Mum keeps asking about what I hear in my head... she thinks it's a voice. I mean, yea, I've heard a voice maybe a few times, but mostly it's another one's thoughts... I'd rather not say anything cause it'll upset her but I can't just say nothing.

*hugs Dayna* bleh back :)

*hugs Kat* hope telling to your mum goes okay

*hugs Snuffles* hope everything is going okay

yay Jade hope you are good *big hugs*

*hugs Nikki* good luck with finding somewhere to stay and don't spend too much on the credit card :P

*hugs Helen* *hugs Jem* *hugs MaryAnne* *hugs Ravyn* :)

Thanks Arwen, congrats on the smoking, keep it up, it's only social addiction now, no nicotine left :) *hugs from Hannah*

It always seems to be bedtime, I've just had over three hours of ballroom and latin dancing which was ace but then had to put on my dripping wet socks again in order to walk home, yuk!!! which took me about an hour. My landlord is coming over tomorrow to replace the kitchen work top and asked us all to remove the stuff from the cupboards have my housemates done anything - No - grr - rolls eyes - and I just want to go to bed - curls up under a nice thick duvet and begins to gently snore.

Guess who has, yet again, another damned heavily infected arm. Why do the really bad ones always get infected? It's swollen REALLY bad and leaking... it was glued so I think it opened a small bit or something. Though, if it 'filled up' too much, it would be much worse, right? The iodine dressing itches too much..

SCARED
=/

*Bear hugs Kat*

*Hugs Helen* Why are you scared sweetie?

Thank you Hannah and everyone else who cheered me on. I know it's now just a social craving as the nicotine has left my body. It would still be there if I'd used the inhalator, but I just went cold turkey.
Got the smoking clinic today, and am hoping that the carbon monoxide reader will say something much lower than last time.
It'll be a week at 9pm tonight. xxxx

*hugs all*

Hope everyone is at least surviving. Lots of love to all.

well my laon hasnt come through but the church have found me somewhere to stay tonight!! so thats good all i have to do now is do well at my job interview today!!!!!

hugs Arwen, was scared about counselling..

Arrrgh some people are SO up their own ****ing arses man >.<

*hugs Helen* hope the counselling went well

*hugs Nikki* good luck with the job interview

*hugs Kahlia* how you doing hun?

*hugs Kat* how's the arm?

*hugs everyone who wants one*

I have just eaten way way too much - doh - will just have to eat less tomorrow :P it was good though

*hugs all*

Hannah ~ I'm surviving thanks for asking. Had a meeting with my GP this morning and she is pleased that the latest treatment (Xanax for my PTSD) is helping with my sleep. She's hopeful that I'll get other things under control with the aid of more sleep.

Hope everyone is doing well, *big hugs* to anyone who wants or needs them

Counselling was awful *shudders*

*cuddles helen* awww :-( i'm sorry to hear that

Hope u gained something out of it tho...that's what ur there for!!!

*hugs* Helen - hope everything is okay

well the job interview went well been called back for a second interview tomorrow - so thats good!!!

credit card arrived but its only got 100 quid on it so that doesnt help me at all!!!!! got a bed for tonight at the B&B hoping my Job Seekers Alowance will be through tomorrow so i can pay the fee to my loan!!!

Man i am royally screwed - hoping my friend in birmingham might have somewhere for me to stay if not i am screwed!!!!!

Help!!!!!!!!!!

My arms infected. Hurts when I move it. And I love it.

thanks wild
so alone what do i do i c ome into here and lay my head down hoping for rest for head and body so alone tired stressed alone.

free spirit

::::::::::::::::: hugs everyone :::::::::::::::::::

How is everyone this evening???

Nikki I hope you find a place to stay

Helen Im sorry Counselling was awful < big hugs >

Free Spirit I hope you dont find yourself alone in here

Wildly thanks for thinking of me

Katrica Please go and get your wound looked at.

Dayna I hope you are alright, thinking of you

Im feeling so tired today, tired of life I think. Tired of carrying on

Love Jade xxx

Yea, I got it looked at today and got it dressed n stuff. Would've been ok (moreso) if the glue didn't come apart... I'm going back on Monday to have it redressed again.

DFJKGHDGJDH LMFAO.

I fail. At. Life. And I can't stop giggling about it :X

*sending hugs to everyone*

what's wrong Dayna?

*leaves hugs for all, then sneaks into a corner*

Ravyn: LMAO. I made a rather silly mistake. You know that bastardly friend who I've bitched about in here before? Still talk to him, but I set his MSN name as 'Captain ****' when I got really angry at him, and didn't tell him.

