Of course it's ok honey :) I'm Katie *strokes* I know it's scary they've taken your tablets, but it's probably a good thing, they just don't want you to hurt yourself *builds blanket and pillow fort and invites everyone in for chocolate cake and safe place to hide* xxx

Hi Katie *curls up inside fort next to Katie and Annie* I just want it all to stop. I only rang the crisis team a few hours ago but I feel like I need to again, I dont want to bother them :( xxx

I'm scared of what they might say, scared they'll admit me xx

I know it's a scary thought honey, but they would only admit you if they seriously thought you needed it. Maybe it's what you need right now. It doesn't make you weak or stupid to not be able to cope sweetheart *cuddles* xxx

*curls up on Katie* I can't do it, I need to ring them, the urge to hurt is getting to strong, but I can't xxx

Magic hiding fort? I like the sound of that Katie lol. Can I hide in there too for now? Just being overwhelmed with everything and really need a break from it all...

*hugs sleepyxhead13* Its always much easier to talk it out then to hold it all up inside... i have been there before and even though its scary, once you start talking it gets easier :)

*hugs (matt?)* I'm just scared that if I let people know how bad I'm really feeling something bad will happen

Yes, matt is my name :) *huggles* I have been in that exact same boat before and am in the same boat now actually. I can be quite stubborn and want to take care of things myself. It helps to tell someone what's going on, because it makes it easier on you. I understand your fears, I was the same way before and has to get an eval, but nothing bad happened. By keeping it all inside, it just makes it worse for you and harder to open up.

What bad thing do you think will happen if you let someone know?

*hugs Matt* the hiding fort is amazing, I'm spending all day here, because the real world sucks. And I have a hangover :( So I'm hiding. And not getting out of my pyjamas.

*cuddles nataleigh* What do you think's gonna happen sweetie?

*cuddles Annie* Come into the hiding fort!!

(Matt and Katie) I scared they'll admit me if they know how bad Im feeling they'll admit me. This morning my crisis team rang an ambulance and the police and paramedics turned up at my door :'( *hides*

attempting to tidy my room as this is one of the reasons im not getting anything done due to the fact its making me stressed, dyed my hair today and now it looks nice, got told i could take my laptop tomorrow so yay (: still stressed as to whats going to happen tomorrow but i guess i'll just have to fight through and see what goes on.

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sleepy - since I'm not sure how your name is spelled, is it ok if I call you Nat? I know this is scary sweetheart. I know. But maybe being admitted would be a good thing, if you feel so unsafe. *safe cuddles* If they think they need to do it, you're obviously not in a safe place right now. Honey, please PM me if you feel bad, ok? I want you to be safe, and since I can't be with you, I need to know if you feel unsafe, ok? xxx

*cuddles Annie* I'm sorry you're so stressed. I wish I had better advice. Please try and stay safe. PM me if you want to talk, ok honey? You don't deserve to feel bad, and if I can help I will. xxx

It's two o'clock in the morning. I... Crap. I just want to not feel anymore.

Another trip to A&E, a new record number of stitches - ****ing perfect. Hope everyone else is doing better than me.

sorry you strugglin katie :(

i cut last night :/ not deep but...
2 months down the tube :/
but was only way to ground...
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