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nicole94 07-11-2010 09:34 PM

heh. ward is very quiet tonight. and what lia? lol

FlyingNy 07-11-2010 09:54 PM

You know when you load an internet browser? And there's a little icon at the top of your screen where it tells you what website you're on? The RYL one is a santa hat...or is my laptop just weird?

SoMuchMore 07-11-2010 10:24 PM

*cuddles everyone*

Mark - i know i wasn't around, but i am so glad that you made it through your birthday today. Good job!

Sorry everyone, I haven't been in town the past few days so not been on a computer much.

*hugs lia, nicole, and louise* since they last posted on this page. *hugs everyone else*

I'll try to catch up later tonight, probably while all my UK friends are sleeping lol.

SparkleKitten 07-11-2010 10:39 PM

Hey guys, sorry I've not been about, been having some issues (ha) at home, well even more issues... So sorry for not being about, not much to say either. Sorry. *hugs* x

MammaMia 07-11-2010 10:41 PM

I need to calm down before I make myself sick. (Not purging or anything)


*hugs ward*

nicole94 07-11-2010 10:51 PM

*hugs ward* lia, i think its just your laptop XD
*i STILL cuddling helen tightly* what happend hun?

MammaMia 07-11-2010 11:19 PM

*hugs Nicole tightly still*

Someone posted a status on facebook about how people on benefits (well they meant those on jobseekers but it wasn't clear) should earn their right to get it like through volunteering and stuff.

I thought they were including all benefits, so I started sharing my opinion because I disagreed with it at that point, as people who genuinely can't work shouldn't have to earn their right to DLA etc in my opinion. Also a lot of people I feel will have already worked at some point in their life.

But she went ballistic and I apologised for getting it wrong and then it just got into personal attacks with her friends joining in :(

nicole94 07-11-2010 11:25 PM

*still hugs helen tightly* aaw hun, i'm sorry, sometimes facebook is more trouble than its worth :/
that was wrong of them to get into personal attacks, and wrong that her friend should get involved. if i was you i would block/report her. *hugs*
eurgh. i wish this ****ING feeling would go away :(

MammaMia 07-11-2010 11:29 PM

*hugs tightly still* Facebook sure is more trouble than its worth. Ironically there was about 2 more comments or so after I deleted her & now it's stopped. It was wrong to get into personal attacks. I know sometimes people don't like being disagreed with or misunderstood but there's no need to get personal. I've deleted her anyway, may end up blocking her & one or two others. *hugs* What feeling do you wish would go away sweetheart? Sorry if I keep going quiet, trying to do loads at once.

nicole94 07-11-2010 11:32 PM

*hugs tightly some more* well done for deleting her. some people are just so stupid. :(
i'm sorry, i really cant type it out again, it's in my R/V thread if you want to read it, if you dont it doesnt matter. (might be triggering though so be careful if you do decide to read it)

MammaMia 07-11-2010 11:35 PM

*hugs tightly some more* Thanks darling. I'll go read it now sweetheart & come back here to reply x

MammaMia 07-11-2010 11:37 PM

Nicole, firstly, I think you might need to remove the number of cuts as I think it's against the rules & I don't want you to get into trouble. Please get your cuts seen to if they need medical attention & look after them. Can you try stop cutting yourself? What's making you want to hurt yourself so much & why do you want to die now? Sorry for all the questions xx

nicole94 07-11-2010 11:44 PM

oh :/ i didnt think it was against the rules on R/V, just in the general forums :/ will remove it in a min. they dont need medical attention and i am looking after them, but i don't know whats going on :'( i just can't seem to stop, the urge just wont go away, nothings working anymore and its scaring me. i don't feel like i can stay safe for much longer, i mean, safe as in, alive. i dont know how i'm still triggerd after that much? its not working anymore! :'( *cries*

MammaMia 07-11-2010 11:48 PM

The rules affect all parts of RYL. Thought I should let you know. I know you wouldn't have meant to break it otherwise. It's okay to get confused about it. I'm glad they don't need medical attention. Do you think you could move the tool you're using to somewhere you can't reach or throw it away? You can keep yourself alive sweetheart. It's an incredibly massive battle sometimes & you don't know how to keep going. But you just have to keep breathing and seeking help and stuff. Sorry am useless with words tonight.

