holy **** it is beyond pouring outside

*pokes head in*
*cuddles april* well some people think i have infinite patience, david knows otherwise but eh *shrugs* i manage but most who live with me too long start thinking i'm a total bitch but i have ocd and if you rearrange my set up every time you put dishes away hell yes i'm gonna get pissed and vocal about it... long story short most people who've lived with me don't talk to me much anymore... i still can't decide if that bothers me or not. though juggling the things i need to do is harder than the people in my place...

i dont think ur a bitch angelic_monster
if there is away u like things put away i think it's ok but i can see both sides of it

I'm so scared. Someone keeps calling me from a private number & hanging up when I answer. It's gone 1am ffs.

*offers hugs to helen*
can u take it off the hook

It's on my mobile, could turn it off, seems to have stopped though?

turn it off or put it on silent thats wat i'd do

It's on vibrate anyway lol. Going to try sleep soon anyway, so exhausted & need to shut up my head.

*tucks helen in*

i ate soup and toast for lunch today:notsure:

*curls up in corner and sniffles*

good job julie =]

heather *huggles*

*pokes head in and sets out some cuddles on the table*

*curls up* :notsure: :notsure: :crying: :crying:

Hey Wardmates :)
I'm waiting for my houseing support worker to show , 10 more minites(spelling?) , we have to sort out this E-on over-billing me still going on *Sigh*, I have put on to much weight in the past week and a half and now some of my tops are too tight , need to lose weight (Sensibly) but fast . I eat a large banana for breakfast , thats good for you .

*Hugs Julie* How are you tonight?

mum thinks it's flu

Oh Yuck , I hope you are taking it easy ? I hate being sick *Makes Julie some Hot Lemon and Honey drink*

:crying: i hate being sick to i'm in bed now tho

Oh good , It's good to rest when you're sick , I hope you sleep well and feel better tomorrow :)

*Spots a Hayley and Hugs*

*curls up in bed blinking sleepily*

*huggles Mark back* yes, I was toddling round the ward catching up with everyone when you spotted me! Has your SW been yet? I really hope this Eon malarky can be sorted out once and for all, its not fair on you that its been messed up this long!

So wardies, gosh a lot can happen in an evening and night, I had planned on checking back in after my WoW but I got carried away playing until its was meds and bedtime. I'm having a pj day today, I should be doing things but my M.E symptoms have flared up again, my own fault for doing too much. I'd hoped I could just push myself a few more days, but if I don't rest up today I'll be far worse tomorrow and I don't plan on spending another birthday feeling ****.

I'll prob pop in and out of the common room a few times today, as my M.E symptoms allow.

*goes around the ward to give appropriate huggles/waves/tlc/comforting aids/calorie free snacks to all her fellow wardies*

EDIT: oh Julie - I didn't spy you so didn't realise you were still up. Hope that you manage to get some sleep. Sleep is important for your body to be able to repair itself when you're ill. *special get well huggles*

Hey Hayley :) I'm still waiting for me Housing SW to show , he is half an hour late and his phone is off ,I left a message , I might ring the office hmmmm. I really want to try and sort out the E-on "Bill" :S

Edit:
I rang the office but no answer , I better not go out because I might have gotten the time wrong but I don't think I did, I wrote on my calender whilst he was still here last week. hmmm

OOH OH! Whens your birthday Hayley ? I hope you have a nice restful day today in your P.J's

i am trying to sleep i am

So Tomorrow I have a Medical with the Benefits people that I have been told I HAVE to attend , it's to decide who is entitled to benefits and weed out those you are cheating the system . My social worker is going to take me and do all the talking but still I'm not happy about it , My SW is sure I am entitled to my benefits . I just feel like they are saying "you are guilty , come to the medical to prove you're not" Hmmmm .
Anyway I'd like to ask for Prayers from those of you who pray and general positive thoughts for tomorow at 1pm UK time , I hope it's ok to ask . I'm bricking it / numb so hard to describe .....

*prods my brain so words work* support for u markie

*I Spot An April!! Sneaks up and HUGS!*

:) Thankyou Julie .

Gahh I still really don't feel well... didn't sleep well AT ALL last night, and am wondering if I should go in to work today. There are meetings I should be attending but I really don't know... :-S I'm going to call my supervisor in a little bit to ask her if I should come in... :-S

So yeah. I hate being ill. Julie, love, how are you feeling? *hugs*

*cuddles Mark* Sorry about the whole Eon thing, that's gotta be really effing frustrating!! In fact, I know it is, because you've said so. I wish I could help somehow... it would make me paranoid if it felt like they were following me around waving bills at me that I shouldn't have to pay. Sorry if that seemed patronizing because it wasn't meant to be. :-S

I just want to go back to bed, damnit!! :'(

Oh! *hugs Mark back* :D

Oh, and I forgot Hayley... again!! :o So sorry, love, am truly not meaning to leave you out!! I hope that your M.E. symptoms aren't too bad today, and that you can function alright... how's WoW going? Also, how's the "sanity shot" working? :D *cuddles*

Hmm I guess I'll just have to wait regarding the E-on "bill" .My housing SW didn't show up , or is over 2 hours late ,his phone went straight to messageing and there was no reply at the office , Hmmm ,I'm sorry you had a rough night :( you changed your avatar! :) I quite like it , not that I didn't like the old one ...

