*hugs Beckystarz* hope the wierd feeling has passed.

*hugs Arcasia* hope things start to improve, feel free to PM me if you would like.

*hugs Damnation* you lucky devil, no hangovers. I hope you bang around the next day though...I love doing that!

*leaves hugs for others who may pop in*

I'm fed up of this rollercoaster now, I want to get off.

Please.

O_O Bang around? My mind, she is too dirty. I think I misunderstood you, lol *hugs back*

I think you may have done however that brought a smile to my face.

xDD Glad to hear it!

ty for the hugs emma! means alot to me :-)

*drops by with some orange juice, freshly squeezed lol*

I'm exhausted...got 1 more week of clinicals placements to go, that means no waking up at 6am ish for an early start...ugh! But i got exams coming up soon.....no study done as usual damn! oh well..such is life as a ryler would say...u know who u r lol

scared meeting with the psychiatrist in an hour dont know wat to say to him. cant tell him bout sat as he will send me to a and e or even inpatient i really dont wanna go going on my own 2 so got no back up **** wat am i doing im such an idiot. let a message for my OT to ring me today she didnt so that has sent me into panic im just wasting everyones time :( god im a mess

Hello all you lovely people :)

I'd like to leave sunshine and hugs for everyone because MY LAST EXAM IS OVER!! Happy days! Hope you're all doing alright today.

Mwah x

Can I come and hide for awhile? *hugs for everyone*

OOOOO YAY for last exam!!!

Course you can Katie :D

*offers hugs for all*

can i have some hugs please :(

*hughughug....hug*

What's up love? Anything you feel you can talk about?