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jonikd 06-07-2010 09:08 PM

Hey Mark, how you?
And Crimson and Helen and Lia.

*cuddles Helen*

MammaMia 06-07-2010 09:25 PM

*curls up and cries*

PoisonedApple 06-07-2010 09:25 PM

well a 65% (won't let me retest for a week), a 95% and I have just 3 essays and a typed out ethics exam left to do by 12 August... *snickers at use of the word just* i admit this is my own fault but now i feel totally overwhelmed even with my essays all mostly done. i hate essays... they never look ok to me. never ready to hand in.

PoisonedApple 06-07-2010 09:26 PM

*cuddles Helen*

MammaMia 06-07-2010 09:26 PM

*cuddles you back*

I'mJustMe 06-07-2010 09:27 PM

I'll stop being so useless now. Individual replies.

Jill- you don't suck sweetie. How are you feeling now? I'm glad you listened to me :) I am right. I'm always right. Of course :/

Laura- How are you feeling now? *Hugs*

Helen- Glad you had some happiness eariler and I hope you're feeling exited again now. What made you feel low again? Or was it just a random mood?

April- I care out you sweet. I haven't read your r/v. I'm not entierly sure what one it. I can be a little thick. I don't know what else to say. I'm sorry, I'm being useless again. And I need to stop apologsing. Sorry :P I hope you feel a little better now. And thanks for the PM invite.

Angelic Monster- Good luck with all the work. I've just finsihed a load of exams and feel as if I failed and am going to let everyone down, but hey.

Mark- *hugs* Glad there's somone else you can talk to. I hope you're alright. Good that the appointment went well.

*Hugs and tea to everyone else.*

I had tea today. At my W/E. It was a little boring today and they wouldn't let me watch a hystorectomy :( and two cats died. Lovely and cheerrful.

Why am I listening to this song? It's upbeat, but the most cheesy thing I have ever heard of. I didn't even know this person sang...

MammaMia 06-07-2010 09:31 PM

I've been low for a long time, just get bursts of happiness/excitedness.

I'm so cross with my boyfriend, well techically he's my ex but I haven't left him offically LOL. He comes online & was talking. Was going to ignore him but replied. Turns out he only phoned because he wanted to invite me to a BBQ tomorrow which I can't do with being out at Alton Towers. Plus I probably wouldn't have gone, as I'm so angry with him at the moment. Then he was talking about how he wanted to make it up to me & how he knows sorry won't fix it alone. Sounds like bullshit & then just ran off whilst I was eating dinner. No text or anything to apologise....so far. (He left over an hour ago)

Then my best friend just ran off too. Am so worried about her but I know she'll stay safe. She promised & said she was going bed. Plus she was going to go early anyway as we both need early nights for our early starts (she's got a busy day too). Just hope it helps to make her feel better. Can understand why she doesn't want to be low as it's her birthday on Thursday.

*curls up* I feel so alone.

shadowedsoul 06-07-2010 09:34 PM

Huggles lea very gently but tightly, your not useless Hun your a caring and lovely person, that deseves happyness.

Me I'm fine, okayish idk *shrugs*

I'mJustMe 06-07-2010 09:34 PM

Lol, Helen, because of your DP, I imagine you as a little stick person sat at your computer.

I'mJustMe 06-07-2010 09:37 PM

You're not alone Helen, you have all of us and others in your life who do care about you. I know it doesn't feel like it, I don't feel like it (that people care about me that is), but they do (care about you). Right, did you make sense of that?

*Hugs Jill back and Helen. No more arms. Damn. Group hug*

What's up Jill? Glad you're not feeling too bad. And thanks.


I'mJustMe 06-07-2010 09:40 PM

Sorry for taking up another post, but I am worried about my mental health. I was suicudal ten minutes ago, and now I'm fine. Does anyone know anything about bipolar disorder...? Mind, I don't have manic highs, just the biggest mood swings...that might be more to do with my time of the month. But then, I'm always like this, even when I don't have my woman issues.

shadowedsoul 06-07-2010 09:44 PM

Noithing I'm fine. =\ forget about me, are you okay? I know stuiped question.

MammaMia 06-07-2010 09:45 PM


Originally Posted by I'mJustMe (Post 2389260)
Lol, Helen, because of your DP, I imagine you as a little stick person sat at your computer.

Haha. That amused me greatly.


Originally Posted by I'mJustMe (Post 2389266)
You're not alone Helen, you have all of us and others in your life who do care about you. I know it doesn't feel like it, I don't feel like it (that people care about me that is), but they do (care about you). Right, did you make sense of that?

