I've got to run an errand for my sister before my Appointment so have to leave in 15 minutes , will you be okay Kitty?
21-12-2010 12:14 PM
Because i have nothing to do apart from drinking coffee and listen to my partner talk to his friend on X box
i have the radio on now
21-12-2010 12:14 PM
mmm prolly not bu ya gotta do what ya gotta do mark. dont worry bout me, really. I dont mean to be an extra stress-er.
21-12-2010 12:18 PM
Kitty , please take good care of yourself , you are a part of this ward now and we love you :) *Hugs*
21-12-2010 12:20 PM
-hugs back- any idea how long you will be gone?
21-12-2010 12:24 PM
Maybe an hour and a half , Could you try to sleep hun? , I'm really worried about you, I'd feel better if you were asleep then you would be safer.
I REALLY have to meet my nurse , It's my last oppourtunity for a year ! Please take good care Hun *Squishes*
21-12-2010 12:24 PM
Kitty am around if you want to talk .
help relieve my boredom
21-12-2010 12:27 PM
-squishes mark- I know. I understand.
-scoots over next to willow- hai. dont be bored.
21-12-2010 12:29 PM
* hugs kitty*
what time is it there ?
21-12-2010 12:31 PM
-hugs back- 3:30 in the morning. what about where you are?
21-12-2010 12:37 PM
Am in Scotland it's 11.37 am
21-12-2010 12:40 PM
ah. I am in the great and wonderful united states (thats sarcasm by the way I really hate it here...mainly because health care is so damned expensive)
21-12-2010 12:46 PM
yea i heard that it's expensive there for health care
we have the NHS here but you have to wait ages before you are seen
21-12-2010 12:51 PM
Ya here a person can go to the hospital but it comes with a hefty price like I was in there for 20 mins top last month to see if I needed stitches and they charged me over $600. I can't pay it which means it will go into collections and ruin my credit. Lovely. I hate Obama. Makes me a "terrorist" according to the government but he's a dumbass. His great idea to fix the health care problem was to make having health insurance the law. So when that goes in effect anyone who does not have health insurance will either be given a hefty fine or arrested. But oh so mr intelligent did not make health insurance companies lower the cost of health care. I mean, that's the reason people like me don't have insurance in the first place...we can't afford it. So ya I'm pretty much screwed.
21-12-2010 12:58 PM
wow i didnt know things are that bad for people there I thought they would have done something for people who cant afford health insurance .
21-12-2010 01:03 PM
Well see they offer this program where you can get "assistance" with your bill but it's such a pain in the ass to apply for they want information from like 5 different sources including bank statements which well if I gave them those they wouldn't accept me for the assistance program anyway because of the amount of money I have in my account. Problem is, that's financial aid money, and I have to use that to live off of (pay my rent and bills) for the next 6 months.
21-12-2010 01:20 PM
mmm it dont sound very fair
21-12-2010 01:22 PM
It's not. It's totally unfair that a person has to pay to live - and at such a high price, too.
21-12-2010 01:26 PM
21-12-2010 01:29 PM
hi lindsay -hugs if ok- how are you?
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Im still bleeding. Now my sock has blood on it.
21-12-2010 01:46 PM
Do you need medical attention, Kitty?
21-12-2010 01:48 PM
I don't know. I don't think they need stitches. But even if so, like I have said, I couldn't afford them. Gotta do the best I can with what I've got. I've used neosporin and bandages on them. Had to double bandage this time and tape over but I think they will be fine..
21-12-2010 01:49 PM
[edited so my bestie can't find out her pressie ;)]
21-12-2010 01:54 PM
Hmmm...that sounds good as is, helen. Maybe you could add your favorite memory of you and that friend? I don't know though sorry if the idea sounds dumb. -hugs-
21-12-2010 01:55 PM
Thanks Kitty *hugs* Trouble is, I have too many favourite memories, will have to include those too :D Thank you :D
21-12-2010 01:56 PM
No problem. Glad I could help. -hugs again-
21-12-2010 01:59 PM
I'm back :) I just said goodbye to Sharron my Nurse , I'm going to miss her SO much , I'm tearful . :S
*Hugs Kitty* Please look after your wounds .
*Hugs Helen* Thats a wonderful idea :)
*Hugs Lindsay* How are you?
21-12-2010 01:59 PM
Wb mark. how did your appointment go?
21-12-2010 02:04 PM
So I took my sleeping meds but I am not tired enough to sleep. I am tired but my eyes don't want to shut and stay that way. It's frustrating. I'm thinking about taking more.
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Like maybe the whole bottle..
