oh alexx, well done for explaining everything. i know atm it looks like its gonna suck, wat with your mums reaction and stuff, but in the long run it will help you, and make it easier for you, you wont have to hide so much.
its not a few days till i see her its a whole week :s and i have an exam tomorrow. yes, on a saturday morning. how stupid is that.

*peeps out from under duvet*
Hi guys,
*Hugs to all*
Not having a good day so I'm gonna stay here and hide under my duvet. Totally confused and don't know what to do. Can't keep everyone happy and don't know what I want so can't keep me happy either.
Why is it your hearts tells you one things and your head tells you to do another. Added to that those around you have their opinions too.
*Sihgs* Oh well, I'll hide under here, maybe it'll all go away everntually then I won't have to worry about it.
Liz

Alexx *hugs*, good job sweetie, for telling your dad. That was very brave of you and you should be proud.

*hugs Liz* I'm sorry sweetie,I wish I had something for you but I'm fresh out of just about everything.

*hugs everyone else that needs it*

My counseling session sucked, big time. If it weren't for the fact that he will be out of town the begining of next week I'd have been stuck with an additional session at the begining of the week... I really concerned the poor guy and I can't really say that he doesn't have a reason to be concerned... He asked if I thought I should be in hospital. I laughed and asked him if I would tell him if I did to which he (correctly) replied 'No'. Honestly I am not entierly sure hospital is a bad idea but I don't really think it is like,really necessary... I don't really know that I will do anything...

I already feel dead... at least if I really was I wouldn't be feeling anything *shrug*

damnit... :crying:

*Tight hugs for effervescence and squiggles*
effervescence-i hope the exam goes well! im sure it will anyway!! :]
Squiggles- I always try to follow my heart...decide on whats best for YOU and not what other people want you to do because in the long run...its you that lives with the decision....sorry if that isnt much help...but take care *hugs*

i have a splitting headache.
i feel completely run down.
id give anything to be back in hospital...

Awwww Ally *big hugs*
I wish i could say something to help....but...i really dont know...
so ill just sit with you for a while yeh?
*hugs again*

*hugs everyone*

I wish I was in hospital, would mean I can't od tonight.

****ings tuipd I am.

My mum offered me to come out with her and my sister, I turned down but can tell her I changed my mind...I dunno whether to go...

Its up to you Hels,
*hugs* i wish i could be more help hun...

*hugs all those in need*

God, she drives me nuts! Just want to scream at her!

Who does Carole?

Story time yes?
:]
This morning...at about 6am...
I scared the hell out of my mum and dad...by crying and screaming in my sleep....I also woke the dogs up...so mum let them out and i was still distressed so my dog (Millie) jumped on my bed and licked my nose..
According to my mum, i just sighed, went "awww Millliiiieeee" im some dead drugged up voice, and went back to sleep, muttering to myself...
I dont remember any of this but hey ;p

It made me lol

Made me LOL too.

I'm not gonna OD yaaaay :)

*hugs Helen*
Well done hunni ^_^
Proud of youuuu!!!
xxx

Had a friend to stay and she was driving me nuts. Seriously.

Thanks Alex :) I love you hunnie

Carole, are we ever going to talk again?

*leaves a few cup so freshly brewed coffee*

Man i got a migrane...blah :-( stupid thing

She even broke my f*cking desk lamp! I am soo getting the money for it off of her...Grrr

*Emerges from under duvet* I'm feeling a little better today so I'm gonna come out and say Hi. Thanks to everyone for your kind words so far.
*Grabs a coffee, offers home made chocolate cake and sits down for a chat*
*Hugs to all*
Liz

Honestly Helen, I don't know

Kit sits down looks around and mumbles under her breath about the evilness of people and running out of meds. I Really hate everything right now i really hate life i really hate breathing and i really hate when i have to take care of everything and it all blows up in my face...

Helllooo Liz :] Thankies for the cake^_^ how you feeling?

*hugs for Kit* You wanna talk about it sweety?:(

Carole...Helen....Maybe you should try work it out...slowly if needed...*hugs for you both*

Oh noes Jeremy...*magics away the migraine*

*hugs and hot chocolate for everyone else*
My job here is done *dusts off hands* time to go back into hiding ^_^

*hides with Alex and looks after her*

:)

I got to wake up Emma this morning hehe, was funny tbh!

Heyy thuuuurrrrr :]
Who's Emma?
Why est you waking her?
and why was it funny?
Why am i asking so many questions?
Should i stop?
I think i will

*hugs Alex back*
how are you doing?

*hugs everyone that needs it*

Alexx- I am Emma lol and Helen called me to make sure I was awake in time for work cos I keep sleeping in :S

*Hugs Kit and Liz* hope you are both alright. Here if you want to talk.