*Hugs Jill back and Helen. No more arms. Damn. Group hug*

I know I'm not alone. I just feel like it because of my best friend going. I know it's daft as other people care about me too. I did make sense of it :D *hugs you both*


Originally Posted by I'mJustMe (Post 2389270)
Sorry for taking up another post, but I am worried about my mental health. I was suicudal ten minutes ago, and now I'm fine. Does anyone know anything about bipolar disorder...? Mind, I don't have manic highs, just the biggest mood swings...that might be more to do with my time of the month. But then, I'm always like this, even when I don't have my woman issues.

That's quite worrying, do you have any professional support??????

PoisonedApple 06-07-2010 09:48 PM

April is probably a good one to ask Lia. Sorry not more helpful but she's the only person that comes to mind right at the second that could give you more info.
You aren't alone Helen, we care and we're here.
Jill, are you fine or f.i.n.e.?

I'mJustMe 06-07-2010 09:48 PM

Great. Thanks, that's reassuring.

I'm weird like that. No, I don't and I don't plan to get any as I am only 16, the mother would have to get involved and never will I go there.

You don't seem fine Jill. I know 'nothing' I am an expert on 'nothing' and 'fine'. ANyway, the word fine is banned, it's 'bang-tidy' :)


shadowedsoul 06-07-2010 10:01 PM

Yeah I know fine is banned sorry. just don't know what to say on how I'm feeling. Forget about me,it's you I'm more worried about.

I'mJustMe 06-07-2010 10:05 PM

Don't worry about me. I'm...bang-tidy. Ish.

Common side effects of other mood stabilizing medications include:
  • Mood swings < What's the point in that then?!

shadowedsoul 06-07-2010 10:10 PM

Hmm okay I will believe you. =p that seams a bit backward and stuiped. Shutting up now.

I'mJustMe 06-07-2010 10:23 PM

You don't have to shut up. What do you believe me on?


shadowedsoul 06-07-2010 10:29 PM

That your bang tidy. Idk

I'mJustMe 06-07-2010 10:56 PM

I'm just confused. I've thought I have depression for ages, I have all the symptoms, but not these mood swings have been thrown in as well. I can go from being suicidal to fine, almost happy even, in a matter of minutes. But I don't have manic highs, and my mood switches by the hour, not weeks. Sometimes I will have a period of day where I am happy for no apparent reason, but not enough for it to be a problem and I'm not doing anything wild, just not as sad.


shadowedsoul 06-07-2010 11:06 PM

Huggles Hun, wish I knew how to help. =\

PoisonedApple 06-07-2010 11:08 PM

I think that's called fast cycling... or something like that. not all bipolar people have the same speed of transition from one mood to the next some only do a full cycle once or twice a year with other far more frequently, like throughout a day or week...

I'mJustMe 06-07-2010 11:13 PM

So no one's going to tell me I'm being thick and of course there's nothing wrong with me...? Well, I know they would be lying.

*Hugs Jill back* Ergh, why do I have to be crazy? No offence everyone else.


shadowedsoul 06-07-2010 11:48 PM

hmm wish I could say how I'm feeling, but I can't even explain it to myself ugh

shadowedsoul 07-07-2010 12:31 AM

Hmm that felt better, happy mask back on now, I'm okay now have written that.

PoisonedApple 07-07-2010 12:35 AM

*comes in and blinks in confusion*
I'm glad you're feeling better but now that you've written what?

shadowedsoul 07-07-2010 12:39 AM

Hmm just wrote how I trully feel then edited it out can't say how I'm feeling not really to scared I guess. Sorry for the confusion.

Scarletdreamer 07-07-2010 12:43 AM

Lia: about bipolar - I am diagnosed as either bipolar II or bipolar NOS (not otherwise specified)... not sure which as I've not asked my NP in awhile what my exact dx is. Anyway, someone who is bipolar can have moodswings that are not manic... I mean, it would still be called being either manic or hypomanic (hypo = "below" which I am sure you know) which means that the highs & lows aren't so huge. Only a professional can manage diagnosing which one it is... but to me it sounds like you're going through a mixed episode. That means that you're feeling both "manic" (or "agitated") and low/depressed... I'm currently in a "dysphoric state" - which means that I'm in an agitated hypomanic state. Guhhhh. Am I making any sense here? I'm sorry if I've missed much, do you have any questions that I can answer?? *hugs*

Sorry for the lack of other individual replies - but good to see you, JK. *cuddles*

I saw my NP and we're switching me off Abilify... guhhh... onto Tegretol and Invega (sp??). Am scared. And am suicidal, and really want to cut. And purge. And basically self destruct.


Scarletdreamer 07-07-2010 12:44 AM

Jill, I saw what you wrote before you edited it and I think you need to go talk with someone IRL if you can... *hugs tight* We don't want to lose you... please try & stay safe.

Oh and Lia, an "r/v" is a ranting/venting thread. Found in the ranting/venting forums - the link is in my sig ("//My Venting Spot\\").

