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shadowedsoul 03-09-2010 12:23 AM

Hugs everbody. Hmm wondering if getting drunk, just to stop feeling so numb. Havnt laughed so much in my life.

frenchhorn 03-09-2010 12:33 AM

*hugs* Lia please try to stay safe

*infact extra special Oliver hugs* to all of you, because so many of you seem to be struggling right now and you shouldn't, your all amazing people, who i care about a lot, so please, please all stay safe.
*big Oliver love to you all*

ok I'm quite excited, been talking to a friend, another trans guy and we're both really fed up of waiting for the NHS to get prescribed hormones, so we are going to do a sponsored walk, we're going to walk hadrian's wall, which is 84 miles, probs tak us about 5/6 days and then the money we raise is going to go towards going private for hormone treatment.And then any money left over will go to local LGBT/trans groups.
I'm also really excited by it because I've been wanting to wlak Hadrian's wall for ages and I love hiking and also Greg is a good mate.

FlyingNy 03-09-2010 12:37 AM

That's great Oliver. :) I really hope you can raise enough. *Extra big Lia hugs to you too.*

Scarletdreamer 03-09-2010 01:04 AM

Okies. Now I'm going to (attempt to) do individuals. May not get all of you as my brain is kind of all over the place... but hey ho, we shall see where I get. :P

*cuddles Lia* I'm glad that thinking about God made you feel better. :) And yes, I do know what you're going on about, I remember that PM. I'm sorry your friend "has a theory" and that it upset you so... but it's understandable. I would be upset as well, I think, especially if it were about things I didn't want anyone else knowing about. Which applies, probably, to a lot of stuff, in a lot of people's lives. But anywho, yes, I do know. *extra special strengthening hugs* As far as the pills go... I've OD'd once, and while I only took a few pills over the course of a day, it was still enough to scare me too. Please try to stop yourself from ever doing that again, because - I am gathering, from how frequently people do it - that either the feelings from the pills or the attention received from taking them (not saying that those who OD are attention-seekers, more like they don't have enough attention & crave it whilst at the same time being in a great deal of emotional pain... oh ****, I don't know, does that even make any sense?). Anyway. Please try not to do that again. I'm worried about you. :(

*cuddles Oliver* That walk sounds cool; I hope it works out okay. That's quite a long walk, actually... would you be planning on camping out? or what? (sorry, first thing that came to mind after you wrote 84 miles/5-6 days was, "Oh dear, where would they SLEEP??" ... hehe, I'm very much attached to my comfy bed, although I have had my camping days, lol)

*cuddles Hels* Feeling a little better yet perhaps? I hope so. It's getting late there, am always surprised to see so many of you on so late at night!! (well, for you all - not so much for me, it's not yet 8pm here) I hope your interview goes well tomorrow/today (depending on your timezone, hehe). You'll have to let us know. ^_^ How else are you doing? and how is/are your bestie(s) doing?

*cuddles Laura* I would be annoyed with work hours being changed as well, especially as a relatively new employee, but you're right, in life you've just gotta learn to "roll with the punches" I guess. I have trouble with that, I don't know why. It's just a part of me - I hate change. Of any sort, because it takes me so freaking long to get accustomed to the new "stuff," whatever it may be. Anyway, enough about me for now, ahahaha. >_<

*cuddles Jill* Are you doing okay, sweetie? I'm a little concerned about you...

*cuddles Crimson* Any word from the new job yet, love? and how are you doing, and how's your gran? I hope you're feeling a bit less anxious than you were when you last posted (?)... thinking of you.

*cuddles Kahlia* Sorry I've not responded to your PM yet, I'm not intentionally ignoring you, I promise. I just want to have the time/energy to sit down and write a decent/good reply and that time just hasn't happened yet. :( Are you doing okay? I mean, overall, because it's seemed like you haven't posted in here in a bit. I'm sorry your housemate didn't get seen at the hospital, that's utterly ridiculous - is he okay? and I'm also sorry that you binged and feel **** about it now... but it's only one day of doing badly, as - well, everyone - would tell me if it were me... so I hope that you don't keep feeling that badly. *extra special hugs to you as well*

*cuddles Claire, Kaytee, & Mara* How are you three?

