Why do I feel so crappy at the moment? Two of my friends have both done amazingly on part of their degrees and I should feel so happy for them! And I AM proud, but their success just reminds me how much I am screwing up my degree. I can't focus on stuff anymore, my motivation is so shot to pieces and god damn it this isn't like me :( I am contemplating asking to take a year out to try and sort myself out. I have work today too and I just can't face it. At the moment it seems impossible for me to get through today. Such a **** up.

*hugs all*

*cuddles emma* i don't think ur a **** up!!! May be it is wise to sort urself out b4 going to uni and wat not? Come to aus hehe for a trip lol :P

I feel lousy and useless atm...wishing i was dead atm..*Sigh* probably won't happen till i'm old..but still, i want out :-(

*hugs everyone*

work night out was hell, fake happiness all round, even had a wee cry in the loos at one point, got drunk (whoops, I am not supposed to drink) which made me morbid, went home before I made a tit of myself at least.

x

*hugs everyone*

Sorry, am not able to find the words to support at the moment. Just wanted to let you all know that i'm reading, even if i'm not responding.

*sends cuddles to all*

You're all amazing people. Seriously.

*crawls into bed sobbing* I didn't want to leave and now I'm crying again. Stuipd girl. Gonna get stuipdly fat at this rate. Have put on a stone in the last 12 months, as I've had a lot more meals out/takeaways. Haven't eaten healthily all weekend....Hannah can back me up on that one :p

Oh my dear 'ATP drinking buddy', you are not a **** up. I'll tell you I wanted several times to take time off from Uni to sort myself out... probably should have as then maybe would have done better when I got back... All this that you are talking about is part and parcle of what you are dealing with hun, it is nothing about you, not inherently. *cuddles* Love you so much sweetie.

Emma M. (OK, that's not your last name but it is the first letter of your username, lol) you're not stupid hun. I wish I could say something to help sweetie but I can hug *cuddles*

*sits in her corner and stares out at the falling snow as tears roll down her cheeks, unbidden*

*leaves cuddles for everyone*

*phones in sick and curls up in corner to cry*

*Hugs anyone who needs them*

Still got a horrible cough and am not helping it by smoking so much. x

*cuddles everyone*

I eventually stopped crying, had a few worries all night but slept from 3-10am, and actually woke up. Normally on a Sunday, I sleep in til after 12pm :p

*hugs anyone who wants/needs one*

It's been so hot and humid today that I kept crashing out ... getting sucked dry by the warmth. Blech ... I hate townsville whether.

*hugs everyone tight*

now I have the flu, at least it will be an excuse for avoiding all festivities

love to all
x

I want the godamm flu =\
But maybe I'll regret saying that if I get it?

Helen, my head feels like it is going to explode but people do leave you alone so it is a double edged sword!

Hope you are okay.

*waves at everyone so as not to pass on germs and runs back to smoking shelter and hides under duvet*

I'm okay I think :)

Just feeling poorly and a little fragile, things are challenging at the moment, but in a fighting spirit so it's good :)

*cuddles Helen*

*cuddles Amanda*

Wish this would go away.

I hate being poor :-(
I have really really bad stomach cramps...
last time I had cramps like this, I ended up
in the ER with a ruptured ovarian cyst and an UTI...
but I can't go to the ER... or even the doctor, because
I have no insurance... and no money. *cries*

*cuddles Manda*
I hopes you're feeling better soon :(
Stomach cramps suck =[