*cuddles everyone*

shadowedsoul 07-07-2010 12:59 AM

**** sorry April,shouldn't have wrote that. Needed to get out howi felt when no one was around. I'm sorry hun. I can't tell anyone in reall life, I know that sound pathetic and stuiped.

risenfromperdition 07-07-2010 01:35 AM

blaaah. *glares at father*

he was too tired to drive me to group tonight... and he asked me in the car after he picked me up from walking as my ankle was dyinggg if it was a COE group... uhhh no its ed in general... and he said he was talking to my cousin bout me (:/) and she said that [she had coe] what helped was going to overeaters anonymous... but i dont overeat... only when been not eating all day and then not really overeating :/ and i cant believe he was talking to my cousin about me :s and i hate that just becuz im fat he thinks i should go to overeaters anonymous... and isnt gonna be as helpful cuz i dont eat that much and never for the 'typical' reasons so..

[sorry for the repeat laura ><]

i just... cant stand this.

xxjuliexx 07-07-2010 01:59 AM

heather ur not fat hunny *offers hugs* ur beautiful

risenfromperdition 07-07-2010 02:12 AM

hah i am but thanks <3

how're youuu

xxjuliexx 07-07-2010 02:13 AM


Originally Posted by HorseRidinBbe07 (Post 2389707)
hah i am but thanks <3

mwhahaha u agreed with me that ur beautiful yay

risenfromperdition 07-07-2010 02:29 AM

*scowl* :P
*lets you win cuz i tired*

wolfos3d 07-07-2010 08:23 AM

Hi everyone. Hope you are all doing okay. Sorry I haven't been very talkative. Been feeling really low recently. I even had to force myself to play WoW a couple of days ago. :(
I'm so behind on schoolwork again too. I have heaps of chem work due in a weeks time and I can't concentrate on it at all. I was also supposed to have a bio project finished a week and a half ago. I'm still trying to work up the bawls to go see the doctor too. I've got no idea what to say to them. I'm not gonna pass this year if things don't improve though. Ugh.
Sorry for ranting guys. I've got heaps on my mind right now. *huggles to peoples*

Kahlia1981 07-07-2010 09:36 AM

*hugs/waves at all*

April: - Invega - is that paliperadone (sp?) ? If so watch out for the same type of "food" effects that you would get from Risperidone and Haliperidol. The drugs are extremely chemically similar. Risperdal for me chemically switched off my ability to feel full and chemically increased my appetite. - Not saying it will happen, just warning you to keep an eye out. But as with all new drugs keep a journal or something for the first little while to see how you go. All the atypical antipyschotics react differently with you as you'd know already. Sorry, not meaning to pry or be a doomsayer - just wanting to make sure you keep track of anything "unusual".

Sorry to everyone else for the lack of individual replies. I didn't feel able to say anything helpful to anyone, but wanted to say that to April. *feels bad*

I made it to my psychiatrist. As I said in my last post - some 2.5 pages ago. I got up at 3 am this morning because I was freaking out about it. I had 4 mg of xanax before I left the unit to get on the bus. I made it through the appointment and the doc put me on a beta-blocker with a regime to increase it from one to three tablets over the next six days and to contact him in a week (by email). Then he'll decide the next step, contact in another week, again he'll decide and I see him the week after.

The good news is that at this stage he doesn't think that it is related to either mood or psychosis. But he does think that the DID alters might get a chance to come through if we don't get it under control. So we're really fighting a battle against time.

I had to stop by a chemist before I could come home so had another 2 mg of xanax as I had to go to a big shopping centre and it's school holidays. I came home afterwards, had a smoke and crashed out for like four hours. Heh. My housemate told me I had to try and stay awake until I got off the bus (I rang him from the shops). Thankfully I did.


CrazyHayley 07-07-2010 10:40 AM

bloody hell it was busy after I was payin attention in here yesterday! I had to give up with computer time as reggie was causing absolute havoc. He is currently in his hutch and I am set up in my bedroom, cos if he can see me then he chews at the bars to come out and I feel VERY guilty!!

I'll try and read through whats gone on a bit later, my head feels a little clearer today, but rather than spend my day on here, which is tempting, whilst Reggie is chilling out in his hutch I think I'd better do some housework as my flat is starting to fester...eww... then a bit more quality time with Reggie and hopefully then I can spend some time online guilt free.

Huggles and snuggles and waves and hi fives!! Take your pick which ones you'd like!!

shadowedsoul 07-07-2010 10:44 AM

Urgh I already want to curl up and hide and it's only the start of the day. Wearing this happy mask is so triering.meh.

Doikers 07-07-2010 11:17 AM

Oh Hey *HUGGLES JK* I haven't seen you in too long ! Sorry.I'm struggling tbh :( Grrr . How are you doing?

