*Night (Nearly morning) to my wardies*
*Hugs ya'll*

I'm ok i guess Mark. Night Mark, take care.

*huggles all*

Talked to my housemate last night about the almost suicide attempt. Didn't tell him *what* I almost did though but he realised things were a bit more serious even than what he had before. Talked also about the psychiatrist appointment. My psych doctor will be researching quite a bit before the next time I see him (3 weeks time) in order to look at different alternatives. The only worry is that if I lose the ability to get my drug through the hospital I won't be able to afford it (it cost over $150 for 30 days supply) even in the short-term. :/ Makes me a little uneasy.

Oh im so sorry Kahlia :( *Hugs Kahlia* I cant imagine what your going through. I'm so sorry. I know we have never spoken but your a valuable member here and you would be missed if anything happened to you. Please keep safe. I'm thinking of you.

*sneaks in and hides*

*Hugs Poisoned apple* I'm sorry your feeling this way. Do you have anyone close to you who can talk to? Do you have any support? *Sits with you* Dont give up stay strong. We are here for you.

*hugs Crimson and offers tissues* Sorry, no words I'm afraid. :-(

*hugs Ian* Thanks. :-)

thanks Ian, Kahlia. *cuddles you*
Even if I did have someone it'd be useless since I don't know why I feel this way so I'd have nothing to say... :(

*sigh* I have to go home... Maybe tomorrow will be a new day, mayhaps better...

I don't know if I've ever posted in here. For the first time tonight I'm genuinely scared. I'm probably just tired and I don't know what you can and can't post but hi.

Hi Gill, Welcome to the ward! What do you want to say?

*Hugs Ian*
*Hugs Kahlia* I hope you can still get your meds through the hospital . Well done on telling your house mate :)
*Hugs Crimson* I'm sorry you feel so rotten hun :(
*Hugs Pointless if okay*
*Hugs Solo* Is the dog in your picture your dog?

~Hugs Mark~ Yea, that's my dog Zeena when she was a puppy. Isn't she adorable?! How ya doin today?

Why must I wake up to yet another day? I can't take this any more.

I'm sorry you're feeling overwhelmed Lindsay! Today doesn't have to be like yesterday sweetie.

*Hugs Solo * She is a cool looking dog yep :)

*Hugs Lindsay* I'm sorry you feel crap again but Solo said it ,Today doesn't have to be like yesterday.

*Spots and hugs Sarah*

*cuddles Solo* How you feeling today?

*cuddles Lindsay* Solo is right, today is another day, it doesn't have to be like yesterday at all hun.

*Cuddles Mark* how you doing today?

*waves to Pointless* what is it you want to say?

*cuddles Crimson* sorry you feel so bad hun. we're all here for you

*cuddles Kahlia* I really hope you can still get it through the hospital. I don't like the US system at all :( well done on telling your roommate, that took some courage

*hugs Ian* how you doing?

*hugs Matt* Hi I'm Sarah :)

*cuddles Nicole* Thats something to focus on, hopefully it won't be as bad as you fear hun

*Hugs Sarah* I'm low today , how are you hun?

Pretty much the same. Panicy and paranoid mostly. Worried about the doctors tomorrow, I don't know what they're going to do. Just glad its real early in the morning so I don't have too long to worry myself about it. Bleh. Still awaiting the username change too lol. Should be through tomorrow if its like last time. Just want to remove all trackable traces of me off the net lol

Good luck with you Dr's Sarah . *Hugs*

Thanks Mark *cuddles* I'm concerned they're going to send me straight away for one.

~Hugs Mark~I'm sorry you're low today. I want you to have a good day!

~Cuddles Sarah~Don't know how you feel about it, but I'll pray for you about your Dr. Appt. tomorrow and for you to not be anxious about it until then.

Thanks Solo. Thats really sweet *cuddles*

Good luck, Sarah.

I eriously can't take much more of this. I'm so close to the edge and I have no idea what to do.

You're welcome! I forgot to answer you about how I'm doin. I'm exhausted n besides that...I don't even know. Thanks for askin.

Don't let go Lindsay!

You can do it Lindsay! <3

*hugs Solo* I hope you're alright, be sure to try to get plenty of rest hun

I can't hold on. I need out of here and the only thing stopping me is my brother. I need to find a way to prepare him for my death. If I said I was going to die in X number of months then we could prepare for that together.

Thanks Sarah! Don't know how much rest I'll get. I gotta go to work now. I'll try to keep up from work if I can.

Lindsay hun, I'm not sure what to say to you right now. No time to think, cause I'm gettin ready to run out the door for work, but I'm prayin for you hun.

*Hugs Lindsay Tight*

*Hugs Solo*

*Hugs Sarah*

Back from group , I had to take off in the break as there were 9 service users and 1 Dr in a small room and my anxiety SHOT up!!!!!!!!!!! I've taken a diaz, And am running a bath I hope it kicks in soon (The Diaz). :(

*cuddles Mark* sorry you're so anxious x

*snuggles Lindsay* we'd all miss you, everyone would hun. :(

Hi, wardies... *hugs all around*

how is everyone today?

Hey Sis, long time no see! How's it goin?

Hey Kelly *hugs* how you doing hun?

I'm alright I suppose, just stressed and paranoid and a little scared all at the same time. Got a doctors appointment tomorrow

*hugs Solo*

Ciao, ciao *waves* how's everyone doing? *plops down on the floor*

*Hugs Ileana* How are you?

*Hugs Sarah*

*Hugs Kelly*

*Hugs Solo*

Holdin on Ileana. How are you?

*hugs everyone back*

I'm doing ok... past few days have been a-maz-ing! but I'm having a kinda down day. Hubby's out shoveling snow trying to dig up some extra $ ... so it's just me and the kids...

how u doin, sis?

*cuddles ward*

I gotta go to class, then work, but I'm thinking of you all <3

cuddles everybody

Hugs Sarah, Mark & Kelly! Hubby shouldn't have any trouble findin shoveling jobs. That's a good thing! I'm sooo happy for you! I'm holdin on.:(

I'm Urgy , Craving Alcohol so very much I could just run out and buy some but I am trying so hard not too :S My anxiety is a bit better though .

*Hugs Jill*

*Hugs Felicia*

~Hugs Mark~ Sorry, I didn't mean to leave ya out Hun. We were typin at the same time. Try to wait it out. The anxiety is decreasing so you won't feel that you need it.

*hugs sis and mark*

hold in there, sis... sorry you're strugglin today.. me too seems... I haven't SIed in 7 days (8 if I make it through today), but I have the itch so bad... :/

Aww, mark... so sorry you want the alcohol... o.O I went through a few days like that myself and I'm NOT a drinker so that was really off for me.

I keep missin folks. I'm on my iPod cause I'm at work. ~hugs Jill n Felicia!

hugs mark back. i know that feeling i really want to drink myself stuiped tonight. got enough drink in the house to do that.
try and stay safe hun. big bear hugs

~Kelly~ You're gonna make 8. I know these things. I'm itchin too girl!

*Hugs everyone*

Hey Crimson. How's it goin?