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YodaBearInterrupted 27-07-2015 09:33 AM

Blah... another night of chaos... I wish it would all stop and go away...

*sits on the couch*

Eir 27-07-2015 04:19 PM

I need to start being regular with my meds. My girl is Driving me mental. It's not her fault.
I'm sick and she's sick and she's two and a half and she doesn't know better. It's one in the morning and I ran away from her and sobbed, cos I cant stand her crying.
Nothing ever gets better really. Something always comes and stuff it up.
* sits in the corner and tries to behave*

Kahlia1981 28-07-2015 02:37 AM

Getting closer and closer to the anniversary day and desperately trying to hold myself together.... I just want to give up and switch but none of us are really coping. At least I'm half way through my ECT treatments, but each day is getting harder and harder to cope - to not just check out and throw the next few days away.... My head just won't stop.... Please.... just stop.

Frankie2014 28-07-2015 08:51 PM

Room for 1 more :(

Kahlia1981 23-08-2015 05:06 PM

Frankie - there's always room in here for one more person. *safe hugs if you can accept them*

Tonight I'm really not coping. Since the anniversary my mood has been dropping further and further until I reached the eternal black place. Now I'm extremely suicidal and Jillian (my nastiest voice) is screaming about how much better this place would be if I did just destroy myself. My husband wants to do the best for me including not leaving me on my own but he does have to sleep. Right now I don't even know what I want to do but that happens. *sigh*

I'm just going to curl up in my pillow fort with my teddy bear and cry myself to sleep. *sigh*

Eir 02-09-2015 05:21 PM

Not dead. Was ok and busy. Now not stable. And not sleeping.

clobo 06-09-2015 07:40 PM

Is there room for one more? really not coping with everything at the moment. Been having more and more rough days lately.

Kahlia1981 20-09-2015 07:01 PM

clobo - please, come on in and find whatever you need

Ktanaya - *safe hugs*

So sick of being down. It would be lovely if the manic side of my illness kicked in and gave me a break because I'm really sick of being screwed in ways that don't end in an orgasm. Would really love some damn sleep but even that doesn't seem to be helping at the moment. *disappears into her pillow fort with Bear*

raining_inmyhead 30-09-2015 08:56 AM

This is the only place I feel safe right now x :-(

raining_inmyhead 30-09-2015 09:19 PM

Why am I fighting so hard, what's the point... *curls up in the corner*

Eir 01-10-2015 06:21 PM

Less stable. Sleepless. But ever so exhausted...

beatrice1981 05-10-2015 02:26 PM

hi is there room for an extra one please because I am struggling a bit right now. thanks. gets duvet and a couple of pillow's and curls up in the corner. I hope everyone is ok.

beatrice1981 05-10-2015 02:32 PM

hi is there room for an extra one please? as I am struggling a bit right now, Thanks, takes duvet and a couple of pillows and curls up in a free corner.

raining_inmyhead 05-10-2015 09:49 PM

Hugs all *hugs* take care of yourselves x

Never enough... still feel as bad... stupid

psychadelicflowergirl 12-10-2015 09:33 AM

*pokes head round door* popping in cos i feel like everything is going on too fast around me. and to also drop by to give everyone some hugs :)

Eir 21-10-2015 03:05 PM

Bit nutty tonight. Brains a-racing. Cant type it all, fingers not co-operating with brain. Also can't figure out how to spell what I wanna write. Plus it wouldn't make sense to anyone but the fairies in my head. So it's kinda pointless attempting.
Random impulses, does anyone get them. I just spent half a shift wanting to flash someone; anyone really. Not the best look for a nurse. Didn't. Did voice that I had the urge. Fortunately understanding work partner.
Just noticed my sentence structure becomes abrupt when I'm Like this. Abrupt is a cool word.
And now I should stop. Just post it.
*hugs the guest. And anyone else who wants it. I'll try to hold off the excessive enthusiasm*

Margo 21-10-2015 05:45 PM

*applauds urge to flash*

Eir 22-10-2015 03:43 PM

:p @ Matthew.
Obsessive random impulse today is to eat blutak. FML
they are so strong. It feels as tho someone's forcing themselves into my head and trying to take over.

Margo 22-10-2015 05:00 PM

Well rather blu tak that what you mentioned in your pm. Ahem. *shudders*. Get some rest xx

Eir 25-10-2015 01:28 PM

Can't sleeeeeep....

CaiteeBug 25-10-2015 08:49 PM

Clowns will eat me.....

look out a piano 25-10-2015 10:40 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by CaiteeBug (Post 3964125)
Clowns will eat me.....

:thumbup:

Eir 26-10-2015 09:27 AM

The pixies took my brain today.
I'm at work and they stole it. Ii get by on routine well enough to fool them, but scratch the surface and I'm not there, or is it here? I don't know.
It's all fuzzy and fluffy round the edges and it scares me

raining_inmyhead 28-10-2015 02:01 PM

It's started... I don't know how it's going to end...

Kahlia1981 29-10-2015 10:24 AM

Hello all.


