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Damnation. 03-01-2009 10:22 PM

Yeah, sounds it.

Autopilot tends to be how I describe it, because I'm just moving. Not feeling, barely thinking (gets hard to concentrate on things when I'm void of emotion), just sort of...doing. Maybe smiling a little bit, for like, the briefest part of a second, and then back to the flat, empty expression. Bleh

Kahlia1981 03-01-2009 10:26 PM

Yep, sounds right. The only difference is that I am exceptionally cerebral, but I couldn't always tell you what I am thinking about.

MammaMia 03-01-2009 10:34 PM

I wrote a huge post and lost it :plain: :plain:

Kahlia1981 03-01-2009 10:36 PM

Helen, that's no good.

MammaMia 03-01-2009 10:49 PM

I know, espically as parts of it were written to you =(

Accidentally Abstract 03-01-2009 11:12 PM

I feel icky.
Might go to bed soon.
Hope everyone's okay.
x

MammaMia 03-01-2009 11:59 PM

*cuddles Luce*
I'm not feeling too great.
Hope you're going to be ok hun.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Accidentally Abstract 04-01-2009 01:13 AM

I was just about to fall asleep, you know that bit just before sleep where you're dozing off.. & then I started coughing & couldn't stop & it woke me up & now I'm too awake to sleep.
Not impressed. =\

ravynsoul 04-01-2009 01:13 AM

*peeks in* Hi all!

*sends hugs and cuddles around*

Accidentally Abstract 04-01-2009 01:21 AM

*Accepts cuddles & sends some back*
You okay?
x

ravynsoul 04-01-2009 01:31 AM

Hi Lucy - we posted at the same time :) hope you can get back to sleep again soon.

Accidentally Abstract 04-01-2009 01:32 AM

I've given up for a while. =[

ravynsoul 04-01-2009 01:33 AM

Lucy: I think I need to start updating before I post... I missed your last message again..:blush: Thanks for the cuddles.. I'm alrightish.. just really tired.. and somewhat out of it... how about you ?

MammaMia 04-01-2009 01:34 AM

*cuddles you both*

ravynsoul 04-01-2009 01:35 AM

Thanks Helen. *cuddles back* How are you?

Accidentally Abstract 04-01-2009 01:38 AM

Been better.
Glad you're okay.
x

Accidentally Abstract 04-01-2009 01:39 AM

Oh & *cuddles back* =]

ravynsoul 04-01-2009 01:43 AM

:) Thanks for the cuddles :) I hope things get better for you soon.. and that your sleep straightens out.. are you getting sick?

Accidentally Abstract 04-01-2009 01:45 AM

I've had a bad throat for a couple of weeks now. =[
Other than that I'm not ill.

ravynsoul 04-01-2009 01:47 AM

Sore throats are not fun.. that's for sure.. hope it passes soon.

Damnation. 04-01-2009 01:57 AM

*Meanders back in and hugs all*

Accidentally Abstract 04-01-2009 02:00 AM

*hugs back*

I hope it passes soon too. =[

ravynsoul 04-01-2009 02:05 AM

Dayna - *hugs back* how are you doing ?

Damnation. 04-01-2009 02:09 AM

Ravyn: Eh, still a bit crap tbh. Had a bit of a breakthrough with my friend last night though, I think. I was gonna mention it earlier, but I didn't know if anyone else was all that interested, buuut, last night he actually acknowledged the fact that he's been a lot quieter - with everyone, not just me - lately, and even dared to say the L word before me, as well. Okay, so it was only when I was heading offline, but it's definitely an improvement.

Bugger of it is, even though I do sort of feel a little bit better, I'm still depressed a lot, so wtf, I dunno what's up with me x_O. And how's everyone else doing?

ravynsoul 04-01-2009 02:13 AM

Dayna: glad to hear that you had a bit of a breakthrough with your friend! That's good news both that he's been quiet with everyone and that he said the L word first.

Sucks about the depression though... it sucks not knowing why or being able to change it.. :S

Accidentally Abstract 04-01-2009 02:13 AM

*curls up in the corner*

ravynsoul 04-01-2009 02:14 AM

*hugs everyone*
I'm heading off to bed as I'm drained.

I did want to apologize for not replying to more people's posts in here today... i'm quite tired and wasn't able to read through all the ones since I last was in. Hope everyone's doing okish.. take care.

ravynsoul 04-01-2009 02:15 AM

*hugs Lucy*

Damnation. 04-01-2009 02:15 AM

Ravyn: Yeah, I'm pleased about that. As for the current unstable mood, I'm not sure if I'm still slightly upset about this whole thing with my friend and me in the first place, or what.

Remember when I was in a fairly bad way when I first started posting in here, like, constantly had my mood as 'unsafe'? A lot of the time I didn't know why I felt so bad, and might've been things niggling at me sunconsciously. Then this thing with my friend started again. And now that seems to be better, I still don't know why I'm in a continuous mood. I'm wondering if I've now swung back to things bugging me in the back of my mind, lol x_o

Damnation. 04-01-2009 02:16 AM

Ravyn: Ahh, nighty night then

*Hugs Ravyn and Abstract* (Lucy?)

