aww April, don't stress about it hun, you're not a coward and you're not stupid, it's really tough, I can't get myself to eat sometimes either, try a go out and tea and honey sounds like a good idea.

*hugs Helen* it would be so much better if you could sort your sleep patterns out hun. I was just about to go outside and enjoy the sunshine, but it's no long shining :(

*hugs everyone* nice weather. but a bit too hot. i visited my old primary school yesterday. i really missed it. and ended up helping with their summer fair.
how is everyone?

Hannah, yeah it would, but least last few nights, been sleeping earlier than 4am, which is a huge deal to me :p Haha, sun's still shining & warm here :D

Nicollllllllle, *jumps on* did you have fun yesterday sweetie? *hugs tight*

*hugs helen* hello hun, that was very entusiastic! lol. yeah i did thanks, was a bit akward though because it was so hot there was no way i could wear long sleeves, and none of my old teachers know about my self harm, but luckily noone noticed it. hows you?

Well I am very pleased to see you :) Bless you sweetheart, glad nobody noticed :D I'm feeling good for a change, even if I do know it won't last bahaha!!!

I LOVE HOT SUNNY DAYS =D (Summer's nearly here YAAAAY)

lol, thanks, i'm pleased to see you too. and i think people may have noticed and just not said anything. and i HATE the hot weather, any time its to hot to wear long sleeves-its too hot. lol

I am in such a bad mood right now... will update r/v once I get home, am at my parents' again right now. Ugh. I am a selfish bitch, it's been shown to me by my sister. :'(

r/v updated......... :'(

*Tackle-hugs April ,Nicole and Helen*
Good evening everyone :)

Hey there my fellow wardies!

So sorry that I've been absent from the common room and all your goings on. There have been 33 pages since I was last in here, so there is no way I'm going to attempt to catch up - I hope that you can all forgive me for that.

Things have been a little bit crazy in my family due to a relationship breakdown and my elder brother being an ******** to put it politely! Anyhoo, I won't go inot details here. I need to let it all out in my diary methinks though as I'm feeling ill with all the stress and different emotions. I've also got to phone my father to inform him of whats going on. I've put it off for over 24hours now....dreading it.....

*tlc for all my wardies in ways that they can accept it*

hmmm, quiet in here.... well I've phoned my father and updated my journal. Think I'm going to have a camomile tea and a fag and call it a night. Not sure if I'll have the chance to come in on a regular basis these next few days due to the continuing saga, but please know that you are all in my thoughts and prayers. *extra special tlc for all wardies*

*curls up in corner*
fat =[

you's not selfish april <3

*cuddles everyone* Quiet day in the ward...

:(

Hvaing a very bad evening, can't explain right now, but can I have some hugs & prayers or anuthing? Please? :'(

*cuddles Hels* Sure, sweet, I'll hold you as long as you need, and I'll be praying for you as well. Anything I can do else to help???

*cuddles April tight* Not at the moment. I will explain really soon, but I can't right this second.

Okay, love. *more cuddles*

I'm feeling pretty **** at the moment too... updated r/v again... :'(

What do you guys think about me contacting my old therapist to get some closure and see why she dropped me like a hot brick? :-S I've been debating that for awhile... I don't know... I can't make up my mind as to what would be wise. :-S

*hides*

*clings*

Maybe you should?

*huggles all*

too tired oh ***** washing gotta go