JK!! I spots you! How are you feeling tonight? *Hugs*

I spot JK too!! *cuddles* How are you doing, love? (Oh, and those were and are always germ-free cuddles, in case anyone's wondering!! :P)

I'm sorry about your housing support worker not showing up, Mark. That sucks. :( So unreliable!! :( *hugs* And yep I did change my avvy, seemed to fit my mood pretty well at the time so I changed it. :) Glad you like it.

I just called my supervisor and she's to call me back & let me know if I'm going in at all today. :-S I'm quite nervous about that... I don't really want to go in as I feel quite ill but at the same time, I also don't want to miss those meetings. :( I feel like a bad intern, but I can't help getting sick!! I even sound awful on the phone, and I probably shouldn't go to those meetings if I'm coughing/hacking/wheezing/sniffling/sneezing, right? :-S

Anyway. *hides in a warm hole as she is cold at the moment* :o

Hey Mark, crap actually! Also a bit fluey, no sleep last night and came to the marital home tonight as my ex is away and decided it was a good idea to listen to some of his iTune playlists, which it turns out was a very bad idea and completely lost it and cut :( Bet you wish you hadn't asked :D

Good luck for your appointment, must be soon huh, I'm hoping to be asleep shortly so will do a wee bedtime "prayer" for you.

Helen, I'm worried about you hun cos I don't know what's going on and you don't seem good *hugs tight*

Healthy hugs to April and Julie, being sick really sucks on top of everything else.

Waves to Hayley and Crimson and Laura and all the other lovely people here who I haven't mentioned in my relatively shitty state this evening.

xx

*turns up Everybody Hurts by REM*
*sighs*

April , like you said , you can't help getting sick so I'm sure that everything will be okay with your supervisor . I'm sure they woulden't want to get your cold because you attended those meetings. *Hugs April with a warming hug*

Oh JK , I'm sorry you are feeling crap and had no sleep ,Please look after your cut, (I Know you know that but just checking) and be kind to yourself generally. I hope your fluey symptoms don't come to anything serious and I hope you sleep better tonight *Huggles*

*cuddles JK* Aw sweetie, I'm sorry you're feeling ill and also cut on top of that... I'm also sorry that you got triggered in the first place. :( Please take care of the cut, as Mark said I know you already know that but just making sure... and try and take the best care of yourself that you can, okay? *more cuddles*

*curls up next to Mark* You're probably right, they wouldn't want me to expose people to germs... lol... and it wouldn't make a good impression if I - the new intern - kept interrupting the meetings with coughs and sniffles and a runny nose!! haha... :-S I still don't know though, as my supervisor hasn't called me back. GRRR on her. Oh and I checked out your toon on WoW, I think you need a bit more green gear as that might help your chances with survival. You only have one piece of green gear - the one with +3 strength on it - and I think that maybe more green gear would help with you surviving in Westfall as you're high enough level to. You probably just need more armor and need to get rid of the greys that you are wearing. Sorry, just some advice. I know you're short on cash at the moment, kind of, especially for buying from the AH (auction house), but still, maybe try and make some by selling leatherworked items on the AH (if they're greens) and go from there? Just a thought, sorry if it's not welcome!! :-S

*hides in her hole again* :-S

I totally apprciate your WoW advice April , Umm can you e-mail me and tell me how I know if armour is green ? and tell me what I'm wearing now is green , I didn't know anything about this green armour until you mentioned it , sorry to hijack this thread with WoW stuff :s

Just popped you off an email. :) *huggles*

Sorry for hijacking the thread with WoW-speak... lol. :-S

My supervisor still has not got in touch with me about work... so I'm at home and in my "comfy clothes" - a pair of uni sweats and a Twilight tshirt. :) Yey. I am a little worried though about the lack of contact... I mean, I called about 1042983473 different times and left one message, no response yet, I really don't know what to do. :(

*hides in her hole again* :'(

Wow , you called 1042983473 times ! Thats commitment :) Hmmm I hope they get in touch with you soon , thanks for the e-mail * pops off to read it*

Lol... yes... I am indeed committed. ;)

You're welcome for the email. :) Hope it helps some, sorry if the stuff about the AH was confusing!!

I spy an Oliver!! *tackle hugs* How are you?

*tackles April back* I'm ill, mainly hayfever, but also feel sick :(
How are you doing?

*hugs mark* I hope stuff with the bills and companies gets sorted soon.

*cuddles all who want cuddles*

*cuddles Oliver* Hope you feel better soon, being ill is no fun. I'm sick right now too with a vicious cold, it really sucks. :(

I'm doing okay. I just called my internship place for the 28762342 time and FINALLY got someone on the other end... lol... so I am staying home today and doing work... which is good... and resting. This is the 3rd day in a row that I'm staying home from work, so I feel bad about that, but oh well... :-S

Mark, did my email help?