*Group hugs*

CrazyHayley 07-07-2010 11:45 AM

boo! I spy a mark! *huggles*

Well my kitchen is now sparkling clean and I've put laundry on. My back is now killing me however, so I've taken extra pain meds and I'm going to have a lie down before I attempy anything else...even playing with Reggie...luckily he's sleeping at the moment so I don't feel too bad. Gosh, I struggle to cope with a bunny rabbit, this just proves that I'm so not capable of having children. To those of you who have kids, my hat goes off top you and I think you should all get a medal!!

rest time then....*goes and lays down on special matress for her back in a corner out of the way*

Scarletdreamer 07-07-2010 11:55 AM

Good morning everyone... *huggles to all*

Sorry for the lack of epic responses... but I did want to say to Kahlia that yes, it is paliperidone. Thanks for the reminder - I was on risperdal a looong time ago, but I didn't remember that about it. I'm worried about Tegretol though, since doesn't it have weight gain side effects?? I haven't looked up side effects yet... :-S I'm scared to. Of course, Abilify has side effects like that and I haven't noticed any weight gain... guuhhh... sorry if that was triggering to any of you, didn't intend it. :-/ Am already fat anyway. :(

Today's gonna be a finish-up-my-internship-report, go-to-therapy, and clean-up-the-apartment day. Ughhh. Busy. Really need to get that internship report done though... only have one thing left to say in it and that shouldn't take too long... whew.


Gonna go have breakfast I guess... really am not hungry. :'(

Kahlia1981 07-07-2010 12:44 PM

April: carbamazapine (tegretol) can have that affect in some people and sometimes
The following content has been hidden - Reason : womens issue
lactation without the baby
. Sorry just hid that so you didn't have to see if didn't want to. A lot of the atypicals state "weight gain" as well as extrapyramidal and so forth - but I feel if you go into it prepared you are always better off.

*offers everyone hugs*

Scarletdreamer 07-07-2010 12:53 PM

Thanks for the info, Kahlia. >_< Hopefully that doesn't happen to me. Guhhh... I HATE STARTING NEW MEDS. Something bad always seems to happen with them. Especially 2 at once - not wise IMHO but oh well. :(

I feel like **** right now. So anxious, so worried, so scared. Gonna go update my r/v I think...

*hides in a hole*

shadowedsoul 07-07-2010 01:07 PM

Urgh!!!! can't be assed with today, feel very tierd really want to curl up and sleep. bloody customers bloody kid, I really hate school hoildays.

Doikers 07-07-2010 01:44 PM

April , you are NOT fat !! I've seen pictures!!
*Hugs* I read your R/V thread * Extra Hug*

shadowedsoul 07-07-2010 02:45 PM

Sorry for being so whiney today. I just can't handle this today smiling but I feel really low and the littlest thing is setting me off. Just want to curl up and hide. Sorry

CrazyHayley 07-07-2010 03:52 PM

Jill don't apologise for having a whine, that's what's so great about this place, you can be yourself and let it all out and we all understand. Wish I could help more when you and others are struggling so much *huggles*

hmm, I've not achieved as much as I'd hoped for so far today, though I've fitted in two unplanned naps!...over an hour and half each!! Whoops, still feel like I could sleep more, and I've had 3 coffees 2diet colas and 3pro plus throughout today so far. Though the extra pain meds earlier would have made me a little dopey. I think some more caffiene is needed to takle the cleaning of my bathroom next! Poor Reggie's only had 3hours out of his hutch so far today, I'll make it up to him later....if I can stay awake!

*leaves appropriate tlc for all*
*toddles off to clean the bathroom via a visit to the smoking shelter*

CrazyHayley 07-07-2010 04:49 PM

Hello - well bathroom is cleaned and I think I've caught up on most of what I didn't manage to read earlier. Please forgive me for lack of individual replies but my brain isn't up to that still. Although saying that, one thing did stick in my mind, which I'm sure you can understand why, so I wanted to say...

Crimson - your poor brother-in-law! That is a mammoth tour of duty, I shall never complain again about Eoghan only having a few months between his Iraq and Afghanistan tours or the fact that he's away for 6and a half months (though remind me I said that in a few!!) That's an awful strain for him and all of your family. Please tell me that he at least gets some RnR in that time?!! It makes me think of extending my prayers, I sometimes forget about the other countries troops fighting alongside the british when saying my prayers at night, bad bad hayley-rose! PM me if you ever need to, not just on army afghan stuff, as I know you've so much else going on too at the mo.

That goes for anyone, PM me, I may not always be able to help, but I like to think that I am a good listenener (or reader as the case may be, lol)

ho-hum, time to let the adorable nightmare out! Check back in a bit later. TTFN!

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