Yay Zowie
Yay Kahlia

*crawls back in to basement to sleep for another hour*

Yaaaaaaaay Zowie, you're doing so well!!!

Feels like a lie because I've slipped up four times, with two of them being this week (like friday & yesterday) :(

i'm here if anyone wants to talk or needs any hugs

*peers out of her cupboard*

Pssssssst Soph!!!

*huggles you* you ok hun?

No. Are you?

*huggles*

i'm fine. you want to talk about how you're feeling?

I'm glad you're fine. Yes I do, some of it is in my thread. I'm just so suidical and I can't handle it. I made another destructive plan for today. SO ****ing ****ed up I am and stuipd.

you're not stupid honey. i understand how you're feeling but please dont die. please get some help. you're a good person and dont deserve to go through this alone *cuddles*

I am stuipd. I really do and don't want to die. I want some help but nobody seems to be willing to give it to me because nobody professional I've seen believes I'm depressed despite them knowing about my suidice attempts and self harm. I miss my old counsellor and wish I could keep seeing her because when I see one at uni, I'll have to explain everything all over again....I need help and I also need help tow rite an email to my old ocunsellor anyway. *cuddlea* :crying:

aww *cuddles* i'm sorry, i dont really know what to say. just pelase dont die. there are too many people here that would miss you too much...

I know they would :(

I need to write this email to my old counsellor...

is thers someone who could help you write it? *hugs*

I wanna write in here, might do it with the hide function ;)

that sounds like a good idea :) *hugs you* i have to go but you try to take care and remember i'm thinking of you *huggles more*

*hugs you* Take care Soph...love you *huggles more*

*holds* i love you so much, and sorry im not much help ><
take care lovie <3

You're an amazing help *snuggles*

I start college courses today. Nervous.

I hope everything goes well for you.


I slipped again last night, should I even call this recovery still???

Yes you should. As long as YOU believe you're recovering, then you are.

Turns out my college courses didn't start today, it was just getting timetables and a tour of the college. Courses start tomorrow.
My timetable's pretty sweet. I start at 11:20 everyday except Monday and I have Friday's off. Only downside is I start at 8:30 on Monday.

I guess?

Awww cool, 8.30am starts on Monday DOOOOO suck, I should know :( But other than that you have an awesome timetable by the sounds of it!!!

:( i think i may have COE

Im sorry...
Im being selfish...
I dont want to talk...
I just need a cuddle...
I need to know someone cares...
I need to know im worth something...

*Walks over to voice of reason, crying clutching teddy, gives gentle cuddle*

I care.

thankyou baby *huggles*
why are you crying darlin':(

Cos I'm struggling so much. And psychy people keep telling me I'm still alive so it doesn't matter.

:crying: but it does to me :crying:

I don't think I can be helped...

Oh sweety :(
I know it sucks...
but you can get through this....you have so much to give...
I know things look ***** at the moment....but one day it'll pick up and the sun will shine and youll be so happy....



"the darkest hour only lasts 60 minutes"...

I've been waiting so long for sun. Warmth. Anything at all. All I seem to get is trouble. Trouble for everything :crying: appreciate your words tho.

I am just pathetic. I just hurt so much and don't know why.

I'm trying so hard but this world is ****ING UNFAIR!!!!!!

*hugs everyone and tells Alex she is wanted by me ;P*

*hugs Zowie, Helen, Becca, Alexx, Marc, and Becca*

*hugs manda*

Thanks for the hug Sophie
*hugs back*

i'm here if you want to talk *cuddles lots*

*hugs you two*

=D

*hugs back*

I love cuddles :)

I'm still locked up in my cupboard =[

*hugs helen*

i think i need to be here just for a little while, really not feeling safe

*HUGS*

I'm feeling a little less stressed =D Student finance have confirmed my money and everything, just checking some DWP thing lol :) Plus my needs assessment has FINALLY come through!!!!!!!

*jumps up & down*

*hugs LJ and Helen*

*hugs Amanda*

*hugs anyone who wants and needs it*

I've had a bad afternoon and evening tonight dealing with visions of my ex-boyfriend who suicided (and I found), and my auditory hallucinations. The good news however is that I haven't slipped up. So I'm now sitting here at 16 days SI free.

I'm both excited and stressed because I'm going to be moving shortly - if things continue it will be the day I reach four weeks that we leave this town for our new one. I am a little bit stressed about having to find a new psych in my new town though.

But still, hugs to all.

Kahlia

*hugs everyone*

Sorry, I seem to have been somewhat absent from here for a while.

*finds a corner to hide in and cry*
Tomorrow'll be better.... right?

*massive cuddles darling*

You're doing so so so so so well :)

*squuuuuuuuishes Hannah*
Tomorrow will be better, it'll be friday, I know today's hard hun, it really hurts I know right now.

You know I'm always here <3

*squishes back*

Thanks sweetie. love you, always.

*squishes some more*

Just think sweetheart in 11 hours & 35 minutes it'll be another brand new day and today will be gone. You'll gotten through it.

I will always love you too :) I demand I come and visit you at some point though hehe xx

Yeah, not long, and I'll be at a mate's house through a bit of it....

You demand a visit as if I'd have it any other way sweetie! I demand that you give me a date! (and time to tidy up...) lol.

xxx