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Biba 25-05-2009 08:08 PM

I dont see the point, i didnt fall sleep till after 6.30am. when i got up at 11, i felt so crap i went back to bed, i got back up and made a second attempt, my mind knows were on my body, it doesnt have to search any more. with that thought i became so sick of that thought within me that i went back to bed.. i was tired (phisically).. and tired of the thoughts that if , carried through by me, will then turn to shame after, and i will then wake with shame and carry it through my day.. i had another nightmare after i fell asleep. I got up at 7pm, my brother came in and jokinly said 'what are you doing.. get back to bed' lol.. he asked me would i look after his sons, while he goes to work.. i said yes.. now il be making more effort tonight..

zowie 25-05-2009 08:15 PM

I will be drinking beer and wine tonight. Hopefully I will pass out.

youonlyliveonce 25-05-2009 08:23 PM

sick and tired of fighting why does it allways have to be so hard might aswell just get wasted and give up .... :(

Biba 25-05-2009 11:49 PM

im while down in me, i cant shake this, everthing is a huge effort, it's like i dont wanna see any one, i dont want them to look/talk to me. im not ansering phone calls, replyn text messages, im finding it all to much, were's it all gonna end... if i had it my way.. id go back to bed, and not get up for days.. and see no one for weeks. . they're to much... back off me !!

Biba 26-05-2009 04:19 AM

my spirit has once again lifted .. its 4.15am.. i have to be up at 7.30am... il be working on this.. till it gets better.

special hugs to 'wildyinsane' and 'secrets' dont be afraid shake me when i need shaking.

realflifefaerie 26-05-2009 08:53 AM

*hugs Lucy* I hope getting up this morning wasnt too painful.

*hugs cheryl* don't give up, one day it'll be worth it.

I still feel rubbish today, I was hoping it would begin to lift. I just want it to go away and the shakes to stop

Kahlia1981 26-05-2009 08:54 AM

*hugs all she can find*
*waves welcomes at the new people*

My wrist got replastered today so I'm struggling to type. Love to all.

youonlyliveonce 26-05-2009 09:40 AM

goes and sits under the table and rocks am absolutely pooing myself today dont wanna do it

Biba 26-05-2009 10:41 AM

it's all good. the centre took my mum for the day. and i get to spend the day with tom, i have everyone dropped off were they should be, and heading out of town for couple of hours.

ravynsoul 26-05-2009 11:05 AM

*hugs all* Welcome to those new here... hopefully you feel at home.
I can't believe how fast time is flying... it's nearly June already... where did the first half of the year go?

zowie 26-05-2009 01:25 PM

Why wont it let me see the next page?

zowie 26-05-2009 01:25 PM

Oh. There it is. :)

shadowedseraph 26-05-2009 02:04 PM

Hey Jade i'm still feeling like ***** warmed over but i still havent cut which for me is a small mirical

youonlyliveonce 26-05-2009 02:38 PM

so failed that exam.

zowie 26-05-2009 03:16 PM

*Hugs Cheryl* Maybe you didn't do as bad as you think you did. And if you didn't do well, is there any chance of a re-take?

My grandad drove me up to a pub with a vacancy so I could apply, but the job's just gone. I left my CV with them, but I'm starting to think I'll never get a job.

Left in the centre 26-05-2009 03:50 PM

hey guys. mind if i join in. on like the 882nd page.
im feeling crap so fancied "checking in"

getting a job is difficult especily at this time of year, keep trying
x

Long*Past 26-05-2009 04:03 PM

haven't made a check up in a couple days, been super busy, but I'm in Prince Rupert, up north doing my singing thing, and I'm performing today, wish me luck.