Re: the bitchy friend, I do like her as a friend, as I said. I don't know why she is a bitch at times but she knows she is and readily admits it. It's not really a mean bitch, more of a thoroughly-honest-no-matter-how-it-will-come-across bitch. I guess she's just a little insensitive to other people? I don't know. She's just... well, definitely honest. Perhaps to a fault. She doesn't soften things, and tbh, she did piss me off today. In response to a ranting LJ post, about my ED and how I "don't want to follow that ****ing meal plan," she wrote:

You know I get this ED stuff but like I said, you have to decide what you want, whether you're sure yet or not. I admit I can understand where Jarrod is coming from, he's probably getting fed up and frustrated and angry. Either you do this or you don't.

You also need to deal with the fact that you don't like to leave the apartment.
[re: me not liking to leave the apartment to exercise]

I think you need to reread Life Without Ed and Goodbye Ed, Hello Me.

I am not one for just blindly following along but you need to just do this - you talk about God and all that stuff - well faith is involved so start having some.

And then in response to a reply I left to that comment, she wrote:

That's good that you're giving this a shot. And yeah in a perfect world it'd be great if coping with things were easy but it's not and you're not the only one struggling with things either - we're all fighting something and wishing it were easier. You need to change your outlook somehow.

I don't know, am I the only one that sees how that can be kind of annoying/cause one to become pissed off? because she didn't give any advice or anything on HOW to change my outlook, and yeah, I know she gets the ED stuff, but I don't feel comfortable talking to her about it, really, because she's, well, probably going to tell me stuff I don't want to hear. I don't know.

Sorry. That should've probably gone in my r/v. Anyway, long enough for now... just got back from a walk - my 30 minutes of exercise that I'm allowed (5 days/week only) - and am cooling off. It's cooler out now that the sun's gone down but... still kinda sticky. Ugh. And now I'm getting sleepy so I see shower + meds + bed shortly. :-/

FlyingNy 03-09-2010 01:12 AM

April- don't worry about me. It's ok. I'm calmer now. But it's sinking that I tried to kill myself. If that's what I was doing. I don't know. I didn't take very many, but only because I didn't want to leave people behind. Not really because I wanted to live at all. I knew I was screwed when I was jealous of the lives of people in EastEnders. Inside my head, I am screaming right now. I'm not frantic anymore, but I am scared. Scared of what may or may not have happened and scared of how to deal with it all. Scared of myself and what I might do. I'm sorry about your friend. I think she does care about you though but just isn't very sensitive towards feelings. *Bear hugs* Oh, epic reply btw ;)

frenchhorn 03-09-2010 01:16 AM

yes we will be camping, it would be rather epic to do it all non stop with no sleep!! its just the case of finding the campsites and getting it cheap and hoping they are open in feb, also hoping its not too cold in feb, considering its on the border to Scotland

PoisonedApple 03-09-2010 01:27 AM

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*cuddles Crimson* Any word from the new job yet, love? and how are you doing, and how's your gran? I hope you're feeling a bit less anxious than you were when you last posted (?)... thinking of you.
The listing closes tomorrow then they start picking people to interview *crosses fingers and waits patiently*
I'm.... I dunno. Kinda roller-coastery lately.
Gran is ok last I heard but mom hasn't texted since yesterday noon so... dunno.
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I don't know, am I the only one that sees how that can be kind of annoying/cause one to become pissed off? because she didn't give any advice or anything on HOW to change my outlook, and yeah, I know she gets the ED stuff, but I don't feel comfortable talking to her about it, really, because she's, well, probably going to tell me stuff I don't want to hear. I don't know.

Sorry. That should've probably gone in my r/v. Anyway, long enough for now... just got back from a walk - my 30 minutes of exercise that I'm allowed (5 days/week only) - and am cooling off. It's cooler out now that the sun's gone down but... still kinda sticky. Ugh. And now I'm getting sleepy so I see shower + meds + bed shortly. :-/
I totally see where you're coming from and it is just fine here... :) we like to know what's going on.

