It's ok Helen. I probably could have typed it out to make it clearer at my end :)

ah ha, the menu lies. *looks up at crimson* impressive trick. what you using to stay up there? helium? or a magic sticky mat?

Ah well, least we've cleared it up quickly :)

Ahaha indeed :P I want to know how Crimson's up there too :o

yeek it moved on quickly again. I checked after i posted about letting mark in on the cuddle and it said mark was last, but yet you'd posted helen. and now there's more posts snuck in *types ultra quick so the ward doesn't move on while she's typing*

totally a sticky mat. think of it like a fly paper like yoga mat. :D

We're all just posting super fast :thumbup: But it does get overwhelming :/

Sounds awesome :D

hee. I want to invent one of those! any particular reason for your choice of seating position? and arn't you getting a massive rush of blood to the head up there?? I know i'm getting a crick in the neck :P

doesn't it just!? it's alright when it's like this, but when there are real issues being discussed then it's really quite straining on the mind. if you get what i mean.

EDIT: *breathes*

I do darling, I really do. Makes you forget things..

lol I always preferred to be either upside down or in strange places. back in my military days i'd sit atop my book case in the lotus position and eat cola gummies *shrug* I'm just odd like that.... but you shoulda seen my room mate scream when she realized I was up there lol/rofl

Yeah, I noticed that I'm absorbing about as much information as a brick right now. I'm still struggling with names I've probably asked about dozens of times. and reading back is just as confusing!!!

lol, sounds like absolute fun. I dont think i can hold the lotus position anymore..!

oh it was priceless.
i can do half lotus any time i want but only full lotus when i stretch my IT band out enough these days.

i have one word... ouch. :P

Bless you sweetheart.

*sneezes* how'd you know i was going to do that? :P ;)

on a side note..I put a pic up on my profile, so you can all see what ugly mug you're talking to :P i find faces to names helps me.

Ahh Kat I find faces help me remember too , You're not an "Ugly mug" whatcha talking about , I think you are pretty :)

Kat, you're not ugly, but beautiful. God why does this ward all think they're ugly :( Oh wait, I can hardly talk, so do I lol :( I knew you were going to sneeze because I'm amazing mwahahaha, nah I'm just psychic!!!

Nice pic, Kat. :) You need to smile more though!! :D

I'm feeling better now that I'm at home and in sweats. Had the heat on full blast in the car, felt looovely. When I get cold I get anxious, since all of the muscles in my body are tensing and signalling anxiety. GRRRRR. :'(

So damn hungry, yet I wasn't at work and I left my unfinished lunch there. GRRRRR!!! And I won't be going back until Thursday as my supervisor and another person won't be there tomorrow... can work from home, whoop!! :)

Anyway.

Brrrr, my toes are cold. I think I shall get my fuzzy fleecy warm slippers...

*warms April up* Although that sounds wrong :P *and hands some food*

Lol Hels... thanks. :) *cuddles gently* How you doing now?

*curls up next to Mark*

*cuddles Kat*

*cuddles everyone else who's about and those who aren't, too - because I'm that awesome!! :P*

I changed my profile pic to one of me and Jarrod, showing my new haircut the day after (so it doesn't look quite as awesome *pouts*) for those who didn't see the pics I posted. Yer I am lazy... :-S

Hey Helen , this made me smile :) ty. I've been so tense trying to keep the urges away I didn't realise how tense I'd gotten . HHmmm does that make any kind of sense ? *Hopes so*

*Bear Hugs April*

You're welcome. Love your new profile picture, it's cute :) *cuddles lots* Still feeling really bad but my Mum's just got back, so makes it harder? :S :(

Grrr Helen I'm sorry your mum being there makes things more difficult for you :( *Hugs if you're not overhugged this evening*

-waves- i just read the page since we fell asleep and have no idea wat happened

we r going out be back
*offers hugs to all*
ooo and i ate break fast just before:notsure:
:thumbup: spose it's good so give my self two of these:thumbup:

Thats good Julie *Thumbs up* :-) *Hugs*
*Waves to Owen* I almost didn't spot you there

Noooo it's good that my Mum being here makes it harder. I meant it makes it harder for me to OD/do something silly :) Glad my post to April made you smile..*hugs Mark lots*

Oh , Sorry I miss read it Helen , one miss-read post each , lets call it even eh? :) I't is good that your mum being home makes it harder for you to act on those urges yes :)

mark: *shrugs* i'm entitled to think i'm ugly. heck i used to wish i was ugly. thanks though, *hugs* i've not been described as pretty before :).
Your tenseness makes sense. heh, i made a rhyme!

helen: perhaps it comes part and parcel with the depression we are all so obviously suffering with. *huggles* your physic skills are amazing, i bow down to you and offer you a round of applause *claps hands in a circular motion*

april: thanks. maybe I do. I wonder if i have one of a smile somewhere...*thinks* if i do, should I change it do you reckon? *shuffles off to view april's piccy*

Julie: *huggles* well done on eating breakfast.