MammaMia 26-05-2009 05:37 PM

*leaves cuddles for all those whom want one or few :)*

realflifefaerie 26-05-2009 06:07 PM

*hides in a corner*

I dont want tomorrow, I want sleep and thats it

MammaMia 26-05-2009 06:23 PM

Hugs secrets, want to talk about what's tomorrow??

realflifefaerie 26-05-2009 06:28 PM

Exams and ther crazy stuff, its just gonna be a really busy day and right now i dont have the energy

Biba 26-05-2009 06:33 PM

secerts i wish you the best of luck in your exams *

realflifefaerie 26-05-2009 06:53 PM

Thanks. Ive managed to get food in me which will hopefully help. I just have to keep it together until tomorrow lunch time

zowie 26-05-2009 07:14 PM

I'm babysitting my little sister tonight. But my dad's going to give me some money for wine, maybe not tonight, but I like drinking :)

zowie 26-05-2009 08:56 PM

Why does he say he wants to marry me and then starts ****ing a seventeen year old girl?
I wish I didn't still love him.

shadowedseraph 26-05-2009 09:19 PM

*hugs zowie*

Strawberry.Bananas 26-05-2009 10:00 PM

I can't handle this guys. Any of it. Everything's going wrong, and there's nothing I can do. Well, there's one thing I can do...but I don't want to. Not this time. But what other choice do I have? I can't cope. Nothing helps. I can't do it anymore.

Long*Past 26-05-2009 10:54 PM

Ugh! I did so bad!
I don't want to talk about it with my mom, because I know she'll tell me,
"You did wonderfully, Ashley."
Even though I know I didn't.
Ugh...

realflifefaerie 27-05-2009 08:12 AM

Sorry guys, just a quick drop in to offer hugs. I will try to reply individually tomorrow. Am trying not to freak.

*hugs and blankies*

Kahlia1981 27-05-2009 09:12 AM

*offers hugs to all*

My hand is super itchy under the cast .....

wildly insane 27-05-2009 09:33 AM

*hugs you all, everybody*

good luck to everybody having exams, Secrets YAY for eating :)

sorry to hear you don't feel you did well Ashley, next time I'm sure you'll ace it, we can't be brilliant all the time :)

Arwen, you will find a job, I know it sucks, but you gotta keep trying

*hugs to all the new guys, offers tea and ginger cake*

will start writing individually again but have too much to catch up on right now, so I just hope that you all get through the day okay and keep fighting.

I had a lovely time visiting my friend. I saw wild dolphins :)

realflifefaerie 27-05-2009 12:06 PM

*curls up in the corner and cries*

MammaMia 27-05-2009 03:32 PM

*curls up and dies*

Tears of Solitude 27-05-2009 04:12 PM

Good luck to everyone who has exams and last min Assignments to do xxx

Im sorry Im not supporting today but I feel totally washed out and very very low :(

Im not sure if its being half on one med and half on another until I totally swap in a couple of weeks time.

Love Jade xxx

MammaMia 27-05-2009 04:25 PM

You know I'm always here for you Jade. Love you sweetie, you'll be okay, you got me and everyone in here on your side I'm sure :D It's going to be tough but ok xx

Biba 28-05-2009 01:27 AM

secrets... you worked hard towards these exams.. so try and relax and try not to be sressed i know its hard iv been there.. just put in the effort that u done and dont give in...
i used to love exam time... the whole... oooo jesus effect lol

Long*Past 28-05-2009 07:06 AM

****! I HATE traveling!
Especially with my Gran!

So I haven't been able to cry over having done less than perfect on Tuesday, and so I've been a little short tempered.
Today I just happened to snap because I felt like I was being interrogated and prodded for information,
so I flew off the handle a little bit.
It wasn't even that bad.
I just got really tense and was like "I don't wanna do this! I just want to frikkin eat! I don't want to be interrogated!"
And suddenly to my Gran, I became an ungrateful, selfish little girl, in her words.
So me and mom went and talked about stuff and sorted that out,
and I was able to cry about my performing,
and I come back into the hotel room, and Gran's still bitching.

Lucky me, I still have two days' car ride with her...

Kahlia1981 28-05-2009 07:56 AM

My bone in my wrist is definitely broken so it's a cast for me for about 2 months. Therefore I'll only be writing little bits but I'll be reading everything.

