*walks over to Julie and Mark* What are you colouring?

a teddy bear

Thxs, just having a **** day, that's all

*waves to Jetforce*

*Hugs Jetforce*

I spy a Mark!! *curls up in her usual spot next to him, trying to stay warm* It's FREEZING here again, heat's still off, and I am soo cold. :( And I am a failure... my GPA dropped from a 3.805/4.0 to a 3.731 and my term GPA was a 3.2. I have NEVER done that badly. EVER. :'( EPIC FAIL. FULL OF FAIL.

:crying:

*Hugs April with extra warm Hugs* and you are NOT a fail , you did better than most people could ever do , you should be proud of yourself ! You had many challenges but you overcame them and completed Uni , very few people do that.

*cuddles up with a blanket next to Mark and enjoys his warmth-giving hugs* Am bundled up as is... grrrr... stupid heat. And I don't see how you can say that I'm not a fail... I mean, I kind of can... but I don't want to use my mental illness(es) as an excuse to do poorly in uni. :'(

Oh, and just sent you an email. :)

*hides*

*sits outta the way and waits*

I gonna go for a walk to try and wake up properly , back in a bit :)

UGH . Just had an anxiety attack in Aldi's (Supermarket) . It got crowded around me and I had to leave the queue and go outside for air :( I've taken a Diaz so hopefully I'll be calm when my housing support worker visits in 20 minutes * Bites lip anxiously*

Hi Julie :) It's ok I just need to clear my head , need hugs ,(Feel kinda pathetic flat out asking for them though)

mark asking for them wen u need them is a good thing ok and
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i wish they looked better and more personal and less mass produced but for now in cybery space it's the best i can do sorry

Awww *Hugs Julie Back* Thankyou for all the hugs :) They mean a lot

so watcha doing? i should probably try sleep soon

I'm eating and waiting for my houseing support worker to show , he is 25 mins late hmmmm

*uses invisiblity powers to eat mark's food*

OH! Where did my food go !?

*still invisible giggles*

*curls up* must sleep now

Sweet dreams Julie :)

it's nearly midnight lol

*hugs marks heaps*

*Huggles Julie*

thxs *waves bk and leaves some hugs for julie, mark and whoever else is on*

I want to die so badly, I can't cope with life any more. I have a set day and plan and nothing is going to change my mind. My OT and support worker know but they don't really know what to do. I can't wait any longer. :crying:

*sends Mark cuddles wherever he is right now* I hope they help... they are of the extra-special encouraging variety. :) I'm sorry that you got so anxious... :( that makes me sad, I wish I could help you more. Anxiety is awful... I'm learning to control mine but it's still not easy AT ALL to cope with it. I wish I could be there for a proper support... maybe someday we'll meet. :)

*sends encouraging cuddles out to JK and Hels since they seemed to need them the last time they posted* Once again, am sorry it's not more... :(

I'm doing meh. Played WoW for awhile this morning, that's where I disappeared to, and got my pally to level 74, yey!! Spent 54 gold (in game of course, lol) on training... gotta love the high level stuff!! lol. :-/ I can't wait til she's at 80... our guildies are so helpful, they'll help her get geared etc. So that will be good... :)

The heat's STILL broken and our hot water heater was making funny "whoomping" noises... not good... ugh. Sometimes I wish we lived elsewhere but that's not a possibility at this point in time. Oh well. At least we're allowed to have pets, and at least we've enough room for everything we have.

I'm going to get my hair cut today; it's going to be the short version. I'm a wee bit nervous about that!!! as I've never had hair that short, but as I said before, it's unruly and long right now and ugly too... so hopefully getting it cut shorter will make me look prettier... hey, at least I can hope, right?! :'(

*hides in shame*

Lindsay, hon, life WILL get better... it just takes time... please don't kill yourself. We would miss you so much and so would people IRL. :( *cuddles if that's okay?*

*Hugs Lindsay* Please please don't , times WILL get better , like April said it just takes time . Please tell someone , your support worker maybe does they know you have a date set ? Maybe then they could take this more seriously *Comforting Hugs if Ok*

April *Hugs* I think that shorter haircut will totally suit you :).

