*huge hugs*

*Squishes Lindsay*

*hugs lindsay*
*hugs mark*
*hugs heather*
*hugs miskitty*
*hugs oliver*
*hugs ian*
hope I didn't forget anyone but just in case
*hugs all*

they still want me to go inpatient. I have an appointment to talk with the inpatient person at hosp and then I get to decide if I want to go inpatient or if I don't want to.
I'm putting pressure on myself and keep thinking that if I don't go voluntarily that they are going to force me eventually.

*Hugs Laura* Perhaps wait until you've spoken to the woman until you decide?

Maybe you could try making a list of the pros and cons of going inpatient and see how you feel then. Having something down on paper can make decisions easier.

*hugs all*

Laura I agree with Lindsay a pro and con list is a good idea.

I got called a freak on the train back to Manchester cos I was watching an opera.

That was so horrible of them, Oliver. I hope you're ok. *hugs*

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Oliver* I'm so sorry that's so mean , don't let the bastards get you down Mate .

Is this really me? Is this my life? I've never been 'normal.' I just want to fit in somewhere.

*hugs Lindsay and Mark* how are you both?

Waiting on the crisis team phoning me to tell me that i've done well by cutting my grass today. I don't feel like i've done well. I am a fraud living in an alien world.

How are you doing, Oliver?

*hugs Lindsay*

I'm not doing so great, I want to OD, but have to go buy the tablets tomorrow.

What's making you want to OD?

really strong urges to do it, I can't explain them I just need to OD, its like a force acting over me making me do it.

*Hugs Lindsay*
<---- you two are very dear to me , PM box always open
<---- You are always there for me :)
*Hugs Oliver*

*hugs everyone and goes to lay down in a dark room*
Sorry everyone, I can't even focus enough to get caught up and do replies.
*hopes the migraine goes away during my VPW nap*

*Hugs Crimson* *Hugs your Head*

Oliver, I understand that feeling. It's horrible but please remember that you don't need to act on it. You are in control.

Thanks Mark *hugs back*

Crimson, I hope you feel better soon.

*hugs Crimson, Mark and Lindsay*

I'm off now to my trans swimming group, have a good evening/morning all.

Hey everyone :)

Apart from family (and my parents obviously) which most of them live quite a long way away i have no one. I do have one person who i really like and i talk to them quite alot. We have been talking for quite sometime and are hoping to meet soon.

*Hugs Oliver* I'm so sorry about the person who was nasty to you Oliver

*Hugs Mark* How are you?

*Hugs Lindsay* How are you doing?