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Mors Certa 21-04-2011 03:11 AM

Ok, so, it has been a stressful couple days, but somehow I have survived with minimal damage. Wish I could say I was SI free, but I can't lie. Looks like lots of activities going on for everyone, please stay safe.

Leaves a tray of cookies and heads to corner to hide.

Doikers 21-04-2011 09:08 AM

*Hugs Oliver*
*Hugs Crimson*
*Hugs Ian*
*Hugs Angel* I hope you're safe hun :)
*Hugs Mors Certa*

Thankyou to everyone for being so kind :)

Kahlia1981 21-04-2011 01:20 PM

Hello all. I'm apologising in advance for not doing everyone in individuals as I'm still not that good myself.

Quote:

Originally Posted by frenchhorn (Post 2777022)
*hugs all*

great so i was honest with the different GP I saw today and she has got really worried and has made me an appt with a psych on friday, I guess I can see why cos I told her I was going to OD on monday no matter what, but now I have to convince the psych I'm not going to cos I dont want to get kept in hospital cos I'm going out with my friend friday afternoon to something she has had booked for ages, then sunday I'm moving. I hate this, I tell the truth and then I have to lie cos I can't let other people down.

Oliver - I had almost this exact same experience last year. They put me in with a new doctor and she freaked out and overreacted (yes I was extremely depressed and suicidal and only gave her the facts). This doctor immediately ordered me to go to the hospital. If that wasn't enough (could have been ignored) she fought with the director of the practice to get me an ambulance!!! Not that the psych ward here did anything much, but I do have some understanding of the situation. Whatever you reply, I hope that you get what you need.

Quote:

Originally Posted by Doikers (Post 2777231)
She just doesn't feel the same way I do , she Likes me as a friend , I am besotted with her. Not her fault , I'm ugly inside and out and totally unlovable. I need to sleep.

Okay, I know that I'm seconding the opinion of many others but Mark, you are definitely not ugly inside. Being "ugly inside" can be said to also refer to your personality. You have shown compassion to many of us in here and you are trying to improve your situation. You are not an ugly person. I'm not going to start on "unlovable" because I'll end up quoting my mother and my fiance and they might someday find out I actually listened. :tongue2:

Crimson: 1) I hope you manage to find a new GP that is okay with your insurance, and 2) I hope you can find a new job easily that severely reduces your stress! You've been fighting for so long with the housing situation and work especially. I am really hoping that you can finally get some relief. Really seriously crossing my fingers for you hun.

We are moving. We got approved for a place $20 a week cheaper and it has just been renovated to boot! We take possession on the 5th of May and are trying to find people to help us move (given that my R shoulder has nerves that are damaged and keeps cutting out my R hand).

I got a phone call from the psych ward (which really freaked me out to be honest) saying that my psychiatrist had organised scripts for two of my meds I wouldn't otherwise have been able to afford. We had to catch the bus to the hospital and wait about an hour before they were ready but $11.20 per month versus $200 per month. Whatever currency you use that is so much better.

It looks like things might be finally looking up for us, but I would not like to say that too loud at the moment! Really missing you all and very sorry that I've been pretty distant since I got home from hospital. :-)

Doikers 21-04-2011 01:28 PM

Yay Kahlia Hun , *Very quietly whispers that I'm happy things are looking up for you* And Thanks Too :) *Hugs*

Louise 21-04-2011 02:27 PM

hugs everyone

Doikers 21-04-2011 02:37 PM

*Hugs Louise* How are you hun?

Louise 21-04-2011 02:40 PM

soso, How are you?

Doikers 21-04-2011 03:06 PM

Numb from Lithium I think , It stops me being upset to much but it stops me being happy , *Dusts off my happy mask for the weekend*

shadowedsoul 21-04-2011 03:45 PM

hugs mark, i know this is a bit late, but i second what other people are saying. you are no way shape or from ugly inside. you are amazing, caring guy. who even when he is struggling still helps people. i think the world of you mark. you will find the right person mark. huggles

SoMuchMore 21-04-2011 04:18 PM

*hugs everyone*

Mark - I echo what everyone else has said. You are in no way ugly.

Sorry. That's all I can do right now. I have really not been myself the past few days. I need to SI.