Owen: *waves* it's alright, i've been here most of the time, and I don't know what happened either! Rosie sends a warm safe hug.

*skips back to see if there have been any posts since she started writing this one*

*hides*

It okay :) Yes we can call it quits now :laugh: Not that we were playing or anything really (wow that sounds wrong, sorry I have a very filthy mind tonight :S) But yes it is good indeed.

I suppose it's a huge possibility & probably our pasts don't help. I know I'm making a wide judgement here (if that's the right phrase) but yeah, you know what I mean :P Thanks for the bowing down & applause but there's no need, really, I'm not amazing :P

*finds Nicole and holds her tight* What's wrong sweetie??

yah, i know what you mean helen. I think i'm mad enough to understand, in a good way of course. :P no offence meant. You know what, I think everyone who is on here is amazing, amazing for accepting that they have a problem and amazing for reaching out.

*uses magic skills to find nicole and give her a hug, but finds helen has got there first so hugs both of them*

Hey Nicole * HUG * you ok?

*hugs helen* i just feel....****. my mums boyfriends here so im uncomfortable, i did crap in my exam today, and i like my friend and know that she doesnt feel the same way :(

Man so tired *Remembers* I always sleep better the day I have my accupuncture in my ears , I hope I get a good nights sleep and that the urge doesn't keep me up in the night . ggrrr I feel like I should cut before bed , it's exausting hmmmmm. sorry

*huggles nicole* oh dear. a bit on your plate then. try not to take any notice of your mums boyfriend, just try to focus on something else. it's alright, you're safe. I'm sure you did okay in your exam, at least you tried, right? and i take it you mean 'like' your friend? *huggles* that's a tough place to be in, I know, i've been there. It'll work out for the best though, things have a habit of doing that. wow, that sounded like such a cliche

Okay , so I'm heading off to bed
*Nighttime hugs Ward mates*
I 've acutally remebred to take my meds tonight , last night I was laying there not sleeping thinking whats up? and then Doh! forgot my meds so had to get up and take them obviously hey ho.

Glad you understand what I meant :) I didn't taken any offence, being mad is fun mwaahaha :P Well the good sides of it I mean :tongue2: Everyone on here is amazing, except those who intend to cause trouble, but that's my opinion.

*hugs Nicole lots* I'm sorry you're feeling so bad sweetheart :( Have you tried to talk to your social worker or anyone who can help you explain about being so uncomfortable with your mum's boyfriend? I'm sure you didn't do crap in your exam, think positive sweetheart, but I know it's hard to do :( You never know how your friend feels, but I would recommend treading carefully if you do speak to her about it & be absolutely certain you feel that way. Just from past experience. Sorry if that sounds a little harsh, it's not my intention :( Just don't want you to get anymore hurt then you already have been =[

Oh and everyone try and stay safe :)

accupuncture in your ears? wow that's a new one. I'm sure you can get a good night. do you have a bedtime routine? one that doesn't involve cutting before bed. *huggles* because you dont need to. it wont help give you a good nights sleep, just a bad one.

*hugs tight* Hope you sleep well & your urges don't wake you up :) Yay for remembering to take meds. If it makes you feel any better, I forgot to take my pill today, so was cursing myself until I took it an hour late. Supposed to take it the exact same time everyday or it makes it slightly less effective for a week in one sense, but that doesn't matter...Okay, you really didn't need to know that LOL!

g'night mark, take care of yourself. sweet dreams. *hands you a warm lavender smelling bear to take to bed*

*hugs kat and helen* i spoke to my individual thearapist and she thought it was really unfair about what my mum said but didnt say anything else, i didnt have a clue what to write in my exam and the answers are really short :(.
about my friend, i have liked her for a long time, like 2 years, and i tried talking to her about it before, and she was okay with it, but she made it clear she wasnt interested, as she is completley straight :(

isn't it just? ;) I tell my hubby I don't have a multiple personality disorder, everybody else has single personality disorder.. and besides, I get to have at least three different views on everything!

I agree, anyone intending to cause trouble on a support site like this is just downright mean. (and that's the nice calm way of putting it).

*hugs Nicole again lots*

I'm glad you spoken to someone else about it, sorry they didn't say/do anything else about it though :( Try not to worry about that exam now, nothing you can do until your results are out. Just keep trying your best, that's all anyone can ask of you :) Ah okay, you'll move onto someone else darling I'm sure :( *hugs*




Argh, is it bad that one of my facebook friends is totally freaking me out with their responses to my status? Haven't a clue what they're on about half of the time & I know they've been drinking alcohol. I'm just being pathetic :/

That post made me giggle, hehe, sorry :( *cuddles tight* That's a good way of looking at it though!!!

I agree with that & that it was a nice calm way to put it ;)