I spy a Taz!! *tackle hugs* (germ-free hugs always!!) How are you, love?

Missed another 5 pages, going to attempt individual replies but if I miss anyone I'm extremely sorry =/

*hugs Mark* sorry to hear your SW didn't show up :( Is this the same one who kept calling on the day of and changing your meeting? (You were talking about it many pages ago... or a few pages ago... I don't know, my mind is mush. Maybe it's somebody completely different ><) OH And to answer one of your other questions - I love having my r/v thread. I can post about whatever's on my mind, not have to worry about dealing with any rude replies (not that any would get through without the mods seeing them at least), and people can either choose to read it, or not. And with the replies being blocked, it's not like I can see my rambling being ignored. Does that make sense? I don't know ><

*hugs April* Ahhh **** I forget what I was going to post in response to you :( I may check back and edit this if it comes to me. But you're never pathetic, or useless, or any other bad comments you might tell yourself :) You are incredible. Don't forget it. Oh, and in response to your latest post... nothing wrong with staying home, as long as you're getting work done :D

*hugs Kat and throws more confetti* That's awesome :D Hell, I can't even seem to make it a week, let alone a month.

*hugs Hels* :( *super squishy tackle-style hug* I'm sorry something is bothering you that much hun, but I hope you haven't given in to the urges yet. You're so much stronger than that!

*hugs Julie* Did you end up making it to your fitness classes? If you were that ill, probably a wise decision to stay home and try to feel better faster =/

*hugs Heather*

*hugs JK*

*hugs Oliver* Ick, hayfever sucks :(

*hugs Hayley*

*hugs Crimson*

Okay... I think I got everyone. =/ If not... well, give me crap.

*gets a broom to clean up all the left over confetti mess*

My sister noticed my arms again... she told me she knows it's not from the dog. But she's only 13 (turning 14 next month) and I don't know how much I should even bother telling her... Other than that, my mind is just a big jumbled mess. Short version is that I'm STILL paranoid that everyone who knows about my current situation with the meds/counseling/etc. thinks I'm faking it all, because I've been so good at covering it up and being "normal". I'm just hiding out in my room right now, don't even want to leave.

I think your e-mail helped , I need to look at it again and quickly look at my armour in game to compare , but thankyou for going out of your way to help me, I really really appreciate it :)

*Hugs Oliver back*

Ohh Taz , I can totally identify with not wanting to leaving the room *Hugs*
No it's a different worker who didn't come today hmmm, And thankyou for your take on the R/V thread business ! thanks to everyone who replied about that , very helpful , I need to mull it over now. *Mulls*

*hugs Mark* Oh okay. I kinda figured I may have gotten confused with it, but I knew you had mentioned about somebody canceling on you. Sounds like crap to deal with honestly :(

My dad is upstairs. I should go up now, while he's busy on the phone. I don't want to get into a long conversation with him. I just want everyone IRL to leave me alone...

Hey peeps, well In watched "Hairsrpray" on dvd this morning and then spent another few hours asleep. I'm trying to figure out at the moment what to do to take my mind off of the crappy feelings from my M.E sysmptoms but not to make any others worse. I want to play WoW but not sure my brain or eyes are up to being on the laptop for more than just a short period of time. I'd probable get carried away and go on there til I'm cross eyed with a banging headache...

Oh and I'm 29 tomorrow. I have plans, kind of, but right now I feel like cancelling them, I think thats due to feeling crappy with my M.E though, I hope the sanity injection is working....

*hugs everyone lots in the ward*

I'm so over this >_> Urges are getting fricking intense again. Maybe I should get my boyfriend to come over :'( He knows about yesterday and told me I should phoned him, he would dropped everything including work to come over. ****ing bollocks. Although my sister is popping in soon, so that'll make me wait. But then I have to go out a couple hours later on. My Dad would know something was seriously wrong I'm sure.

Why am I so anxious? Well I think it's related to worrying about my best friend. She's in a bad place. I kinda blame myself partially for. However, I think I know what may have caused it aswell.

LOL, I had to go upto the hospital earlier as desperately needed some hearing aid batteries, couldn't help but think how I nearly ended up in there yesterday as it is. I hate going there, brings many bad memories :/ Bollocks I'm welling up with ****ing tears. My other best hasn't replied to my texts either. Getting so ****ing pissed off about people ignoring my texts, I think it's because I'm so needy at the moment? My mind is so destructive at the moment, wow =]

Bollocks. Bollocks. BOLLOCKS!!!!!!!!!!

*hides and cries*

It probably wouldn't bother me so much if it was just something got misplaced... I'd probably just move it. It's when they take the whole stack of plates and all the cups out of the cabinet so they can swap their placement for example that makes me irate. I personally don't think this makes me a bitch but that's the way everyone else percieves it is I'm just being an unreasonable bitch. But to quote Dr. Suess... "Those that mind don't matter and those that matter don't mind."

*huggles everyone in the ward and leaves extra cuddle packs on the table*