*hugs Mark and Nicole* Howa re you both?

*hugs helen* I'm not good :( I Hate the christmassy atmosphere, my mum has christmas music on really loud and is putting the tree up and making mince pies. It's really triggering me. You?

Why is it triggering you honey? *hugs*

*hugs helen* It's just making me think about my plans. I mean, I know I don't wanna do it anymore, but it's still on my mind, and i just want christmas to be over. :(

That sounds really difficult, Nicole. Can you get out of the house for a while?

I'm feeling okay thanks Helen . I would like to be less numb but I've not been anxious so far today even though I slip slideded all over the place on the local ice this morning . heh . I almost fell but didn't :)

*hugs mark and linsay*
Lindsay-I might go for a walk, but i'm not sure, the christmassy mood is everywhere :( how are you today?
Mark-^^lol. sorry, that cheered me up :P

I've been slipping all over the ice, even hurt my baxck the other day, so can feel your pain on that one Mark *hugs*

Nicole, I'm sorry sweetheart. I have nothing useful to say to help :( But I care *hugs* Try to distract yourself?

I haven't fallen or almost fallen, yet. I'll say that and take one step outside and fall flat on my back! I don't know if I should try and get a bus into Glasgow to do some Christmas shopping. I'd only be able to spend 3 hours there before the last bus home. I don't know if it's worth it.

*Tries to work up the motivation to play the game he bought for his birthday a month ago for the first time but is daunted by learning new controls :S*

Edit:- sorry that doesn't even qualify as a problem , I just want motivation Darn it.

Don't force motivation Mark. It'll come to you when it's ready xx

Lindsay, lucky for some :p I've almost fallen plenty of times & have actually fell once.

I fell last tuesday when we had that tiny bit of snow, it hurt.

I bet it did!! *hugs*

Uhuh, and my mum stood and laughed at me :/ lol. *hugs*

That's not nice *hugs* Although my mum would have probably laughed at me too, but not in a horrible way...

lol. I don't think she was laughing in a nasty way.....i mean, i must've looked funny, i fell right on my ass XD

Just realised Kahlia hasn't been on RYL since last Friday (26th), really hope she's okay =/

I might see if I can get hold of her through facebook and/or msn hmmmm.

Bless you honey *hugs*

*hugs* I'm trying to make a healthy eating plan for my diet, and i have no idea what to have for dinner later. :/

Hmmm *worries about Kahlia*

Erp Nicole , You coukd have a stew , Thats warming and has lots of vegetables in it ?

lol mark. absolutley no veg in the house :/ used it all for the cauliflour cheese (with every other vegetable possible) on wednesday :/ I suppose i should look in the fridge and see what we have got.

Lol, I've managed not to fall over yet XD

I really hate myself sometimes. Well, 99% of the time actually, but ya noooo. Last night, I was having a fight with my best friend over msn, and she said 'do you know how hard it is to stand by someone when you know they wouldn't care if they just walked away?' and instead of telling her I would care, like I should have done, I told her to just go if that's what she wanted. I said it shouldn't be too hard for her, she's even had practise.

So there I was to her acting like a hard faced bitch, I was talking to my other friend about it and told her it was almost laughable because we'd had the same fight loads of times before, and I came on here and vented my self hatred. And inside, I was scared that it really would be the end, that she'd decide she'd had enough. 4 different reactions. Why can't I just tell people how I really feel? What is it with me that I have to shut everyone out? One day, they really are all going to just leave me and it will be all my fault because I'm the one that pushes people out. Grrr.

/Rant.

*Hugs Lia*

I have decided I am having half a tin of tomato soup with a slice of bread :)

Hmm Could you have fruit afters Nicole ? Is the tin a big tin?

*hugs lia*

I didn't have a late night and I wasn't up early but I am tired :S If I try to nap now will I sleep later ? choices choices . erp .

Well I attempted Napping but hardly slept and kept looking at the clock every 10 minutes hmmm :S

*hugs mark* maybe thats a good thing you might sleep well tonight.

Hope so Nicole :)*Hugs* How are you feeling now? The Postie hasn't come today (so far) , Too Icy I reckon

*hugs mark* I'm ok, just trying to decide wether its too early to eat dinner yet :/ yesterday really scared me and i kinda wanna just get dinner over with and forget about it for the rest of the day. you?

I'm feeling okay , numb still but that's hardly even worth mentioning it's so common these days , I've put my heating on just now , I got out from my blankets and realised it's cold now the sun is going in :S

Lol. Its already pitch black outside here. No sun left. And I am in bed cause its warm lol.

Yeah it's dark here too , I'd get in bed but that means I'd have to unplug my Desk top P.C., Plug it in to my bedroom , balance the monitor on my feet , balance the keboard on my knees and put a book or something down beside me to run my mouse on heh :P

lol mark, that coul be interesting XD i have a tiny little netbook :P

I hate the dark, it's miserable.

*Hugs Lindsay* *Lights candles to keep the dark away from Lindsay*

*hugs linsay*
I'm quite strange, i'm scared of the dark, and yet i love night time. :/ heh.

*Hugs ward* I love that you guys are talking about dinner, and evening, and dark.

And it's only half past noon where I live and I just got up. haha.

*Hugs Felicia*

How are you, Felicia?

*hugs felicia* lol, I have eaten dinner, had a bath and go in my PJs. XD its only 6.30pm.

Oh I just bought some Green Tinsel to wrap around my lights from ebay , heh . I'm finding it so hard to get into the festive spirit but I'm trying . Christmas seems more of a hassle what with the buying and wrapping (Eugh) of gifts and all . I'm not excited hmmm.

Nicole, I wish I was as well prepared as you! I hate getting washed, it takes so much effort but of course I do it anyway.

Mark, don't try and force yourself to feel Christmasy, maybe it will come with time. *hugs*

*Hugs Lindsay* I bet you're right . I Hate washing too but still somehow force myself to do it.

lol lindsay-organised? me? never. I am the least organised person in the world XD i just spend half my life in the bath, its so relaxing!!
Hmm, i'm thinking about what college course i wanna do next year, and what college i wanna go to. :/

Heh Nicole , you just gee'ed me into having a bath and getting into my PJ bottoms and my Green Hoodie , :P

lol mark.
Anyone got ay suggestions for a good college?

I suppose I'm okayish, Lindsay. I'm struggling a lot. How are you?
Ahhh, Nicole, I haven't even gotten out of my PJs. I will eventually, but I'm not going anywhere, so meh...
*Hugs Mark* The Christmas spirit will come, darling. Don't force it.

I finished my hugeee project that was slowly causing me to go insane. WHOOO! Oh, and I just have one week of uni classes, and then finals left. EXCITING. Now, I really really have to get the rest of my papers done! Eep!

Way to go on finishing your project Felicia :)!!! *Wishes you luck with your other papers*