Doikers 21-04-2011 04:55 PM

*Hugs Jill* Thanks Hun :)

*Hugs Laura* Thankyou too hun ,please stay safe .

PoisonedApple 21-04-2011 05:51 PM

Quote:

Crimson: 1) I hope you manage to find a new GP that is okay with your insurance, and 2) I hope you can find a new job easily that severely reduces your stress! You've been fighting for so long with the housing situation and work especially. I am really hoping that you can finally get some relief. Really seriously crossing my fingers for you hun.

We are moving. We got approved for a place $20 a week cheaper and it has just been renovated to boot! We take possession on the 5th of May and are trying to find people to help us move (given that my R shoulder has nerves that are damaged and keeps cutting out my R hand).

I got a phone call from the psych ward (which really freaked me out to be honest) saying that my psychiatrist had organised scripts for two of my meds I wouldn't otherwise have been able to afford. We had to catch the bus to the hospital and wait about an hour before they were ready but $11.20 per month versus $200 per month. Whatever currency you use that is so much better.
Thanks Kahlia. I think I found a doctor office that is decent and seems to take both insurances... Their hours are the same as my work hours though :( I suppose missing a couple hours of work for it is okay though. I have the leave time and at least they'll take my insurance.

Glad you found a more affordable snazzy new place and hope you can find someone to help out/ And I'm especially happy for you getting your meds in a way you can afford to be on them.*hugs*

*hugs Mors* We may all have stuff going on but we're all here if you wanna talk to us. *turns into ward mum* Now be sure to keep those wounds cleaned and cared for! *snags a white chocolate macadamia nut cookie*

*hugs Louise, Laura and Jill*

*hugs Mark* I got your PM and will reply properly a little later today (have to clean up my office and such from yesterday and don't have time right now) but I said to PM if you need so it is not dumping it on me. *extra hugs*

P.S.~ I may be a bit hyper later... I had already been drinking a soda and Kelley insisted (actually said she wouldn't leave me alone till I agreed) on getting me a coffee as a thank you for her file the other day... I finally gave in and told her what drink I'd like and she got me a 20 oz latte... seriously... 20 oz. Oy vey. But the Milano Chocolate is delicious.

one_step_closer 21-04-2011 06:00 PM

*waves to everyone*

Doikers 21-04-2011 06:31 PM

*Hugs Crimson* Thanks Hun :)

*Hugs Lindsay* How are you hun?

frenchhorn 21-04-2011 08:00 PM

*hugs all* sorry I can't manage more, I have a horrible headache from the heat, but know I have lots of cuddles for you all

Doikers 21-04-2011 08:24 PM

*Hugs Oliver*

Laura2.0 21-04-2011 08:24 PM

*hugs Crimson*
*hugs Lindsay*
*hugs Mark*
*hugs Oliver* headaches suck, maybe take a nap?

My brother and stepbrother ate my pizza. We only have cereal left, and I already had that 3 nights for dinner in the last 2 weeks. It's too easy to develop and ED here. I'm already funny around food and everytime I'm actually hungry and in the mood of eating there's nothing left. My mom wants to send me to a nutritionist, but she's the one who keeps promising me that she'll safe food for me and then there's nothing left. wtf

PoisonedApple 21-04-2011 09:06 PM

*hugs Lindsay, Oliver, Mark, Laura*

Doikers 21-04-2011 09:41 PM

*Hugs My Wardies*
I'll respond tomorow Crimson

PoisonedApple 21-04-2011 09:44 PM

*hugs Mark good night*

Emo 21-04-2011 10:06 PM

Not safe... scared :crying: no hugs please

PoisonedApple 21-04-2011 11:26 PM

*offers Angel a plushie to cuddle and sits near by*

Emo 22-04-2011 01:11 AM

Thank you ... my husband called the crisis team..took an extra med ...i give it an hour if it don't work i have to call and make an appointment with them.
Good Friday is hard ...because of abuse in the past ...No hugs please

Doikers 22-04-2011 10:32 AM

*Hugs Crimson*
*Waves to Angel*

Doikers 22-04-2011 11:23 AM

How are you guys this Morning?

Mors Certa 22-04-2011 02:16 PM

Today is starting out okay, I guess, would rather be in bed with covers pulled over my head, but I have to work through my time left so that I can get a final paycheck. Urges have subsided for the moment, but the day is still young (only 8:15am here) Hope that others in here are doing ok as well.