21-12-2010 02:07 PM
*hugs Kitty and Mark*
Thanks Mark, I hope she likes it. Won't fill everything up, but hopefully enough that she likes :D If that makes sense!!
21-12-2010 02:07 PM
-hugs heleen back-
21-12-2010 02:10 PM
We chatted a bit , she didn't want our last appointment for a year to be a full blown session , We said goodbye , She gave me a Christmas card and I gave her a New Baby card , We said Happy holidays , she told me not to give up fighting and we hugged goodbye , I did get to tell her I'll miss her :) which is good .
21-12-2010 02:13 PM
That's good mark. Glad you had a good last appointment for a year.
-hugs mark and helen-
I think I'm going to head out for the night (morning rather it is 5:11 am after all) my eyes are getting heavier now and I can't focus on the screen anymore. Hope you all have a good day. PM me if you need to. xx
21-12-2010 02:14 PM
Kitty , be careful Hun , You don't want to take too many sleeping pills .
21-12-2010 02:15 PM
*Hugs Kitty* Sleep well :)
21-12-2010 02:18 PM
Sleep well Kitty *hugs*
Mark *hugs* Awww that's so sweet x
21-12-2010 02:26 PM
That's lovely, Mark.
Sleep well, Kitty.
How are you today, Helen?
21-12-2010 03:03 PM
I'm rather excited today Lindsay, how re you?
21-12-2010 04:02 PM
You know, I feel so much better about feeling depressed and this life since I read somewhere that depression is like 'a dementor following you around everywhere and wearing a horcrux around your neck that tells you you're worthless'. I can certainly relate to that part, and it's like there's a dementor here right now, although I should be happy about Christmas and all. I also found out JK (Rowling) suffered with depression. That shouldn't make me feel better but it does. I feel like there's a horcrux in me. There's this badness that I can't shake.
You alright Lindey?
Good Helen :) What you excited about?
I'm glad you got your goodbye Mark :) That can make things so much easier.
Kitty, Helen's right, I lost someone. I don't feel it like I should, not even now, 5 months on. There's no right or wrong way to feel.
*Hugs all again*
21-12-2010 04:33 PM
*Hugs Lia* I'm a Bit dense when it comes to HP But thats a good analogy . How are you , Dementor and Horcrux and all?
21-12-2010 04:47 PM
Well aside from my pesky dementor and unshakable horcrux, I'm alright. I went on a hotline last night and they calmed me down. By the end of the conversation I had put down the pills and stopped considering OD at any rate. I've just spent the past half an hour on JK's website. Time well spent.
How are you Mark?
21-12-2010 04:53 PM
Thats good that you got some help Lia :) Time well spent , neat.
I'm numb , considering going to bed just to lay there for 20 minites , I'm sick of being numb and sick of feeling the NEED to S.I. but I am feeling better , not Fantastic , not even good but my mood has picked up yesterday and today , which is something to look upon as a good thing I suppose :) *Tries to be positive*
21-12-2010 05:39 PM
*Hugs Mark* Glad you're feeling at least slightly better. I was comforted in the fact that JK suffered from depression, because she's really successful now, so it can be overcome :)
21-12-2010 05:42 PM
That is good to know .Depression can be overcome *Hugs Lia*
21-12-2010 05:46 PM
I'll actually read posts once I wake up a bit, and shake off my nightmare.
Just wanted to pop in and say hi... so.. hi!
21-12-2010 05:52 PM
*Hugs Felicia* I'm sorry you had a nightmare hun *Puts on the kettle for coffee to help you wake up*
21-12-2010 06:02 PM
*Hugs Felicia.* Nightmare suck. I had one last night.
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I needed to go into the bathroom, it might have been nighttime, I can't remember. And I pushed open the door, carefully because I thought the Woman in Black might be in there or something, and this man climbed through the window. In the dream, I recognised him, I knew who he was, but I can't remember now, and he was going to hurt me, like, that type of hurt me. I couldn't fight him, not at all, it was as if I had lost all of my strength. I couldn't even run. I tried to call out, but I barely made a sound. The dream only lasted like a second before I woke up, but I remember being so scared. I couldn't do anything.
21-12-2010 06:05 PM
Thanks, Mark. Nightmares happen though. I'll be okay.
I need to go to the post office, but I can't get down my road. damn.
So instead I'm going to watch tv, and wish for millions of things.
21-12-2010 06:13 PM
Oh Lia *Hugs* That sounds horrible , I'm sorry you had that nightmare :(
21-12-2010 06:28 PM
It's kinda hard to shift from my mind, but I wrote it in my diary. Hopefully I can shake it soon. Still, on the bright side it was morning when I woke up so I didn't have to go back to sleep.