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*hugs Mrs. Pan, Mark, Lia, Laura, Lindsay*

Lia, I wouldn't even know what to say. Aside from feeling like I can't even hold it together I don't even know how I feel right now. Numbing out compared to earlier tho. Trying really hard not to injure.
I do know what caused it though and I hate that it is eating away at me and causing more problems than it's worth.

The following content has been hidden - Reason : the straw that broke the camel's back

Apparently D's friend (and father to my kid's friend) 'just doesn't talk to me because when he does I'm a bitch about it' Yeah well I'm sorry I don't like repeating myself, I'm sorry I don't like being lied to, I'm sorry if you don't think my feelings are valid and I'm sorry I call bullshit when necessary and think you are an arrogant ignorant ass when you tell me I'm wrong when I know I'm right

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Well the more D hangs out with him the more he acts like him in some manners... B is always asking his wife what's wrong if she isn't all smiley and when she says nothing or that she's fine he starts... throwing a tantrum is what it looks like... saying if nothing was wrong she wouldn't be acting like that (seriously half the time he starts this she's just sitting there) and after a few rounds of this she does start to get pissed off. I would too. well yesterday D was telling B how the morning got all ****ed up and how I was just in a foul mood all day because of it and when I said I wasn't in a foul mood he started in on me... Well at one point I said okay fine if I'm in the kitchen because I'm in a foul mood I guess that means I'm not making this food for our dinner I guess I'll turn it off then so I can go sit with you while you tell me all about my foul mood. That wasn't appreciated either.
And all in all things just haven't been peachy since...

I want to injure but my options there are fairly limited and I don't see them as options but I also feel the need for them... I am all kinds of conflicted on the issue. Ok so I think that does count as talking about it after all. It leaves a lot out but gets the general idea out there.

*hugs Lia and Crimson*

they all think it's best for me. T said that it would be good to go inpatient before I start uni. My mom thinks that I should go inpatient, because she watched some report about a girl who SHs on TV and she was in and out of hosp for years. She cares about me and she does understand that hosp wont work if I don't want it. I think my mom is really cool with everything, she didn't yell or go through my things. She just cried.

I'm sorry that your mom said something like that to you.

I want to move... You guys are all so far away. I think we should have RYL Island made for us...

*hugs you all lots*

*waves to anyone who doesnt want hugs*

sorry I'm not doing individual replies, I'm a bit all over the place, I'm really low and want to OD badly, but can't cos I'm going home this weekend to see my sisters ballet show and found out something bad this morning.

*hugs all*
Hugs are good for me Lia. I like your Glee avatar too :)

Well done for holding on Oliver.

Yay, an island! Better than a ward lol

*hugs Mrs Pan* how are you?

*hugs Oliver*
I'm okay at the moment, thank you for asking. Had a strange night though, emotions up and down. I will hopefully get to sleep as soon as I go to bed so I don't have time to think about rubbish stuff.

*hugs Mrs Pan* hope you sleep ok

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Mrs Pan*

*hugs Oliver*
*hugs Lia*
*hugs Pan*
*hugs mark*

how are you all?

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Lindsay*

I don't know how I am yet , How are you gals?

I'm still feeling suicidal. I'm going to try and contact the voluntary crisis team tonight but they usually just tell me to watch TV.

*Squishes Lindsay Heaps*

Thanks, Mark. How are you doing now?

*hugs*

Watching TV is bloody crap advice in a crisis. Is there nobody else you can contact?

I might try and phone my OT tomorrow if they don't help, but she never knows what to do either.

I've decided that I have to kill myself to stop the men in my head from killing my brother. This is for the best. He won't have to die and I won't have to suffer any more.

*Hugs Lindsay extra hard!*

*Hugs Mrs Pan*