*helps Alexx magic away Jeremy's migraine*

You alright Carole? x

Anyone seen Ally today? Hope everyone is ok xx

OHHH!!! duhhh ><
I got all confused thinking she meant another Emma....
lol....im a fool :P

Naww I havent :/
Hope she's ok

No, havent seen her today. She was on MSN last night I think.

*hugs Emma*
How are you doing hunni?

I don't think I am ok...

I am alright thanks Carole- what's up? x

Hey guys
*hugs everyone that needs it*

Hope everyone is OK

Helen I know I've told you this already on MSN but I'm very proud of you...

As for all my 'good' advice, seems I don't take it, as about 20 min ago I took an OD... Hoping I'll be able to function normally as I've still got work later today and some erands I have to run :pinch:

Take care all.

Much love

*curls up with her blanket and stuffed lamb and attempts a nap*

I'm feeling more fragile than usual. Things with my friend did not go smoothly and it's taken its toll on me. I've lost a layer of skin and am sort of wallowing in my sorrows.

*big hugs for Ally*
I wish there was more I could offer you at the moment.

*hugs you Carole*, I'm sorry things didn't go well with your friend but try not to blame yourself. Stay strong and try not to wallow too much :)

Ally, I'm so sorry hun. I hope your are alright. Do you need medical attention? I can only imagine how hard your family knowing must be but you CAN get through this. Please stay strong and think of Callie. I am sure your RYL twin is worrying about you! *offers hugs and lots and lots of water to flush out the OD* xx

*MASSIVE HUGS FOR ALLY* im sorry i cant offer more at the moment.... but if you start to feel worse PLEASE go get medical attention!!
I wish i could help...:(

*curls up under a blanket to try and sleep*

*hugs Emma*
What's up sweetie?

Ugh, I suck... ODd and still thats not enough... I want to take my razor to my wrist :-(... I won't, but I really want to :crying:

awww sweety!!!!
*takes razor abd huggles you*
I know its hard..but you are stronger than this...
you can beat this
*more hugs*

Well, I was doing ok until i had a massive argument with the HR Manager I work with. I coped, so far but I feel wound up right now. I want to cut!
*Goes back under duvet* Maybe if I snuggle up it will all go away again.
I'll come out when I'm safe.
Hugs to all who need it.
*Hugs Forever*
*Hugs Life*
Liz

*gives Ally, Liz, Carole, Emma and Alex massive hugs*

You can get through this, I promise, it make take time but it will happen.

OMG in just days times (I think by tuesday) my ****ing house will be on sale *cries*

*hugs for Helen*
Come live at my house :D

Awwww Alex <3

One of the houses we're looking at is quite near to my sister. So yaaaaay on that account ^_^

I already wanna pack up and go, but as my mum said, we have nowhere to go...(yet!)

*Peeps out from duvet*
Helen,
Come house hunting with me. I'm looking for a new place, rady to get out of Mum's hair and have some freedom.
*Hugs Helen*

*hugs Liz*

*gives you lots of luck in finding a new place*

I'm not moving out alone thankfully, my mummy is coming too wheeeeee. I'm quite excited about it. I keep going on about it (helps me to deal with it). So I know that we're leaving all the curtains except the living room's (they're so pretty) and dishwasher and possibly our oven. Woooop! I'm sorry I'm being so random, just being a distraction I suposse XD

Oh yeah, when I go, I don't know how long I'll be away from the internet, but I'll check in when I get the net going or when I get back to college (if I have to miss anything) or whatever...

Eeeeeeeeek!

Helen,
Cool, sounds like you are coping real well with moving. Good that you have your Mum going with you.
If I find a new place this will be my second move in 12 months. Lived with a partner, now living with Mum and looking for a place which will be all mine, yeah!
Hope all goes well for you.
*Hugs*
Liz

Best of luck with that Liz :) I haven't always coped with this well, I found it quite hard at first, but I thought sod it, I can't change what's happened. So I'm just doing this to get me thru and help with my happiness :D

Oh btw a note to you Emma, I know I haven't done your task for god knows how long but I did today :)

ahhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh icnt do this any more its 2 hard pretending i'm ok!!!!

Has something happened hun?

*hugs you and leaves cookies for everyone :)*

Thanks for the cookies Helen,
Are you ok Katey?
*Hugs Katey*
Liz

Welcome Liz.

I seriously am going to sleep soon.

i've had a tough few days starting this uni course, wich ok yeah i kno is a huge big thing. but its got 2 me. i really wanted to be ok with it. i wanted to get on with it. i really want to do it. but its soo hard my moods been so low and i've just had 2 put a front on and i cnt do it.

I really understand that hun, is there anyone you can talk to about it?

hanks, erm not really so many already think i cnt do it i wanted 2 prove them wrong