nicole94 07-11-2010 11:51 PM

*hugs* thanks hun, i changed it. i cant throw the tool away, i would just panick more :( i'm trying really hard but i just can't do this anymore.
its ok that you dont know what to say, i wouldnt either, i'm sorry for being so selfish and bringing it up when you were upset :( *hugs*

MammaMia 08-11-2010 12:13 AM

You're not being selfish. I'm glad you could share it with me. Don't worry about me, I've calmed down now, still calming down, but much calmer than I was. Please try not to hurt yourself anymore than you have done tonight. Give your body a chance to heal. Can you try that for me? *hugs tightly*

Kahlia1981 08-11-2010 02:12 AM

*huggles everybody*

I was on hold with the suicide crisis line for over 2 hours before I hung up last night ... I tried to watch a show that always makes me laugh and it didn't even raise a smile from me. I thought about waking my housemate up but decided he needed his sleep as he had to be up early this morning. I thought of ringing the other crisis line, but it gets transfered through to the hospital after 9pm which is useless. The only good thing that came out of it was that I finally gave my housemate the dangerous stuff for my suicide plan this morning because I realised how close I came.

It's a sad case when you need someone IRL to talk to and there is just no-one there ...

SoMuchMore 08-11-2010 06:31 AM

*cuddles kahlia* i mostly responded in your support thread, so i won't be repetitive, but thinking of you hun.

*hugs nicole tight* i'm sorry you had such a rough evening hun. You can get through this. Sorry I don't have much advice :-/ but keep talking to anyone/all of us on here, we will always listen.

*cuddles helen* good for you on deleting that person. Personal attacks are so unnecessary. Glad that you were able to calm down a bit afterwards. You know that those type of people are not worth it. (although understandably upsetting)

I feel majorly ugly tonight... inside and out.

nicole94 08-11-2010 09:00 AM

i really can't go to college today, i cant! :(

Doikers 08-11-2010 10:01 AM

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Nicole*

*Hugs Kahlia* Thats HUGE that you gave your suicide supplies to your house mate , Well done you :-)

Sorry for the scant post.

The Hospital ran at 10pm last night , my parents went to my Grandma . It's seeming that it's just a matter of time until she dies ( I hope that doesn't trigger , if so let me know and I'll edit) :( Hugs would be VERY appreciated

xxjuliexx 08-11-2010 10:40 AM

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Doikers 08-11-2010 11:49 AM

Thankyou very much Julie , all the colours !!!!!! *Hugs*
Thankyou for the PM too :)

Doikers 08-11-2010 12:50 PM

My Grandma Has Died .....................Sorry I needed to tell someone, I rang my friend and Now I'm telling you guys Sorry *Cry*

SoMuchMore 08-11-2010 04:11 PM

*hugs mark tight* i'm so sorry. remember we are here if you need anything.

one_step_closer 08-11-2010 05:25 PM

I'm so sorry, Mark. Please get in touch if you need to talk. *hugs*

Louise 08-11-2010 05:34 PM

*hugs mark* I'm so sorry for your loss, please do not hestate to contact me if you need to talk.

How are you Lindsay?

nicole94 08-11-2010 06:39 PM

*hugs mark* i'm so sorry hun, PM me any time.x
*hides* i can't do this anymore. i can't. :(

FlyingNy 08-11-2010 06:59 PM

*Hugs Mark* I'm so sorry. I don't really know what to say because everyone reacts differently. I can't even say it gets easier in time because I never really grieved properly for my Nanna, so I wouldn't know. But I suppose it does because I can remember her with a smile now. Most of the time.

*Hugs Nicole* You can do this, we're all here for you. What's wrong?


nicole94 08-11-2010 07:01 PM

*hugs lia* i can't i honestly can't. i'm just so damn suicidal. i dont think i can stay safe much longer :(

PoisonedApple 08-11-2010 07:15 PM

*hugs mark* *adds a happy belated birthday since I wasn't on during the weekend and didn't wanna not say it* I'm soo sorry about your gran. If you need someone to talk to I'm messaging you my email addy (I get my email all the time as its on my phone too so if I'm not on RYL I'll still get your message).
glad you gave your flatmate your things for your plan.

*huggles everyone* Sorry it isn't more but I just got caught up and I don't have time to say more right now.

FlyingNy 08-11-2010 07:16 PM

*Holds Nicole tightly so she can't do anything* Do you have any idea what triggered this?

Has anyone heard from Jill? She hasn't been on in a while.

