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Kahlia1981 08-09-2010 06:50 PM

Well I've started my assignment that's due next month ... busy looking up journal articles and so forth. Randomly singing to myself but not too loudly because I don't want to wake my housemate up as it's only early in the morning (I've already been up for a couple of hours). It's heading on towards 4am and I'm searching online uni library databases for journal/periodical articles. *sigh* I'm a freak.

Hels, Taz, Mark and everyone: I know suicide isn't the answer. I know it Can't Rain All the Time. I know things won't always be this bad. I just don't know if I should tell my pyschiatrist and get him telling me to consider hospital or whatever when there isn't a risk and there isn't a "safe" inpatient option unless I leave town. I don't know, that probably doesn't make sense.

one_step_closer 08-09-2010 07:34 PM

Kahlia, whatever you do please be honest with your psychiatrist. No one can help you if they don't know how you are really feeling.

shadowedsoul 08-09-2010 07:37 PM

Cuddles everybody, erm why do I have to go to extremes, before anyone in my real life see how messed up I really iam. Are they that blind or I'm I just that good at hiding it. =(

Doikers 08-09-2010 07:59 PM

I am TRIGGERED quite badly , I know I'm going to be away at my parents and I feel like I shoulden't cut in someone else's home so I want to make up for it in advance , Does that make sense?

RYUU 08-09-2010 08:21 PM

* hugs everyone * Am at the charity place but only can speand a little time on line as they dont really let people use forums but i managed to get on them
feeling ok at the moment missing my husband though

Doikers 08-09-2010 08:37 PM

I hope you have a good night at the charity place reaper , Do you feel safe there? It sucks that you miss your husband though but it will only be for a short while :)

Doikers 08-09-2010 09:03 PM

Hey Kahlia *Spots and Hugs* Are you okay ? ,Tired from getting up so early are you ?

nicole94 08-09-2010 09:08 PM

*huggles everyone* thanks everyone. sorry about the other night, my friend is ok, thank god for facebook lol.

Doikers 08-09-2010 09:09 PM

Hey Nicole *Hugs ya as I spots ya* How are you this evening?

I kinda feel like I'm monopolising the thread :S

one_step_closer 08-09-2010 09:18 PM

Mark, please try and stay safe. I know that you can beat these urges.

Reaper, i'm glad you're feeling ok.

Nicole, how are you?

I'm also feeling triggered but the main place where I cut is covered up because I have stitches and I don't want to have to go back to A&E for more stitches so I think i'm safe for now. Will just have to put up with the feelings.

nicole94 08-09-2010 09:19 PM

*hugs mark* ou cant spot me if i've already posted :P im gd taa, you?

Doikers 08-09-2010 09:22 PM

*Hugs Lindsay* You CAN do it , beat the urges I mean :) Thankyou for your encouragement too :)

Well I'm tired so to bed with me heh thats the thing with diaz , they leave you drained at the end of the day sometimes but it's good that I have them when I need them .
*Night time hugs the ward*

shadowedsoul 08-09-2010 09:32 PM

Huggles all. Erm okay, curls up in corner. =\

taz35 08-09-2010 09:35 PM

*hugs everyone*
*collapses on pillows in the corner*

misskitty112 08-09-2010 09:37 PM

I'm sorry guys, I can't do individuals today.
So tired. Spent from 8 AM- 1 PM in the hospital. Couldn't breathe, my throat was closing up. I'm really sick.
On top of that, the ex head of housing at uni who's now the Student Activities Coordinator had planned a ton of stuff for Suicide Prevention Week, so I've been busy with that, since it's this week. Tomorrow I get to show a screening of the movie To Save a Life and head up a discussion.
I'm gonna end up crashing and burning by Friday. blah.

MammaMia 08-09-2010 10:07 PM

*cuddles ward*

I feel so sick :( But it's getting better..

nicole94 08-09-2010 10:13 PM

*cuddles helen* aawh, sorry you're still unwell, although i'm glad it's getting better. are you ok other than that though?