***returns to corner to hide from the day***

one_step_closer 22-04-2011 03:07 PM

I'm so depressed and itchy. I can't stand to be alive any more.

Doikers 22-04-2011 03:50 PM

*Hugs Mors Certa*

*Hugs Lindsay*

Mors Certa 22-04-2011 05:18 PM

Okay, the day is officially going downhill, I am now hiding at my desk with my headphones in, trying to drown out the sound of my heart pounding out of my chest. Gotta love anxiety attacks, thinking about hiding in the bathroom for a while to try and get away from this feeling. I know that I can make this go away, but I really fight to avoid SI while I am at work, hard enough to hide the evidence of what I do away from the office.

PoisonedApple 22-04-2011 09:43 PM

*lays on the floor in corpse pose* Vinyasa yoga is way more leg intensive than what I'm used to... I could only do 21 minutes out of a 36 minute sequence... Then my knees protesting reached critical mass... I do feel good about doing it though. It's been forever since I did yoga.

How is everyone? *hugs all my wardies*

PoisonedApple 23-04-2011 12:09 AM

Hmmmm... Quiet day.
*hugs all*
Have a good day/ weekend/holiday everyone! I'll see you all Monday!

Doikers 23-04-2011 10:22 AM

*Hugs Crimson*

*Spots and Hugs Kahlia*

So I'm off to my folks this afternoon so am sorry if my usage gets sporadic :S I can't sleep there and my digestion gets thrown out of wack *Sigh*

one_step_closer 23-04-2011 11:39 AM

Hope your visit is bearable, Mark.

I'm going to see my brother in Edinburgh today. It's going to involve a lot of travel to different train stations, I hope I don't get lost.

Doikers 23-04-2011 11:47 AM

Good Luck Lindsay Hun and have a good time :) *Hugs*

Kahlia1981 23-04-2011 02:56 PM

*huggles anyone who needs/wants them*

Had another jam-packed day today. We helped my fiance's parents with packing and taking two loads of green waste to the dump and finally managed to do our groceries. Then I found out that a friend of mine, a director of a lot of shows in the theatre, passed away last night from a stroke. And I found out that I could do my IT course through Monash, a university I have done two subjects with and found exceptional.

Life just never seems to stand still.

Louise 23-04-2011 04:03 PM

hugs everyone

Doikers 23-04-2011 04:17 PM

*Hugs Louise* How are you hun?

frenchhorn 23-04-2011 08:42 PM

*hugs to those who want hugs* *waves to others*

I hope the time at your parents was bearable Mark.

I'm moving into my new flat tomorrow, I'm excited and nervous, but then Monday I have the crisis team coming round :( not sure how I feel about that, cos they will stop me going through with my plan and I want to go through with my plan, I need to be dead.

ljmeep 23-04-2011 08:58 PM

all i have to say right now is love sucks! I really don't even know why I keep trying if all hubby's ever gonna do is let me down... *curls into ball and cries*

Doikers 23-04-2011 09:12 PM

*Hugs Oliver* I hope your move go's smoothly :)

*Hugs Kelly Tons*

frenchhorn 23-04-2011 09:14 PM

*huggles Kelly* I'm sorry things are difficult.

*hugs Mark* thank you. how are you?

SoMuchMore 23-04-2011 09:15 PM

*hugs everyone*

frenchhorn 23-04-2011 09:33 PM

*hugs Laura* how are you?

YodaBearInterrupted 23-04-2011 09:50 PM

*hugs everyone and leaves some treats on the table*

Doikers 23-04-2011 09:50 PM

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs YodaBear*

I'm low and suicidal(ish) but having such fun skyping with Felicia :) :(

frenchhorn 23-04-2011 09:51 PM

*hugs matt and grabs some treats*

frenchhorn 23-04-2011 09:53 PM

*hugs Mark* please stay safe and ooo that sounds fun :)

YodaBearInterrupted 23-04-2011 10:02 PM

*hugs Mark* stay safe and have some treats :)

frenchhorn 23-04-2011 10:06 PM

*hugs matt* how are you?

YodaBearInterrupted 23-04-2011 10:14 PM

I am doing okay I guess... kinda sorta upset and tbh a bit wishing to do something that I shouldn't do...


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