busily fixing up the newly splendid part of my desk :)
https://mail.google.com/mail/?ui=2&i...342641664-1&zw

focusing on little things makes the big things/picture less stressful for me presently.

*shakes hand* hi crimson nice to meet you =]

Hope everything is okay with you guys.

Laura: Yeah a lucid dream is one where you know you are dreaming - but they feel so real you can't always work out which reality you are in ... or at least for me :-(

*hugs kahlia* that sounds awful. i'm sorry you had a dream like that.

*hugs josh* how r u doing? sorry work was so stressful

*hugs crimson* hmm.. maybe you can call in an attempt to follow up and try to figure out what is going on a little? a pro/con list sounds like a good idea, maybe that will help you figure things out. and yumm.. mocha mint. I couldnt get the link to work for that picture, but i'm glad that fixing it up was a good distraction for you.

*hugs mark* i'm sorry you harmed. but josh is right, tomorrow is a new day. hope you are sleeping well.

*hugs nicole* i'm sorry you were feeling invalidated. Feel free to talk in here if you want/need to.

*hugs sarah* hope things at the doctor go alright. i'm sorry you are in so much pain.

*hugs jill* sorry that your meds are making you feel funny. Can you talk to your doctor about them and their effects? both on your mental health and side effects?

*hugs lindsay* life can turn around hun. I know it seems like your life is consumed by mental illness right now, but it can be better. You have to be patient with yourself and others though, which can be very hard i know.

*curls up in the corner* i am trying... i really am.

blah i want my head to shut up =[
was talking bout ed's in my class today... blech.
although amusingly the video she showed, the guy in the video was ip at the hospital i have my support group at o_O i was like 'that hallway looks familiar :P' but was dumb video... lotsa numbers in. why would you has numbers?! its not like ed's arent common... grr.
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had dinner but didnt wanna =[ and want bad stuff =\ ergh.

*huggles heather tight*

Sorry, i dont have many words right now and its hours after you've posted... but i hope youre alright.

hey everyone...

hugs to everyone that is in need of one and wants one...

not gonna go on just want pplto kno im thinking of them and sending them hugs

x

*Hugs Josh*

*Hugs Nicole*

*Hugs Crimson*

*Waves at Kate*

*Hugs Kahlia*

*Hugs WasteOf Space* Shaz???

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Heather*

*hugs everyone*

Nicole!!!*Hugs* How are you this morning ? :)

*hugs mark* i'm good thanks :D trying to decide what to wear stayrday night :/ and i'm thinking i really need some new clothes! but i only have £10, and i have to get my mate a birthday present! XD how're you?

I'm feeling okay thanks Nicole , a little anxious about group this afternoon , I'm going to try going on only 1 Diazepam , last week I took 3 over the course of the afternoon :S But I don't take them daily , just when I need them . What are you going to buy your mate?

*huggles mark* i'm sure you will be fine at your group, you will settle in, honestly, i remember my first DBT group, i was so scared, but now i'm fine with it. (well, i'm struggling a bit at the moment with it cause they have a monday group and a wednesday group but theyve recently joined both the groups together)
and i have absolutley no idea what to get her! :/

Hi everyone.

*Hugs Lindsay* Hello :)

*hugs lindsay* how're you today?

Off to my group , wish me luck :S

Good luck, Mark.

I'm a bit blah but not as bad as yesterday, I think it might have been because I forgot to take my meds in the morning. I spoke to my doctor today and she's going to ask my psychiatrist if she can change my antidepressants. My brother is coming home tonight for the weekend so I might not be online as much.

i feel dead maybe i am :indifferent:

cuddles everyone, this is crazy it feels like im taking 5 steps forward, 5 steps backwards. seeing my doc in 1 week, to see how iam and if i should be signed off for longer. really hope he does,as right now the thought of going back there fills me with dread.not sure i can make myself go back. curls up

*hugs everyone*
I'm finally back, but my new meds are making my head too fuzzy to actually update.
I can't be coherent... god... ahhhh.