*hugs everyone and heads home to teach the kids how to cook ( and take pictures of it for their school lol)*

Scarletdreamer 03-09-2010 01:40 AM

Lia, thanks for saying my reply was epic. ;) It was rather long, wasn't it... :P Hehehe. I understand though, where you're coming from about being scared of yourself etc., of what you're capable of, and how it's just sinking in now... I wish I knew what to say that would be useful. :( *extra special April hugs* PM box is open if you need/want to talk. <3

Oliver, I didn't expect you to go without sleep. ;) I was just wondering if it would be hotels or camping... and brrr, camping in February would be rather cold, I would imagine. At least, around here. But then again, that's what a lot of blankets and a nice warm sleeping bag is for, right? :) But honestly, I do wish you the best of luck with your venture. It should be awesome if you can do it, and I expect pics!! *hands on hips* Lol... *hugs*

Crimson, good luck with getting the job... I should be hearing back about the job tomorrow too... something's telling me that I didn't get it, otherwise would've heard back by now. Blah. I do hope that you get good news though, about that and about your gran. <3 *huggles* Oh, and I'm glad that you (none of you?) were annoyed that I posted such a long bit about my friend. And also, that you can understand where I am coming from. :-/

Ugh, so freaking tired... :( Just want to go to bed. Jarrod's playing Half Life 2 now and I just want to sleeeeeeep... :( but I also don't want to drag him away from the game when he's just started playing it. I mean, he's played it before, but just started where he left off a few minutes ago. So I guess it's another shower-alone go-to-bed-alone night. Blah. I hate going to bed alone, it feels, well, lonely. Ahaha. >_<

I feel so... left out. And sad. And like I don't give a **** about anything anymore. I don't know. I'm kinda verging on suicidal? I don't really know though for sure. It feels iffy. And I really really need sleep!!!!

*cuddles all then heads off to fill out food/exercise diary for the day* :-/

FlyingNy 03-09-2010 01:47 AM

You obviously do give a **** about some things April, or you wouldn't have replied to everyone just now :) Pull the plug on the computer and pretend it's a power surge? Good luck with the job April, I really hope you got it. You know something? I'm thinking of actually taking you up on the PM offer, maybe not this second in time, but at some point soon because I think tonight was a result of bottling all these feelings up just coming to a head. I actually got as far as taking the pills from thier hiding place and taking some. I've only ever got as far as holding them before, even in my lowest moments. I think it's time I at least tried. Stay safe. *Hugs tightly. * Night night. xx

Detour. Derail 03-09-2010 02:52 AM

hope everyone is ok....sorry for the lack of individual replies but theres just too many pages to read :(
Thinking of you all though and sending all my love
xxxxxxxxxx

shadowedsoul 03-09-2010 03:00 AM

Cuddles April. No worries I'm okays, really okays. Loves you guys.

Shaughnessy 03-09-2010 06:16 AM

**wanders in, picks up a duvet, drags over a beanbag chair and curls up with a hot water bottle, she brings out a half-finished bracelet and a box of multi-coloured seed beads and lays them on her lap**

My father had an emotional day at work, came home and decided he wanted a bottle of wine. Because he's had a hard day, it's effecting him more than usual...and when he gets drunk he gets stupid and irritable...and sometimes volatile, lashing out at everything and everyone irrationally.

I'm not majorly triggering, but when he gets like this it is a trigger for me...I've just been dealing with it for too long and sometimes I don't feel like dealing with it anymore

So here I am. Though in real life I'm going to go and absorb myself in a movie and focus on my beading.

flutterby butterfly 03-09-2010 08:33 AM

Today, I am going to scream. *hides under duvet*

Doikers 03-09-2010 08:55 AM

*Hugs everyone*

So Many posts ..... I'm sorry about not doing many individuals :S

Kahlia, is your flatmate okay , I mean he obviously had a reason for going to the hospital and didn't get treated ?

Lia , I'm very worried about you , please tip the pills away.

Jill, I know what you mean about getting drunk to feel better , I did just that on the 31st of August and the 1st of September :S Just so you know I empathise .

