*hugs Faye*
*hugs Mark*

I'm honestly not sure how much longer I can do this. For thirteen years people have been hurting me - it's what I deserve - and I'm so tired. I just want to fade away.

*hugs katie*

whats happened hun? Your strong you can cope with this and get through it. You wont fade, you will shine brighter than all the other stars.

*hugs saphire hearts* we're all here for you

*Hugs Katie* Yopu don't deserve to be hurt hun .

It's just too much. He's out there, I thought I was safe and it's all a lie. I will never be free from him. I'd rather die than let him do that to me again.

Whats too much hun? do you want to talk more? you can always pm. He wont hurt you again. You could report him?

Every time I think I'm safe He comes back. Just to remind me I'll never be worth anything. To hurt me and f*** me and let me know I'm a whore and a freak. I will never be free, He always knows where I am, and He punishes me. That's the way it goes. I couldn't report Him. They wouldn't let me.

Who wouldnt let you? hun you are worth so so much. Your a strong determined individual who deserves lots of love and happiness. You are none of what you said.

*sits with sapphire* you dont deserve to be hurt, and you're not a whore or anything bad you say about yourself <3

Sapphire, I agree with RisingFromTheAshes12 ... you do NOT deserve to be hurt! You are NOT a whore. You ARE worth more than you know and everyone here sees that even if you can't see that about yourself right now. *hugs* Hang in there.

*hugs all*

I can't cope. I give up. I want to give in but I'm not allowed to.

Hi

*sits quietly* may i have some safe gentle cuddles if anyone is about please

whats up laura?x

no giving up laura :( wats rong?
*sits with and hugs gently*

*hugs Katie*

today hates me. first I gained weight but ate a lot less yesterday than usually. Then my mom keeps talking about dad. Then I see dads car parked at the medieval times fair. Then I was at the fair and they play pirate music. What do pirates have to do with knights???
Then we had a lot of hail and it sounded like a horde of people were running through the house... I was alone though. Then I wanted to harm but I can't do it, cause I'm not allowed.

*Hugs Faye*

*Hugs Laura*

*offers safe cuddles to laura* well done for not harming thats great. Im sorry your mum upset you could you tell her you dont like to talk about your dad?

Im soo cold tonight cant stop shivering and my leg hurts :( feel a bit scared i tried to be positive but if the one thing i need goes wrong ill be back to square one.

*hugs mark* hows you?

*hugs Mark*
*hugs Heather*
*hugs Faye* sorry I got your name wrong before... I missread and thought you were someone else.

thats ok :) *hugs*

sorry you had such a rough day laura =[ im online if you want.
<3

I feel like I'm floating now. I'm going to try and read for a bit and then bed. I have to work tomorrow...

love you <3. *keeps company*

heather: you are always so nice to me <3

cuz you deserve people to be nice to you <3
just wish i could do more.
[that goes for all of you]

*curls up to sleep* My parents brought me some cold and sinus meds so I'm starting to feel a little better now. Ready for a decent nights sleep. Here to hoping my X won't drunk dial me again tonight.

*hugs everyone*

Laura, I'm so sorry it's so hard for you right now

Sorry, am quite drunk

Faye: 'They' is the thoughts that know I deserved everything that happened.

Hope everyone's okay xxx

dont listne to those thoughts sweetie. you do NOT deserve anything- let alone everything- that's happened. promise. <3
love love love.

*hugs* to everyone - feel better Kelly!!

I'm just gonna sit in here for a little bit...

I'm going to hide in here for a bit

*hugs everyone and offers round homemade apple crumble*

*sits quiet and cries in the corner*

cant get the thoughts of jumping on the bridge out of my head cant stop crying i just want to die nothing i do is ever good enough anymore:'(

*Hugs Gemma* Try to focus on something nice , even if it's small , Flowers or puppys of chocolate.

*Hugs wardies*

hugs everyone

*snuggles under blanket* im knackered today.

*snuggles up to Happiness* it's too cold today

it is, very cold hows you?

Surviving thanks, nearly had a disagreement with the oven just now (I'm making apple crumble)

yum can i pop round lol? ovens and i dont get on too well to be honest. I hate the cold and being stuck indoors all the time.

I Prefer the cold to the Hot Weather , My meds make me heat and light sensitive

The Unmerciful Moon

I visited the stars last night
And called in on the moon
He said he missed me
'please call again soon'
I don’t think I will though
It wants too much
Such things I won’t indulge in
Not involving its sorded touch
But now that ive left
I always dream of the stars
The way they talked
Of healing my scars
But I never replied to them
And now I don’t have the chance
Now it’s over with the moon
My final romance
People are so hard to find
Hence me looking to space
There is much more peace
And much more grace
But I destroyed what i had
So back to earth i go -
And if you asked if i wanted to
The answer would be 'No'.

the cold is better i agree i just feel odd today like got a headache and all shivery and feel really tired :/

Did you write that Monk? It's really good :)

*Hugs Faye*

Sure happiness lol *gives Happiness apple crumble*

Internet's being annoying :crying:

:nono: internet

bad internet *tells internet to work properly*

thanks yummy apple crumble

*hugs mark*

no its just a part of what once was.
and a part of my panic button. *oops* was i allowed to say that?!?!?

*hugs all* how are you today?

hey hun <3 how you doing?
<3

Heather! Hi. I'm okish today. Went to the medieval times festival where I used to ride the knights tournament when we still had the horse. I used to win and it was a bit triggering to go there but it went well. I bought new earrings!

How are you?

yay new earrings. and omgosh thats so cool that you used to ride though- i would love to be good enough to do that ^.^ but sorry was triggring.

im a bit blah and feel icky, but will live.

im not safe and i dont know what to do im really scared and frightened.

anything we can do to help?
*sits with*