*Hugs Ryuu*

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Jill*

So...............

Group was MANIC people having very loud disagreements 3 ways at a time , I just wanted to leave , I had to pop a Diaz in the coffee break to get through and I was trying really hard not to take more than 1 today but I took 2 :S
Then it ended and I went to the cyber cafe to confirm my volunteer shift tomorrow only to be told they are shut tomorrow and to come back next week*Sigh*
Then I went to pick up my perscription, Got it home after grocery shopping , emptyed the bag onto my bed only to find 1) that theyv'e given me an exta box of Diaz this month , which I will keep because they periodically refuse to give me Diaz and 2) They've given me 28 to few Lithium tablets , **** I need that and I don't want to have to go and stand my ground and get my meds , I simply don't have the energy or confidence right now :(

OOh Hey Felicia :) *Hugs* I'm sorry you're head is so fuzzy

*hugs Mark* Heyyy. Nice to see you again! I'm sure the fuzziness will fade eventually, so it's okay. I'm sorry your day was so stressful.

I just bought a christmas present plus something for me... yay!!!!!!!!!!

*walks in and stretches and yawns*
Morning everyone!
*hugs each and every wardie in all their hiding spots*

*Hugs Felicia* What did you buy ? For them and yourself? I have been splurging on ebay (Within semi sensible limits) heh!

*Hugs Crimson* Morning to you too :)

*Spots and hugs Jill*

I bought my best friend and I matching sorority shirts. It's pretty awesome.

curls up.

*Hugs Jill* You okay hun?

hugs mark, nope not really.

*hugs everyone*

Whats happened Jill ? *Hugs*

*Hugs Nicole* How are you tonight? Did you buy your mate a presant?

*hugs mark* i dunno how i am really :/ i feel happy, but at the same time i'm very triggerd, and having some weird thoughts/ideas which i don't think i should be having :(
and no i didnt :/ i spent my tenner on getting my cartliage pierced instead XD whoops.

erm having really stuiped thoughts right now,feel very panicky. only got a week left of being signed off. and that feels me with dread. mum and dad think i should hand my notice in, but even doing that is making me panic. ***** not sure i can do this, want to give in to these thoughts. sorry

*Hugs Jill* You don't have to give in to those thoughts Jill , You are strong and you can fight through them .

*Hugs Nicole*

*hugs mark* how're you tonight?

I'm .........drained. I don't think I have the energy to sort out my meds issues tomorrow , why can't they just get them right , They must do hundreds every day why do they mess mine up so often ? I NEEEEEEEED this increased dose of Lithium, They only gave me my previous dose , I was suicidal on that dose :(

*huggles mark* aaw, i'm sorry they keep messing up your meds, if you havent got the energy to sort it by yourself is there anyone else that could help you with getting it sorted? this is something you really need and cant avoid really. :( *extra big hugs*

I don't know who could do it on my behalf Nicole , I have quite a few people in my support network but my social worker is only just back to work since hurting his leg and I haven't heard from him since August 29th . Can you do it ? heh :P

lol, i would if i could hun! hmm. live to far apart i think!

Hi.

Appaza 'hi' is too short and I must lengthen my message.

Heee , yeah Probably Nicole :)

*Hugs Lia* Heeeeeeeeey you :)

lol, where abouts do you live anyways mark? not sure i've ever heard you say it (or saw you post it, whatever)
LIIIAAAAAA! *hugs* how're you?

<<<<<<<I live in South Wales Nicole , Origionally from Swindon though

Hmmmmmmmmmm I'm heading to bed
*Hugs wardies goodnight*

lol, definatley too far away then! but swindon is quite near oxford(ish)

*hugs Mark* have a good night and sleep well... Just a thought for when you wake up though... Have you tried switching pharmacies? or is it the doctor sending it to them wrong that's the problem?

*hugts crimson* how're you tonight?