SparkleKitten 08-09-2010 10:15 PM

*huggles wardies*

Been drawing tonight, drew a cat playing with wool, I suck at drawing, but its fun :p

Hope you're all safe x

MammaMia 08-09-2010 10:35 PM

To be honest Nicole, I've been much better, just been feeling sick again last couple days :S Hope it's not going to result in me being sick again :( I am okay other than that yeah :) *cuddles*

*cuddles Sarah* I'm sure you're not bad at drawing but glad you've had fun :)

SparkleKitten 08-09-2010 11:00 PM

Can make copies of cartoons and things, but thats about my extent, aside from modern art :p

Sorry for being a bad wardie today, been hectic. Not going to be about much tomorrow either with doctors and celebration meal and such. *cuddles for tomorrow*

Kahlia1981 08-09-2010 11:22 PM

*cuddles all wardies*

Got my GP appointment in about an hour. Yay. Wish I could stop coughing. It's driving me more crazy than usual. It just seems to be one thing after another at the moment ... I hope my new mobile phone arrives soon though. *sigh*

SparkleKitten 09-09-2010 12:34 AM

Hope they give you something to make you feel better *cuddles*

Bed for me now, night wardies *hugs all*

shadowedsoul 09-09-2010 12:50 AM

Curls up under a blanket in the corner, all I okay. =)

taz35 09-09-2010 02:22 AM

*hugs all wardies* Sorry for no individuals today. First day back at uni drained most of my energy and concentration. Hope everybody's doing alright <3

*glomps April & Oliver since I spy them*

risenfromperdition 09-09-2010 02:48 AM

so i wanna go to the library tomorrow to get a couple books/cd's... and i wrote love on my arm b/c i need to see it and its pretty and therefore dont wanna mess it up... but apparently 21 year old's dont write on their arms and therefore if i wanna go to the library i have to wash arm off... dont let me try and think of ways to keep my head from being ridiculous or anything.. *rolls eyes* like... i couldnt sleep practically at all last night cuz kept fighting stupid urges... but i try to think of a good distraction that might help and '21 year olds dont do that'... riiiiiiiight then.

>.<

risenfromperdition 09-09-2010 04:11 AM

since not all of you are on my fb...
"this week is National Suicide Prevention Week. Here in the USA, one person commits suicide every 15.2 minutes. That is not ok. I don't care who you are or what you have done [or have had done to you], you matter. Your life matters. You are important, priceless, beautiful and entirely unique [and at least one person would miss you if you werent here]. There is hope for you :) ♥ always"

<3

Doikers 09-09-2010 10:18 AM

*Hugs Heather* Thaks for that last post :)

*Hugs Taz*1st day back at Uni must be exausting :S

*Hugs Helen* I hope you're not getting sick again too :S

*Hugs Jill* Are you okay really ?

*Hugs Sarah* I bet you are good at drawing:)

*Hugs Kahlia* I hope your GP appointment went well.

*Hugs Nicole*How are you This morning?

*Hugs Felicia* Sounds like you have a busy and intense week , look after yourself as well as all that other stuff okay.

Kahlia1981 09-09-2010 11:46 AM

*huggles all*

GP gave me some antibiotics and some steroids (short-course) for a chest infection. ... Also a whole lot of scripts and a new referral for me to take to my psychiatrist when I next see him. Have started the antibiotics and now just want to crash out from the world for a bit ...

Doikers 09-09-2010 11:55 AM

*Hugs Kahlia* I hope the meds help with your chest infection :) and I hope all the other meds help too

taz35 09-09-2010 12:11 PM

*hugs Heather* That sounds ridiculous (the library thing). And thanks for the post :)

*hugs Mark* How are you doing today?

*hugs Kahlia* I hope your chest infection goes away soon :)

Am just heading off to work, got a busy day ahead of me. And counseling... ick. Been feeling really weird for the past week. Don't know how to tell him without sounding crazy. Oh well.

Hope all my fellow wardies have good days <3 :D

Scarletdreamer 09-09-2010 12:18 PM

Sorry I've not been around for a bit, and (once again) am sorry I'm not doing individuals. Bad April, bad... :(

I've sunk back into a pretty low depression again, for what reasons I've no idea. But it sucks. I don't want to do anything, I'm thinking too much, and I've cried about stuff before I fell asleep two nights in a row now. I hate it!!!! :'( It really, really bites, and I've no idea how I'm going to hold myself together when it comes to starting my job. I just hope that I don't spiral downwards super far again... :(

That's all. :-/

Ps. *cuddles everyone*

Doikers 09-09-2010 12:20 PM

I'm feeling okay thanks Taz *Hugs* Not too shaky , A bit anxious about transporting my stuff (Clothes, Meds Etc) to my parents , My Nurse apointment was cancelled so I just have to wait for my Dad to show up now , I hate waiting , Now I am meeting my Nurse next Monday , along with another nurse for bloods, check into the cyber cafe to find out when they want me next and the befriending lady It's going to be a mad day.
Phew . I'm sure you won't come over as crazy Taz :)

*Spots and hugs April* How are you?