WELL. I JUST PASTED PART OF OUR CONVO TO HIM. AND FORGOT TO CORRECT THE NAME LOL. So apparently he got rather offended by my choice of nickname...and it's hilarious :x

*Hugs Kahlia*

*hugs Kahlia* how are things going with you?

Dayna: lol! that's quite amusing :) how have things been going with you, I haven't talked to you in a bit.

Ravyn: XDD I'm still giggling about it now. Been rather up and down for me. In the new place now, and we finally got notice of when the bailiffs would arrive (18th of March, wtf!). Still haven't done all the unpacking, 'cause the housemate and I are two lazy shits, and I'm gonna have my meds upped. And I've been referred to a mental health team. OH. AND I DIDN'T SI YESTERDAY =D.

And what about you?

Dayna: Congrats on not SI'ing yesterday! That's good news that you'll be getting some more support. How are you liking the new place?

Things have been going fairly well with me. Still hating the fact that I don't have privacy on the computer.... stupid renovations.. but other than that my mood has been fairly stable and I'm fighting to stop SI'ing... and have made it longer than the last time [just over 2 weeks] so that is exciting for me :)

Oooh, well done you! *Hugs* And thankies ^__^

Yeah, the new place isn't too bad. The dog and housemate both seem to be fairly settled now. I sort of got used to this place like, the next day, lol. When do the renovations finish?

*hugs back* lol, that's good that you settled in quickly :)

Not so sure about the renovations, hopefully within the month. ooh.. guess what, i get to go on a trip in July, to visit my cousin who's getting married... and it's in B.C. I'm very excited :)

^__^

Ooh, well fingers crossed it's pretty soon then. And nice one! You have fun when you go <3

yeah, I'm hoping it will be finished up soon :) I liked it better when I didn't have to feel nervous going on her, cuz someone might find out...

well, i have to get going... hope you have a good night. *hugs*

*leaves hugs for the rest of the pysch ward :) *

Yeah, can't say I blame you. You have a good night too *hugs back*

I... I don't think I can do this much longer.

*Hugs Louise*

*leaves some ice cream for ppl and hugs*

Hope every1 is well today

Xxx

*squishes all*

Now...I have some news :D I'm going away to York today so there is a chance I may not get online until Sunday. But I'm taking my laptop incase I can get a connection up in York :) I'm SO damm excited. Our preformance is TOMORROW & so is my birthday :o So no birthday wishes in here for me until around 12am england time please hahahaha ;)

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! I'm doing so well :D
Love you all very much xxx

*hugs Zowie* Yay :)

*hugs Helen* hope you have a good time in York

*hugs Jem* thanks for the ice-cream - yum

*hugs Dayna* I did giggle, hope you're okay

*hugs Louise* hope you're okay

*hugs Kahlia* how are things going?

*hugs Shell* hope you have a fab weekend and hope to hear from you soon

*hugs everyone else in abundance* it's friday - yay - now to apply for a job without getting too stressed and later to go out without drinking too much, see how I'm actually doing :) Anybody for cheese toasties?

Just checking in to let you all know I am okay.
Having a bit of a hard time just now.

*hugs everyone*

*walks in*

I cannot cope.

*hugs Becky and MaryAnne*

*Glomps all*

Have fun Helen! ;D

Zowie: Glad to hear it!

Two days SI free <__< >__>

hannah is officially **** and unable to say no seemingly without even much of a fight

X___X *Cuddles Hannah*

*hugs all*

Sorry for the lack of individual replies ... am just not feeling up to things at the moment. Am going to go lie down (it's freaking 8:30 in the morning!!) and try and get to feeling a little better. Talk to you all later.

Thanks, cuddles back

Dayna ~ you post-cut me LOL :p

hey Kahlia, good to hear from you, huggles, hope you get to have a bit of a nap

****'s sakes, I took this ****ing hiatus so that I could get away from him for a bit. Decide whether it's really worth keeping him in my life, considering all we seem to do is wind each other up. I'm tired of hurting, of getting angry because of him. I'm tired of craving his company. And even now I've temporarily left, he's still pissing me off, with his half baked theories and general bullshittery, to make it look like I've left for one of the most petty ****ing reasons ever! Considering he was worried that I'd bring our bullshit into the guild, and had to be reassured multiple times by me that I had better things to do with my time, he's doing a superb ****ing job of doing it himself -___-

Kahlia: YAAAAY 8D

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, bad urges are returning =D.

One down, one to go!

Dayna, Helen, Hannah, Katie, Jem, Shell .... everyone whose name I can't remember at the moment ~ *big hugs to you all*

thx's for the hugs :-D