Of course it's not wrong. You're concerned, and want to help out, it's understandable

Can't.

Can't what? MammaMia

Well our housemate that was in ICU has been placed in another part of the hospital. I guess that is a good sign for him. Can't wait till he is home. Will be seeing him tomorrrow so I guess it is good at least he will have more clothes and so forth. I hope the hospital actually does something to help him rather then just sending him home and saying "You'll be fine".

*Hugs for everyone*

Leaves hugs for everyone. Am in Austria at the moment. Skiing with the family, and... quite honestly it's good cause I needed to get away, but bad cause I gotta be with the parents.

Hope everyone's relatively ok.

Mum made an appointment for us to see a psychologist... He's young, apparently. But mum has to pay, which I feel bad for. Not sure what to feel... Kat D feels... uncertain, as do I.

Come to realise I don't want medication for my MPD/DID. I want medication to calm the anger. The anger is the problem. It's not just anger... it's... extreme inhuman rage.

*hugs everyone tight*

x

Struggling :(

Four years. Four years today since my mum died.

*cuddles helen and zowie*

*cuddles Arwen*

We're here for you sweetie, you doing anything special for her?

Arwen- Sorry. Hope the day has gone well *Tght hugs*

Helen- Sorry things are difficult atm *offers supportive hugs*

Just to let all know Kahlia has been admitted to hospital (This has been done at her request) with our other housemate. Am glad she is getting the help she needs. I myself am ready to crash. Night all.

*Leaves fresh white roses and lollies for everyone*

Thx's for letting us know

Send her my get well wishes to her!!! hope she gets out asap!!!

Thanks for letting us know Nicole, I hope she'll be okay and i hope you will also be okay. *snuggles*

Just read through the arrangements for the York choir festival (I'm in my university choir) and am rather excited. Alo thinking of trying to get the osition of Welfare Officer on the Student Unioin at university aswell. :O Meant to be on my way to a lecture right now.

I'm going for a drink with her friends, the people I go to the pub with every weekend. Then me, her best friend, dad and my sister are going up to the place where we spread her ashes. My sister doesn't like the place where we did it, so we're going to get some soil into a vase and spread it around a tree in some pretty public gardens nearby. It's symbolic I guess.

i cant do this anymore.....i am so close to just giving up on everything.....someone just put me out of my misery already!!!! :((

I feel so... uncomfy now... About DID/MPD...

I will let her know of your wishes Jem and Helen.

Helen I wil also pass on the snuggles

*Snuggles back* grr... I want to sleep more than anything. I am thinking that maybe the psycs offer to put me in hospital might have been a good idea then at least I could have some decent sleep. But then my two best friends/ housemates would have no cloths. I just want the pain to end.

*Hugs everyone. Goes to the bed with the denial tent over it and crawls under it*

*Huggles all*

Just want to warn you all that the world will end tomorrow; Katrica and I are meeting up irl <__<;;

Hi everyone,

*cuddles Arwen* today can't have been easy for you, hope you remembered all the good times

*cuddles Helen* hope you are feeling better now

*hugs Nicole* hope you are doing okay give hugs to Kahlia.

Kat and Dayna - have fun tomorrow :)

*hugs caiden* don't give up

I feel so lonely right now, up until now he who shall not be named has texted or e-mailed me every day but he has now decided he does not want contact with me any more (I assume he has a new gf and she doesn't like it) the only people I have I can really talk to about my feelings are you guys . I feel like I am stuck in a vicious cycle and just can't break free. I am exisiting but not living.

*leaves hugs and belated pancakes for everyone*

*curls up in corner for a wee cry*

*Hugs everyone*

been maid of honour for a friend's wedding for the last few days, was so beautiful, I've never seen two people look so happy, it makes me think that maybe it is possible :)

I have to go to work but just wanted to give you all big hugs and hope that things are going ok.

Argh!!!!!! why cant i ever be good enough, why is it all i get i shouted at. god damnit, why do i even try, i know noithing going to change, why bother. i give up. i really do. goes to corner and bangs head on wall, curls up and cries

*leaves ppl some mashmellows and cuddles*

Hope every1 is alrite...stay safe ppl...and *waves*

And yeah...i forgot to add

Katie (Snuffles i think is her username) has found a place to stay and will get access to RYL on wednesday

so YAYNESS for her!!!....we'll have a party when she arrives hehe

*luchtime hugs for all* (or whatever time it is with you)

I'm going ice skating but I'd rather be asleep.

i need the straight jacket cant cope need locking up stressed to the max
to much is going on people letting me down need to be put in a secure wing.