Scarletdreamer 09-09-2010 12:34 PM

See previous page, Mark, hehe. :) Posted a bit about how I was doing there, not good really at all. :( *huggles* Sounds like you'll have a crazy busy Monday, oof. Hopefully it goes smoothly though. And yey, I'm finally online when you are... that's lovely. :) Seems like lately I post after you've gone off to bed, if I post at all. :-S

Taz, why do you think you'd come off as crazy?? what is the "weird" feeling like? *cuddles*

shadowedsoul 09-09-2010 12:56 PM

Huggles all. Mark hmm pass hides under a blanket in the corner.

Doikers 09-09-2010 01:21 PM

Yeah sorry April , I think we posted together :P *Huge Hugs* I'm sorry you have sunk into a depression , that really does blow for you , You can always PM me or e-mail me if you need to lil sis<3

The One Who 09-09-2010 02:18 PM

Hello everyone *hugs*

RYUU 09-09-2010 02:33 PM

Am back from the charity place i managed to sleep ok and felt ok to come home at the moment am feeling ok and safe

MammaMia 09-09-2010 02:34 PM

*cuddles everybody*

misskitty112 09-09-2010 02:45 PM

*hugs everyone*
I know I need to do individuals, but I don't have much time, I still need to get ready for class and I'm laying in bed in my pajamas (bad, bad Felicia!). so I won't be on until tonight probably cause I have class, then work, then my night class, then To Save a Life movie screening/discussion, then homework. I need to fit eating in there somewhere too... cause that is back to back and if I don't eat, it gives me a gateway to fall back in to my ED habits hard...

Doikers 09-09-2010 02:59 PM

*Hugs Claire*

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Reaper* I'm glad you are feeling safe :)

*Hugs Felicia* Wow you have a Jam packed day, look after yourself :)

shadowedsoul 09-09-2010 03:24 PM

Cuddles all. Hmm feeling very triggered again. Trying to keep my fake smile on my face, but as my freind says I may be laughing on the outside, but inside I'm dying. =(

Doikers 09-09-2010 03:33 PM

*Hugs Jill* I have that "Fake Smile" too Jill, I'm sorry you are triggered , please try not to act on those thoughts .

Detour. Derail 09-09-2010 03:57 PM

one of my mice died last night :'(

Doikers 09-09-2010 03:59 PM

Oh I'm sorry to hear that Lex:( *Hugs*

Scarletdreamer 09-09-2010 05:00 PM

*sighs, hides in the warren where no one can find her, and cries softly* :'(

shadowedsoul 09-09-2010 05:13 PM

Cuddles April, what's up Hun.
Mark the trouble is I really want to. I'm being pushed to my limit by someone at work.

CrazyHayley 09-09-2010 05:43 PM

*toddles around the ward in all of the hidey holes and secret places determind to get to everyone to give them a supportive huggle*

Sorry I've not been online past few days, been really ill with a cough and cold, still feel pretty crap. But after tomorrow I won't have to leave the falt for a few days and won't have people coming in anymore, so I can rest and start to let my body recouperate.

I think ludwig is ill (my laptop) as he won't work anymore unless he's plugged into the mains :( which means I can't be online when Reggie is out, so I'm feeling very torn, as I want Reggie to have the most freedom as possible, but I also need RYL and other internet things for my sanity. Oh and Reggie started to eat my walls this morning! So no carpet in the new place, he thought he'd try something else!! I don't think his castration has ended his destructive behaviour like the vet and I had hoped for! :(

Sorry this is all about me and having a whinge when you've all got far bigger issues to deal with. I need to catch up with people properly, I feel like such a lame friend. I need to be a better friend as I know that I'm going to be in here a lot soon when Eoghan deploys. Oh, on a good note though, his date has been put back 3weeks, so I've got him a bit longer yet :D

*shuts up and toddles off out to the smoking shelter*

PoisonedApple 09-09-2010 05:50 PM

*grabs onto hayley and clings refusing to be removed*
we missed you!

CrazyHayley 09-09-2010 06:21 PM

Aww thanks for saying that.....crimson?! Have you changed your name, cos I'm sure that was your sig! Or have I gone bonkers in my absense?!!!!

Really should be letting Reggie out now.....but I think I need this more right now....

CrazyHayley 09-09-2010 06:47 PM

think I'm going to update my journal whilst I have something to munch and then spend some quality time with Reggie.

I'll just be over there in the corner...

*plonks self in one of the many corners of the ward to update her journal*


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