Mind keeping me awake with unsafe thoughts , I'm just gonna sit here for ten minutes and munch on handfuls of cereal and then try and sleep again . I don't want to be too tired when I have visitors tommorow:S

have you had some tea? might help some

*hides*

No I haven't had tea . I'm gonna give sleep another go , I ended up eating a bowl of cereal :( Stress / comfort eating . Night Again.
*Hugs crimson and Helen*

If I'm still awake in a bit I'll try tea though :)

Hope you sleep Mark *hugs* xx

*huggles Mark* night. *waves*
*finds and huggles Helen*

Tea? when I couldn't sleep I found this herbal infusion calledd "night-time tea" it was very good and did seem to help. What visitors do you have tomorrow Mark? Hope you get to sleep soon.

I've just finished for the evening, went to they gym, ate a proper dinner, started my PhD application letter, started brainstorming for the presentation I have to give at an interview next week and had a long skype chat to my boyf. He looked tired :( So have decided to try and fit it all in, PhD application, work trip to Copenhagen and an interview all by next friday. I hope the ash cloud doesn't stop me from going home. I still feel a bit over my head but if I think about the tasks separately and allocate time to them I can hopefully get it all done with out turning into a complete mess. I know it probably doesn't sound like I'm fitting in much but it's all such a big deal to deal with.

*hugs everyone* sorry too many posts to catch up on for separate responses

hey Helen, what's up?

hi Crimson, how are you?

cuddles Julie cos I sees her

*clings*

I can't stop crying. This is way too much to handle :'( Please, I just want this **** to go away :'( :'(

*holds Helen tight*

what **** hun?

Thanks Hannah :( So much ****, a lot of it's in my thread which you've seen already. I just want to be happy & to be okay and my best friends too :'( Is that too much to ask?

Mark's visitors are his housing support worker and mayhaps the e-on people if i recall right.

I still feel like the hurtable part of me has been taken out... *shrugs* and I can't wait to leave work and go home

*sits* so anyone around or r u all in bed :p

I'm still here Julie.

Mark's visitors are his brother, sister & their baby???

*hugs Helen more* ah that **** and definitely not too much to ask, only reasonable I'd say. Try not to think of "everything" and break it down into more manageable chunks, it doesn't make it better but sometimes it makes it easier to get through the next minute. When I start thinking about "everything" I start to drown. Probably not very helpful but it's all I can think of and knowing a little bit about how difficult things are for you.

Ah thanks Crimson *gives you a little cuddle* I know how you feel about work. What do you do? Is the hurtable part being removed a good thing or a bad thing?

*ponders* mayhaps i have the days mixed. or maybe the hsw is coming by earlier than his family...
*tries to unscramble brains*

Thanjs Hannah.

I'm a file clerk/ roving clerk/ receptionist at the local state district attorney's office.
Honestly, I don't know yet. It's wierd though. I feel like me but I don't... Kinda like I just rerouted a lot of circuits but yet like something else... I really have no idea how to describe it.

that sounds kinda interesting, if it keeps you busy too, I know though that sometimes you just don't want to be in work. Well I hope it's a good thing :)

I hopes Julie is okay

Hang in there Helen

Gotta go to bed, sorry guys

Night Han x

busy sometimes just not on wednesdays.
*hugs good night*

Got to love ideas coming into your head & you can't get them out.
:'( **** OFF.
Why can't all this **** just PLEASE ****ING LEAVE ME ALONE :'(

i'm on my phone so replys will me slow and i'll probably miss some of u sorry *sits* it's lunch time *stares at my lunch* it feels like i'm at war with these stupid crackers

*leaves hugs & cuddles for everyone and disappears*

*sits next to julie* shh it's ok sweetie, can you try and eat a couple for me? promise the crackers are ok *offers gentle cuddles*

*cuddles/waves at everyone*

So cold. So tired. Just want to give in.
Party in less than five days. Just got to hold on . . .

So.over.it.all...

*disappears*

*sits with* <3

cool hehe

*curls up in corner*
bleh.

*lays next to and cuddles* :)

*pulls duvet up over head and hides*

*walks over to Kat, lifts duvet, hugs her, rearranges duvet*
*offers Amy hugs and a blanket/duvet/doona*

Morning everyone :)
Spots an Kahlia and a Kat and *Hugs*

Ohhh I've confused people, my visitors today are my Sister, Brother in law and their baby . Then after My SW who cancelled on me yesterday is coming at 3.30pm .OoH I just got a text from my sister thy're on their way :)

Good morning everyone...

I'm really tired this morning... went to see Ironman 2 last night with my sister and Jarrod but it wasn't very captivating for me, I don't know, it seemed more like a "guys' film" with a lot of action and not a ton of plotline. I don't know... I was let down by it and feel like I am "masculinizing and feminizing" a lot of things and saying that oh, because it's a "guys'" thing then I can't enjoy it or whatever. Does that make any sense? :-/ It's messed up I know... :( But I SI'd during the movie and consequently this made my sister upset and probably Jarrod too if he knows. :(

I'm so stupid. :'(

I don't know what else to say except I'm an EPIC FAIL. :'(

*hides in a corner*

*climbs out from duvet and hugs kahlia and mark back, trots off to find and cuddle april then sits back down next to amy* I'm so tired.

too much, I don't want to any more, i'm so tired. I don't know what's going on in my head, and I dont like it. I think 'shadow' has surfaced and frankly, i'm petrified.

Indeed it is Owen :S

*cuddles/waves everyone*

*group hug*

*group hug* How you doing Lindsay?