*cuddles everyone*

Don't do anything Lindsay. :( Nor you April.

I actual could cry for hours. Worried deathly sick about both of my best friends. Need to hear from the other one to stop worrying, or for it to calm down. Worried about another friend. Let alone deal with my own stuff :(

I spy a Hels and a Mark!! :D

I feel like ****. I really do.

:'(

Could I be held? *feels stupid for asking*

*hides in shame* :'(

updated r/v thread................... pathetic stupid sorry bitch that i am.

:crying:

*Hugs Helen* I sorry you're so worried about your friends , could you call them ? Sorry if thats a stupid question :s

*SUPER HUGS April* Just to let you know I read your R/V thread

*hugs and holds April super tight* Will read your R/V thread in a bit.

Mark, I could call them. Well no point in phoning one, because she's ill & I know she's safe to an extent. We're texting :) The other two I have texted, going to wait a while before attempting to ring...

*holds and cuddles April* If it makes you feel better you finished uni and I'm still working on an extended first semester of distance learning and I got a 50% on the test for one of my Intro Law classes after having an attorney explain it to me (he was wrong on a couple of the explanations which kinda worries me though) and had to retest it. I got a 95% on the retest but only 70% counts towards my grade because it was a retest. I now have an 88% as my average.
You finished all of uni in a campus based course workup with an A average. You are not stupid just struggling.

*cuddles Hels, Crimson, & Mark back* Thanks guys... sorry I'm so pathetic. :(

I got my hair cut and I love it!! I am at my parents' right now and so can't upload photos but will as soon as I can. It's super cute; I can't believe that I'm saying that, lol.

I'm too warm right now... ugh... I'm cooling down some as it's not too warm in my parents' house with just a tshirt and jeans on but my face still feels really warm. Ugh. :( I hate feeling like this. I'm blaming it on the anxiety; I'm very anxious at the moment and I HATE IT!!!!! :'(

*sends more cuddles out for JK, Hayley, Nicole, Julie, Oliver, Laura, and everyone else that I'm forgetting* :)

You're not pathetic. Dammmm anxiety indeed & can't wait to see pics. Glad you love your hair cut :)

Oh & incase anyone's interested, I heard from the other two people I was worried about....

That's great that you love your new style April :) *Awaits Pictures*

Yey Helen , that must be a weight off your mind :)

This^^

Sorry feeling uber lethargic n lazy right now.

Not really Mark. But it does mean the worry is less...which helps.

Managed to speak to my GP at 2pm today. He wants me back in hospital and i'm not keen on the idea. He only gave me 30 Solpadol (painkillers) because he doesn't trust me. >.< One of my closest friends (who i met when i was last on the ward a few months back) is still in there as she got sectioned for 6 months a few months back, so it's not as if i wouldn't know anyone..but i highly doubt they have beds (they never do) and i'm not going to a hospital which is far away. Waiting for a phonecall from my OT (Occupational Therapist) tomorrow - but she's a bit of a prat so i doubt things will be sorted out.

*Le Sigh* Another AWFUL night ahead.

hugs April* I'm so glad you love your haircut hun, I knew you'd look awesome with short hair, can't wait to see the pics ;)

*hugs Mark, Laura, Helen, Kahlia, Crimson, Hayley, Nicole, Julie & Lindsay* Hope you're all doing ok today/tonight. Thinking of you all x

*hugs Ally,thanks for the surprise hug you left* I'm JK, nice to meet you

*waves shyly at Noones Fool & Shadowedsoul*

*wonders where Oliver is and leaves him a pile of hugs*

I'm not too bad, a bit of SI in my life at the moment, but nothing major so I'm happy enough with that. Very busy at work, I ate breakfast, lunch and dinner at my desk yesterday! Off to Fiji next week for 5 days for work, which will be hard work but also nice to be in the Islands. *sighs*

Anyway, will check up on you all a bit later.

Be safe and may your all find at least one small thing to smile about today
JK
x

warns anyone who is allergic to cats, then brings a box of kittens in to play/cuddle

awwww *wants to keep kittens*

teehee. please take them. there are 8 in all. and theyre so misheivous! but i want to keep them all and my mum wont let me even have one! lol