Ice skating used to be the one thing I could do well, and now I can't even do that. I'm so crap.

I HAS A KAT

for gods sake...
Im struggling to get through this coursework...he wants it in tomorrow....hes having a laugh but he's gonna go mental if i dont give him a finished first draft...i dont even know what im writing...
and im so stressed and its getting me down and i cant stop crying.
Ive just got a crap job that I dont even like....but I NEEDED it....because I got fired from my last job because I suck....
and I cant tell my boyfriend...I want to...but the words dont come out because I dont want him to think its HIS fault im unhappy...

help me :'(

*cuddles alexx*

PM me if u wanna talk or frustrate ur angry/emotions/feelings if u wanna..

in the mean time tc of urself and stay positive there!

xx

i am setting up camp here and staying put!!! :'(

Since they wont let me into an actual psych ward, because its just such a bad thing that i want help,
*hugs everyone and sets up next to englishgirl23*
you ok?

i dont know anymore... i'm confused i dont know how to tell people how i feel... omg i dont know... how stupid does that sound!!!! How about u?

it doesnt sound stupid <3 *hugs*
im stuck and lost and frustrated that people tell me to reach out for help but when i reach out, they tell me "oh its normal, im sure you'll be fine"
and i think ive just realised what people mean when they say they feel numb.
hmm.
<3

*cuddles jess*

u just haven't found the right ppl for help yet..

I'm not sure wats about in melbourne yet...but community health centres might be a good start if u think u need extra support?

*cuddles*
thanks.
ive tried so hard. nothing helps.
how are u?
<3

Just quickly let you know that I'm back from being IP.

*hugs all*

aww Kahlia thats good,
you feeling okay?
<3

Hello Kahlia :) Hope you are feeling better

I haven't smoked since Wednesday 9pm. It is now Friday 11am. It's hard and it's going to get harder when I go to the pub later, but I'm really trying. xx

Kahlia <3

Zowie, try to kepe going <3

*hugs for all*

Well done Zowie - that is fab :)
I am still trying and failing to stop but cutting down is at least going in the right direction.

Kahlia, glad to have you back :)

*hugs everyone*

Well done for cutting down Mary Anne :)

I'm finding it really hard at the moment, I have a nicotine inhalator but I'm trying to get by without using it. By 10pm tonight the nicotine will be out of my body.
That is if I don't give up and have a ciggy at the pub tonight :\

:::::::::::::::::::::::: Big hugs ::::::::::::::::::::::

To Everyone

Have a great weekend everybody xxx
Love Jade xxx

*squishes everyone*

Have a good weekend all, or try to anyway!!! My weekend is going to be bloody awful, well tomorrow should be okay. But Sunday....haha got flashbacks and disassociation to expect >.<

hmm..........think i need to stay in here for a while, not copeing right now. hmmm.........i reallt want to do somthing stuiped. hmm past the point of careing right now. meh

**hugs for allll**

*Hugs all and snuggles*

RYL needs a 'bitchy' mood =D

My message just got deleted and Im ready for bed so I'm sorry and lame but all I can say is hugs to everybody

*hugs Helen**hugs MaryAnne**hugs Jem**hugs FreeSpirit**hugs Englishgirl23*

*hugs Arwen* good luck with the smoking

*hugs Kahlia* welcome back, how are you doing

*hugs Shadowedsoul* you okay hun?

*hugs Dayna and Kat* I hope you enjoyed meeting up, did you get to do anything nice?

*hugs Jade* hope you're doing okay

*hugs Alexx* how you doing?

*hugs Jess* hope you find someone you trust to support you soon, I'm sure someone's out there somewhere.

*hugs everyone else who wants one* I hope everyone has a good weekend. Fills cupboards with a healthy supply of cocoa, tea and biccies.

I have just consumed a bottle of wine and am presently forbidding either my concious or subconcious from doing anything the barriers are up even against myself, I don't know how long I can keep fighting myself for though. anyhoo enough of that I am already half asleep so I wish you all a good night's sleep whenever your next night may be, hugs, Hannah

*Hugs Wildly*

Kat and me went online for a bit, went out, had a few drinkies, wandered around all over the show, came back, Kat crashed the **** out, and I went online and typed bollocks (not that that makes a change from how I normally type...!)

*hugs everyone*
Why is it if you try and tell someone how you feel they blame you? can i help the way i feel is it somehow my fault... i am so confused i dont know what to do anymore ... i dont see the point in any of it