*offers hugs to all*

wildly insane 28-05-2009 09:08 AM

*hugs Ashley* good luck with your gran and all your performances

*hugs Kalia* hope you are okay and I hope the wrist isn't too much hassle

*hugs Secrets* good luck in those exams, take a deep breath and don't panic, you can do this

*hugs Lucy* how are you?

*hugs Helen* hope things are better today

*hugs Jade* was the apprentice fun ;)

*hugs to anyone else dropping by or hiding in a corner*

gotta dash a million and one things to do :P

Lost_Girl 28-05-2009 09:19 AM

*IS NEW HERE*

Can't stop crying, wraps my arms around my self imagining it was her- or someone that cared enough to never leave me no matter how insane i am.

my issues all untreated by proffessional help
eating issues
cutting
borderline personality disorder
anxiety
ocd

I dont trust doctors thats why i came to this web page. I dont want to get locked up for real- i have a fear or being volnirable to others.

*sits rocking in the corner crying feeling very alone*

Lost_Girl 28-05-2009 09:31 AM

*BANGS HEAD ON WALL*

I HATE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I FEEL LIKE MY HEAD IS GOING TO EXPLODE!

why cant she just be there? WHY DOES SHE HAVE TO PUSH ME AWAY.

wildly insane 28-05-2009 09:39 AM

Hello Lost Girl *offers a hug* who's pushing you away? loneliness is one of the most horrible emotions to deal with, but you are not alone.

Lost_Girl 28-05-2009 09:44 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by wildly insane (Post 1647672)
Hello Lost Girl *offers a hug* who's pushing you away? loneliness is one of the most horrible emotions to deal with, but you are not alone.

my girlfriend =(

wildly insane 28-05-2009 09:49 AM

*hugs* relationships are tough, have you tried talking to her about it? Is she struggling with things too?

Lost_Girl 28-05-2009 09:50 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by wildly insane (Post 1647684)
*hugs* relationships are tough, have you tried talking to her about it? Is she struggling with things too?

I have tried talking to her and she just tells me whatever and that she doesnt want to talk about it right now :-(

zowie 28-05-2009 09:52 AM

I'm meant to be at a training course in ten minutes. It's at a place which takes me an hour to get to. Whoops. Don't really want to go to it (even though my horoscope literally said 'travel for a training course)!!!
I think I'll call and say it's not for me.
My dad will be annoyed because it's not like I have anything else to do. But this course looks useless. It just says it helps you with CVs and interview skills. Which I'm fine at.

Lost_Girl 28-05-2009 09:57 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by zowie (Post 1647690)
I'm meant to be at a training course in ten minutes. It's at a place which takes me an hour to get to. Whoops. Don't really want to go to it (even though my horoscope literally said 'travel for a training course)!!!
I think I'll call and say it's not for me.
My dad will be annoyed because it's not like I have anything else to do. But this course looks useless. It just says it helps you with CVs and interview skills. Which I'm fine at.

I hate when people say that, "you have nothing better to do", when people tell me that its like you have no idea what I have or want to do- you just know what you would rather me be doing.

lol Im a loser i cant figure out what CVs means =)

wildly insane 28-05-2009 10:06 AM

I hate it when people go "so what DO you want to do?" I don't know because I haven't done it yet doh! CV and interview skills, very useful, but there's only so much they can tell you. *hugs Arwen* your dad sounds a bit like my mum lol.

Lost Girl, CVs are Curriculum Vitaes aka resumes

zowie 28-05-2009 10:09 AM

I called them and said it wasn't for me.
I guess I'll have to fib to my dad and tell him they told me I was off the register because I forgot to come today. He'll still be disappointed, because I always forget appointments, but at least this way he can't say I'm being lazy.
Which I guess I am.

wildly insane 28-05-2009 10:19 AM

sometimes it's the hardest thing in the world just to get motivated to do something, I don't think it's being lazy *hugs*


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