Detour. Derail 03-09-2010 09:54 AM

someone please tell me why I cant stop crying

flutterby butterfly 03-09-2010 10:03 AM

^^ **hug** ^^

Doikers 03-09-2010 10:41 AM

*Hugs Lex*

*Hugs Mara*

Kahlia1981 03-09-2010 11:21 AM

*huggles everyone*

To those who asked about my housemate: He's not crash hot, sort of playing it by ear. He's sleeping until about 10 maybe 11 in the mornings now, has lots of stomach issues - which was what drove him to the hospital because the pain and nausea was so bad he couldn't take any of his pain or psych meds. Not sure what he's planning to do ... He does have a GP appointment on Sunday, so maybe just waiting until then.

April: It's okay, I know you have a lot going on. I'm still working on a "part II" to that PM as well by the way. Things just seem to be crashing/raining down on everyone at the moment. I'll write about me at the bottom but just in case you miss it ... I really am not crash hot.

To everyone who sent me hugs/good wishes/etc: Sorry for grouping you all together but I didn't want to inadvertently leave someone out. Thanks so much it was really appreciated. Not doing brilliantly at the moment and I can do with all the support that I can get.

About me: My psychiatrist asked me to half the amount of Xanax I'm taking so that I'm on 4 mg per day instead of up to 10 mg last week via email so I've been suffering withdrawals from that. He was speculating that the half life of the xanax (10 hours) was causing me to wake up early in the morning on the nights I could sleep and was stopping the mogadon (sleeping pill) from working when I was attempting to use it because I couldn't sleep. Anyway the experience is not pleasant. I am terrified every single time I leave the house now. But I don't have a choice sometimes. *sigh*

My housemate has noticed the "change" in my eating as I've let my anorexic mindset take control except for yesterday's major binge session which my housemate was incredibly happy about. He even commented that he was really happy because he was beginning to get concerned about my eating habit change and some "unhealthy" thought patterns towards eating.

I've started having stronger urges towards ODing, SI and some very strong urges towards suicide which I start talking about with my housemate but he made a really hurtful comment towards me and then walked away before I was able to say anything.
The following content has been hidden - Reason : Talking about suicide
I'd been talking about cleaning up after my ex's suicide in 97 and was talking about the mess and he said "remember that when you get those **ng*ng urges". I could have sworn at him. He didn't give me time to say that the reason I had the plans I had was to reduce that mess or make it so the mess was reduced or whatever.
Grrrrrr. I'm sorry. He also got me moderately annoyed when he got the level where he got free meds. Especially when I've paid for half of his medications so far...

Anyway I feel like absolute crap. I'm just so damn over it. I don't even know if I want to live or not anymore. I'm so sick of trying. Screw it all. Really.

Doikers 03-09-2010 11:23 AM

Women , your opinions please , If you got your favourite chocolate bar and a seaglass pendant roll up in a crinkled scarf with wooden buttons on in a bag that has happy birthday written on it for your (30th) Birthday would you like it? , I haven't had the oppourtunity to show my sister or mum and wanted a womans thoughts. I know individual tastes mean a lot but I mean in general do you think it's a good presant? It's for my best friend .

Doikers 03-09-2010 11:29 AM

Oh Kahlia :( I'm sorry you are struggling so much *Hugs* I wish I had magickal faerie dust to sprinkle over you ...

The One Who 03-09-2010 11:33 AM

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Originally Posted by Doikers (Post 2472897)
Women , your opinions please , If you got your favourite chocolate bar and a seaglass pendant roll up in a crinkled scarf with wooden buttons on in a bag that has happy birthday written on it for your (30th) Birthday would you like it? , I haven't had the oppourtunity to show my sister or mum and wanted a womans thoughts. I know individual tastes mean a lot but I mean in general do you think it's a good presant? It's for my best friend .

I think that sounds lovely, as long as jewellery and scarves are their thing, which it's not for me. But yeah, if it suits their interests then it sounds great!

Hello everyone, sorry, not up to individuals, feeling a mix of anxious and spaced.

Doikers 03-09-2010 11:39 AM

Well I asked her what she would like and the only answer I got was jewelery so , yeah , it's her thing , I really wanted to treat her as I know she is struggling with turning 30 ( As am I this year ,ugh) and I wanted to make her happy on her birthday.

The One Who 03-09-2010 11:45 AM

I think it sounds lovely, I'm sure she'll appreciate it. I have no idea what it's like to turn thirty, but could you both look at it as age being just a number? You are only as young as you feel.