Mood dropping rapidly. Both my husband and I are screwed up right now. Our hot water system died giving us a massive electricity bill and we can't pay our normal, weekly bills. The price of everything goes up but our pay doesn't....

Depression, switching, voices, and the list keeps going and they keep getting worse. I just want to die. To finally be in peace.

*disappears into her pillow fort*

midnite 30-10-2015 09:26 PM

checks in to hide, can't believe i'm here again, 18 moths after total discharge and i'm struggling again. need to find somewhere safe, this looks like a good place to start

Eir 01-11-2015 11:14 AM

Fml. Over it. Not a danger, don't worry. Just need some peace to build the facade.
I wish I didn't have to hide.

Eir 03-11-2015 03:16 PM

Can't switch off. I need to. I have an exam tomorrow and I need to study more....

Eclectic*a 04-11-2015 08:39 PM

I'm going to sit in here for a while. I'm an oldbie returning. Feels weird.

Eir 09-11-2015 03:08 PM

Hiya. Welcome back, I hope we help and that your safe. What was your old name? Sorry stuffs made you feel like you needed to return, but we also like people who've recovered, or are recovering or have relapsed, or feel as though they are about to relapse. Or even those seeking ideas to help loved ones. Or those not necessarily ready to recover.
Sorry if I am a bit... Ok I need to stop typing.
Buttttt.... I'm an oldie too and I returnEd. It's helping. Better being here than considering ways to hurt myself when I'm still awake at two am. Or four am. Or whenever. Even if I just lurk and not post.
Ok. That's enough now.

raining_inmyhead 11-11-2015 09:11 PM

Cant. Hides.

Eir 12-11-2015 02:10 PM

*hugs raining*
Do you want me to guard you from what youre hiding from? I'll try.

raining_inmyhead 17-11-2015 03:55 PM

Please... thank you... I messed up... hello guilt, hello panic... oopsie

Margo 17-11-2015 06:50 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by raining_inmyhead (Post 3972142)
Please... thank you... I messed up... hello guilt, hello panic... oopsie

*pokes you in the eye and bites hard* 😬

raining_inmyhead 17-11-2015 10:28 PM

Thank you... sorry... I'm a muppet :-p *hangs about*

Eir 18-11-2015 01:39 PM

*squidges raining*

Eir 18-11-2015 01:40 PM

*pokes Matthew*

Eir 18-11-2015 01:52 PM

Make it stop makeit stop makeitstop makeitstopmakeitstop....
Round and round and it's gotta stop pleasepleaseplease!!!

Devil Girl 19-11-2015 09:58 PM

*Comes in and hides under blankets* Just wanting to be around people.

Staticx_xSilence 20-11-2015 05:09 AM

*sneaks in and hides in corner* I have been gone from ryl for quite awhile and finally went to the doctor about my depression and anxiety attacks and am now on meds but downside is after almost a year with no slips I have recently started self harming again and I don't know why. It's like as soon as the meds started helping the depression and anxiety I fell back to self harming which makes no sense. My mind hates me I am sure of it. I shall just hide in here until life makes sense again.

raining_inmyhead 20-11-2015 04:43 PM

*makes tea for everyone* *hides in the corner*

Eir 24-11-2015 12:43 PM

*lurks* sadangryuselessashamedhidingflat

Devil Girl 24-11-2015 06:09 PM

*cuddles everyone*

*Pulls covers over head*

Eir 25-11-2015 01:11 PM

Really bad today.
So close to breaking point.
I want off the roller-coaster.

Devil Girl 25-11-2015 02:56 PM

^ take everything one minute at a time. Maybe work on distractions, when things are bad distractions are the only thing to suggest.

Eir 26-11-2015 02:07 PM

I get distracted from my distractions right now.
It's not a roller-coaster. You can see where that's going. This is more like freestyle yoho diablo. By an un-co person like me. Lots of crashing to the ground...
Can't see straight. Bye. More tomorrow

midnite 01-12-2015 03:34 AM

Gently hugs everyone and offers hot drinks with marshmallows and cookies.

Eir 10-12-2015 10:29 AM

So over it. Wanna cry. Wanna crawl under a rock and never leave. So over it. Another day like this and I'll do it.

xxjuliexx 25-12-2015 01:18 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Eir (Post 3982920)
So over it. Wanna cry. Wanna crawl under a rock and never leave. So over it. Another day like this and I'll do it.

*plops down near you* hello. i'm feeling a little like laying on the floor and crying myself. can i join you?

if you like we can hold hands, hug, lay in silence, finger paint.....

xxjuliexx 26-12-2015 01:44 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Kahlia1981 (Post 3965264)
Hello all.


Mood dropping rapidly. Both my husband and I are screwed up right now. Our hot water system died giving us a massive electricity bill and we can't pay our normal, weekly bills. The price of everything goes up but our pay doesn't....

Depression, switching, voices, and the list keeps going and they keep getting worse. I just want to die. To finally be in peace.

*disappears into her pillow fort*

*goes over and sits outside the fort*
hi kahlia.


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