Accidentally Abstract 04-01-2009 02:24 AM

*hugs Ravyn*
Night hon. x

Accidentally Abstract 04-01-2009 02:24 AM

Yus I'm Lucy. What be your name..?

Damnation. 04-01-2009 02:25 AM

I'm Däyna

Accidentally Abstract 04-01-2009 02:27 AM

Nice name. =]

Damnation. 04-01-2009 02:28 AM

Thanks ^__^.

How're you doing, anyways? Not too bad, I hope

Accidentally Abstract 04-01-2009 02:32 AM

I've been better but I'm alright.
I just wish I was tired enough to sleep - need to get up at 12pm to see my dad & last night I couldn't get to sleep until 5am. =\
Hope you're okay. x

Damnation. 04-01-2009 02:41 AM

Glad to hear you're not doing too badly, then. And bleugh, don't you have any sleeping aids or something?

And eh, I think I'm alright. Rather moodswingy, so if I say I'm okay, I end up getting down again, and vice versa, lol <__<;;

MammaMia 04-01-2009 02:59 AM

*returns all hugs*

Not feeling too great and revisiting the past doesn't help.

Damnation. 04-01-2009 03:00 AM

x_o *Hugs Helen back*

Accidentally Abstract 04-01-2009 03:56 AM

*hugs Helen*

& Dayna, I think my sister has some Nytol, but the problem is that as soon as I get tired enough to sleep, I end up having a big coughing fit when I lie down & then wake myself up & the coughing won't stop until I sit up for a while & GAHHHH!! So I don't want to take something which'll make me sleepy because then it'll be even more horrible when I can't go to sleep because of coughing, if you know what I mean.
=[

MammaMia 04-01-2009 05:27 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by .Poisonous.Cyanide. (Post 1330772)
x_o *Hugs Helen back*

Quote:

Originally Posted by Accidentally Abstract (Post 1330842)
*hugs Helen*

Thanks you two :(

Damnation. 04-01-2009 05:37 AM

Lucy: Ahh, I see D:

Helen: Tis alright

*Hugs both*

MammaMia 04-01-2009 08:32 AM

I'm still awake :P

Kahlia1981 04-01-2009 11:03 AM

Hi all. *leaves hugs for all*

ravynsoul 04-01-2009 12:58 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by .Poisonous.Cyanide. (Post 1330703)
Ravyn: Yeah, I'm pleased about that. As for the current unstable mood, I'm not sure if I'm still slightly upset about this whole thing with my friend and me in the first place, or what.

Remember when I was in a fairly bad way when I first started posting in here, like, constantly had my mood as 'unsafe'? A lot of the time I didn't know why I felt so bad, and might've been things niggling at me sunconsciously. Then this thing with my friend started again. And now that seems to be better, I still don't know why I'm in a continuous mood. I'm wondering if I've now swung back to things bugging me in the back of my mind, lol x_o

Hey Dayna, that's frustrating not knowing and things bugging you subconsciously can have quite an effect on your mood... I've struggle with that sometimes too. Hopefully things will sort itself out for you soon. *hugs*

ravynsoul 04-01-2009 01:00 PM

*Hugs Kahlia, Helen, Lucy, and Dayna*

*leaves hugs for any one else who pops in*

mouse in darkness 04-01-2009 01:39 PM

*Pokes head out from denial tent* Hi all hope everyone is ok.

*Hugs and hot chocolate with marshmellows for all*

Still having difficulty sleeping wish it would all end...blah..

*Crawls back into the denial tent hugging a teddy bear*

ravynsoul 04-01-2009 05:33 PM

*Hugs Nicole* - Thanks for the Hot Chocolate!

Hi all, I was wondering if I could have some hugs and cuddles; I'm feeling very anxious/worried/scared about starting work full time again tomorrow.. and want to SI/SH really badly... going to hide in denial tent for a while where it's safe.

*curls into a corner of denial tent and hides out.*

Damnation. 04-01-2009 07:52 PM

Ravyn: If I'm right in what I think is subconsciously bugging me (sounds weird, doesn't it? I think I know what the matter is, but I don't feel like it's upsetting me. I just get...down for what seems like no reason O_o), then it won't improve until my housemate and me have finally been given the boot and move D: and as for work, I'm sure it'll be fine! I'll admit I don't know you that well yet, but I get the feeling you're gonna be okay <3 *hugs muchly*

Nicole: Eugh, sorry to hear that x___x

*Hugs all*

Kahlia1981 04-01-2009 08:33 PM

Ravyn : *hugs you*

Nicole : Is it okay if I skip on the hot chocolate with marshmallows ?? Thanks for the hugs though. *hugs you back*

Dayna : That "subconscious bugging" sounds extremely familiar to me. Here's hoping that things do start to settle. *offers hugs*

*leaves hugs for everyone*

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I left my emotional blackhole yesterday afternoon and briefly visited the valley of depression before coming through to the dark space on the other side - the cool, calm, calculating place that allows you to follow through on plans because, quite literally, nothing matters anymore. Now I'm just kind of numb.

I just wish that I knew what was going on.


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