Detour. Derail 03-09-2010 11:53 AM

I think it sounds good!!!

one_step_closer 03-09-2010 12:00 PM

Sounds great. In fact, I might just steal it.

Doikers 03-09-2010 12:06 PM

HEEE!Thanks Claire, Lex and Lindsay, you have given me a bit of confidence in my presant (Make Sense?)

Scarletdreamer 03-09-2010 12:54 PM

Ooooh Mark, I'm gonna come over there & steal it as well!! XD It sounds absolutely lovely. Really does. You definitely ought to have some confidence in giving gifts, that's really a splendid one. :) *hugs* How are you doing this morning??

Sorry, too many posts to reply to right now, but:

Lia - PM me anytime, I'm always about. :) Well, not in the middle of the night, but you know what I mean. *hugs* And yes, maybe PM me the next time you feel like taking those pills? because letting feelings out can really relieve those types of feelings. I know I'm no therapist (yet) but... maybe I can help, I don't know.

Kahlia - sorry you're not doing very well at all, and I think that that comment about the bingeing was very inconsiderate of your housemate, ugh. :( Please keep talking with us especially if you don't have anyone else to talk with IRL, and please don't give in to the suicidal urges. Your life is definitely worth so much more. Please, hon. You've got to believe it... I know that we do. <3 *cuddles gently*

Shaughnessy - welcome to the thread!! I'm sorry your dad's like that... but I am glad that you have a way to kind of escape IRL. That's good. Also, posting here is good - this is a welcoming, supportive, and awesome group of people. :) *hugs if okay?*

*hugs Lex, Mara, and Claire* How are you doing??

Okies. End to replies. Just wanted to do a few (lol) and yes Lia, I suppose I do give a damn about some things if I do epic replies. ;) I care about you all, yes, all of you, whether you think you're worth caring about or not. :)

Just got up about 20 minutes ago which is rather scandalous for us... 7:30am. Haven't slept in that late for years now... Jarrod came to bed around 2am which I find ridiculous... but he's still suspended from work, "pending investigation" for something he didn't do but sounded like he did (for whatever sense that makes). So that definitely does not make me happy. :( It's nice having him home, but then again, that gives someone to monitor over my food intake etc. :-/ *sigh* Oh well.

And guess what?! I'm STILL EXHAUSTED. Even though I slept from 9pm-ish until 7:30am-ish!!! I make no sense. And I still haven't had my meds, silly me. Ought to go get those in a bit I suppose, ugh. At least here no one "looks at me funny" if I mention meds, since most of us are on them... In WoW, with anyone that I don't know too well, if I mention that I "am gonna log for a bit to do morning stuff, get meds, etc." they're like... "what the hell?!" ... although not in those words. Haha. Oh well. Makes me feel rather... crazy.

*cuddles all & does the Futterwacken on the way out*

risenfromperdition 03-09-2010 01:08 PM

im stealing it too mark ;]

*cuddles april and alexx and lia and kahlia and taz and laura*
<3 will do individuals in a bit, aunts almost here

Doikers 03-09-2010 01:21 PM

[quote*cuddles all & does the Futterwacken on the way out*
][/quote]

What is that^^^^^^ April ? Futterwacken sounds hilarious and rather rude , like a german swearword:)

I just hope my friend loves her presant as much as all you stealing girls do :)lol

Scarletdreamer 03-09-2010 02:05 PM

This, my dears, is the Futterwacken:


I love this clip. XD It's from the new "Alice in Wonderland" ... :) And Mark, lol, I do agree, it's like a German swearword. I have no idea where the producers came up with it, I suppose I could look it up... :P

Ugh. Breakfast. About time as it's 9am my time, but still, YUCK!!! At least I got to see how to use our new blender. ;) I know how to use blenders, but this one is new and fancier than what I'm used to. Ahaha. >_< It's an okay smoothie ("protein drink") but my nutritionist lied to me when she said that I wouldn't be able to taste the banana. >_<

Anyway. Hope you're all doing alright!! *cuddles and safe care packages all around*

Doikers 03-09-2010 02:23 PM

You know who I don't recall saying hi to recently here? . Our youngun Julie , Anyone noticed her about?