Doikers 08-11-2010 07:25 PM

*Hugs Ward* Thankyou to everyone who have expressed their condolences . I super apprciate it .
I am at my Mum (Grandma was my Mums Mums) and Dads for the night. I may not be on the ward a lot tonight.
Some of you have sent me PM's , I am not up to reading them tonight, I'll do my best to read them tomorrow.

PoisonedApple 08-11-2010 07:28 PM

*hugs Mark super tight* Email if you need.
*hugs Nicole*
No I haven't seen Jill. Have you checked her profile to see when she was last on already?

SparkleKitten 08-11-2010 07:32 PM

*cuddles Mark* Sorry for your loss :( x

*cuddles ward* things are still bad here, luckily I see my counselor tomorrow. Need. And my new bag broke today, only had it 12h :( not happy. My fiance is repairing it though, he can sew, I can't.

MammaMia 08-11-2010 07:44 PM

Sorry to hear about your Gran Mark :( Least she can rest in peace now *offers hugs*

*hugs ward*

Doikers 08-11-2010 07:47 PM

*Gladly accepts Helens and everyone elses hugs*

risenfromperdition 08-11-2010 08:18 PM

*leaves hugs and a listening ear*

Doikers 08-11-2010 09:23 PM

*Hugs my wardies*
Tea , Taken my meds , Bed soon.

FlyingNy 08-11-2010 09:30 PM

*Hugs Heather* You alright?

Nicole, are you still around?

FlyingNy 08-11-2010 09:44 PM

One day, this self hatred is going to kill me.

misskitty112 08-11-2010 09:56 PM

*hugs Mark*
*hugs Lia*

I'm so tired. is it the end of the semester yet?

*curls up and sleeps*

PoisonedApple 08-11-2010 11:46 PM

*so nervous* I looked around at a couple houses last week and the week before and found one that just felt like home as soon as a walked in! I talked to the Realtor showing it to me, I'm approved to use a VA loan, I have my loan application in to get pre-approved so I can make an offer on the house and NOW I get all nervous. I need to calm my nerves before I get ill but I dunno what to do. Right now as far as the house goes all I can do is wait. GAH!
This house if anyone's curious... Hard wood floors, a decent yard, good size rooms... and that kitchen is love!
*looks around*
Hmm anyone around?

Cazki 08-11-2010 11:47 PM

*Tiptoes in* hey may i pop in for a while? Hows everyone?

PoisonedApple 08-11-2010 11:56 PM

*waves at Monsoon*
Of course you can check in for a bit! Most of us seem worse for the wear these days.. How are you?

Cazki 09-11-2010 12:00 AM

Thankyou :waving: feeling rubbish, how are you?

misskitty112 09-11-2010 12:32 AM

*hugs Monsoon*

Cazki 09-11-2010 12:41 AM

Thanks Kitty *Hugs kitty* how are you?

PoisonedApple 09-11-2010 12:49 AM

Eh... I'm nervous, and kinda hyper in a way... it's weird. It's like internally I'm going at a million miles a minute and externally everything just drags on...
*erm...forgot earlier... I'm Crimson.

How are you Felicia? *hugs*

Kahlia1981 09-11-2010 01:03 AM

*huggles all*

*waves at Monsoon* - Welcome to the ward. I'm Kahlia.

Mark: My condolonces, and many *hugs*.
Crimson: The house looks gorgeous. Can understand your nerves though. Here's some *hugs* and some *good luck wishes* - if you can work out what I mean because I can't find the words I want.

I'm struggling at the moment, but i'm still here. *sigh*

SoMuchMore 09-11-2010 01:08 AM

*huggles crimson* that house looks really nice! Hope you hear back soon! Maybe try a nice bath or a walk/exercise to sooth your nerves?

*hugs monsoon* of course you can come in here. Sorry that you are feeling so badly. I'm Laura. *offers some welcome cookies and treats*

*hugs felicia* how r u doing hun? Sorry uni is stressing you out so much. I can't wait for the end of the semester as well.

*hugs lia tight* Hang in there hun. Things will get better.

*hugs heather and helen* how r u two doing?

*hugs sarah* i'm glad your fiance is fixing the bag, its too bad that it broke so soon after getting it. Sorry things aren't going well right now. PM me if you want to talk hun.

*huggles kahlia* Here if you need to talk. I'm glad you are still here.

*offers more hugs to mark*

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