FlyingNy 03-09-2010 02:29 PM

Lol, I love that movie April. No one can be sat when the futterwaken is involved. :)

I'm alright Mark, don't worry about me. I still have the pills, but I didn't do anything after I posted on here last night.

I've felt like I'm falling apart for a while now, like things are getting worse and worse and last night was all that just blowing up. No one IRL knows, but my pervert does (the Samaritans, I email them sometimed and that's my nickname for them.)

I hope everyone's alright, sorry for lack of individuals.

*Hugs Mara and Lex* The two of you seem to be struggling right now, I'm sorry, I wish I could help. Just want you to know I care.

I'm sat here watching Sex and the City on my own. Is there a sadder existance? :/

FlyingNy 03-09-2010 02:29 PM

Oh and Mark, I love the sound of that present, if it's her thing, I think she'll really like it :)

Scarletdreamer 03-09-2010 02:51 PM

To answer your question, Mark, nope, haven't seen Julie about in quite some time. :-/ Am a bit concerned about her actually, can't even remember the last time she posted. Must've been quite some time ago. Has anyone here been in contact with her??

Lia, glad you're doing okay(ish) now, and also glad that you have the Samaritans to email if you really need to talk and get a somewhat immediate reply. Also glad that you didn't do anything more with the pills. But... I am still worried about you. *gentle hugs*

Hmm just finished breakfast - finally - ugh. :( I feel super full now. It's icky. And I didn't follow my nutritionist's advice either, to have it "first thing in the morning" - had it nearly 2 hours after I got up, ahahaha... >_< ...oops. Oh well.

I.want.to.sleep. Even though I just got up 2 hours and 20 minutes ago... I am ****ing exhausted. :(

I really need to... I don't know, be a nicer person? I just posted a relatively bitchy post on LJ and I'm afraid that people will take offense at it. :( Or else just tell me to "suck it up" ... ugh. Am tempted to go back and edit out the parts that are especially bitchy but I don't really want to do that either.

*sigh* :(

FlyingNy 03-09-2010 03:02 PM

If only replies were immediate. It actually can take up to two days for them to reply, but I told them what happened. I can't tell them about THAT though, I'm scared they won't believe me.

I've just had a letter from the hospital to inform me that I am no in fact dying (probably) and can go about my merry way.

You're not a horrible person April. You've always came across as lovely on here. I'm really tired too and I don't get it. I had enough sleep last night, so why I'm so exhausted is beyond me. It's dead frustrating though. Perhaps we are both werewolves and spend our nights unknowingly wondering the streets, attacking poor innocents and remember nothing of out antics the next morning.

shadowedsoul 03-09-2010 03:10 PM

Cuddles all. Hmm I so needed that last night. Was feeling really down and just bleh.never laughed so much in my life as I did last night.even if I ended up being sick afterwards, and feeling rubbish today. Was well worth it. Need to be out of it just for one night.

FlyingNy 03-09-2010 03:19 PM

Jill, I'm glad you had fun last night, but I'm a little worried that you had to get drunk to do it. Other than having a hangover, how are you feeling today?

Doikers 03-09-2010 03:56 PM

I thought you'd like this April, and everyone else too :)


misskitty112 03-09-2010 04:08 PM

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Originally Posted by Doikers (Post 2472897)
Women , your opinions please , If you got your favourite chocolate bar and a seaglass pendant roll up in a crinkled scarf with wooden buttons on in a bag that has happy birthday written on it for your (30th) Birthday would you like it? , I haven't had the oppourtunity to show my sister or mum and wanted a womans thoughts. I know individual tastes mean a lot but I mean in general do you think it's a good presant? It's for my best friend .

I would love it. That is such a great gift!

I'll have to come back in tonight and do hardcore individuals, but I've got to finish taking an online quiz, go to History, take another quiz on the most boring History chapter in the history of the world, do paperwork for my new job (Yes, guys, I finally finally got a job), then I get to go home for a three day weekend, which will be spent reading, writing, editing, revising, taking notes, and working on a marketing plan. blah... I'm busy.

anywhoo, I'll do individuals tonight, and I love you guys!

MammaMia 03-09-2010 04:10 PM

Julie - she's been very very quiet. Popped in a couple weeks back I think it was for like two/three posts and seems to have disappeared again, I hope she's okay :)

Sorry I'm still not really posting much, as you can imagine, I'm still not well enough to be doing everything I can normally manage :/ I took the risk and went to my interview, despite feeling very exhausted and ill. It went mostly good apart from having to step outside for 5 minutes because I felt so ill and burst into tears. PATHETIC PATHETIC PATHETIC. Luckily the person running it knows me from last year and majority of them know me from that or already did due my parents. (My dad used to work there and knew some before that even and my mum works there, so I'm very well known to a lot of staff :S Well they don't know much about me, but still!)

*cuddles everyone*

Oh and a female friend of mine decided to make another appearance today, despite it being here last week. I assumed it was down to not being able to take my pill for it and my sister assured me on that matter. So hopefully will go away tomorrow/Sunday and shouldn't be like a normal one. Was worried that if I did take the pill today or something, it would come on. But it sorta beat me. Should have took the pills yesterday but didn't want to risk it despite not being sick most of yesterday...

I really don't feel too good and totally exhausted. >_< *curls up*

Doikers 03-09-2010 04:11 PM

Congrats on the Job again Felicia:) What is it doing?

misskitty112 03-09-2010 04:13 PM

I'm working as a secretary in the English department at uni. =)
Not glamorous or exciting or anything, but it'll give me money.

Doikers 03-09-2010 04:14 PM

You're NOT pathetic Helen , you're just sick and thats making you down on yourself . I have crossed my fingers that you will get the job , It was really brave of you to go despite feeling so crappy.

The One Who 03-09-2010 04:20 PM

Well done on the job Felicia, money is money! I have a (very) part-time job, so am looking for Christmas temp work. It's not easy though. Since I think I'm pulling out of doing a masters I need something to keep me busy and keep my bank balance up.

Helen, that's not pathetic, not at all. You aren't well, and really you need to look after yourself *hugs*

MammaMia 03-09-2010 04:25 PM

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Originally Posted by Doikers (Post 2473186)
You're NOT pathetic Helen , you're just sick and thats making you down on yourself . I have crossed my fingers that you will get the job , It was really brave of you to go despite feeling so crappy.

Thanks Mark, I guess you're right :) A lot of my friends/family are ill and/or low at the moment, so that's upsetting me too. I'm always more easily upset etc when I'm not well I guess =[

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Originally Posted by The One Who (Post 2473192)
Helen, that's not pathetic, not at all. You aren't well, and really you need to look after yourself *hugs*

Thanks Claire, guess you're both right *hugs*

Well done on the job Felicia!! :)

FlyingNy 03-09-2010 04:58 PM

I'm walking alone and drinking. I don't know where I'm going and I don't care. This gin is disgusting, but I have to block this out, jkust for a while. X

MammaMia 03-09-2010 05:00 PM

Try & be safe Lia xx

Doikers 03-09-2010 05:25 PM

I'm alone and Drinking too :S Just need to blur racing thoughts . When I drink I don't tend to harm and I DO NOT want to harm tonight .

PoisonedApple 03-09-2010 05:45 PM

*hugs everyone*
sorry not many individual replies but i have a headache and can barely see straight...
mark - awesome present.
april - i love the flutterwacken :D
re: julie - she was online yesterday but hasn't posted since about 2 weeks ago. hopefully she's doing ok.

is it odd that things with certain textures are difficult or impossible for me to make myself eat? just wondering if its just me or if other people are like that too... i'm trying to have my "fruit 2day" for breakfast and while it tastes nummy the texture the fruit bits are left with is making it difficult to choke down :(

Scarletdreamer 03-09-2010 05:47 PM

I GOT THE JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sorry. Just found out half an hour ago. I. Am. Ecstatic.

(Peer counselor position just to remind you, parttime to start & paid... they've just got to call my references and then it'll all be set... I'm not sure when I start, though, as training is in October, but the two women in charge of the position want to get me doing some preliminary stuff prior to then...)

WOOT!!!!

(Hopefully my references don't say anything too bad about me... :-S)


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