hello again everyone. been gone a long time...not doing too good right at the moment...thought i would check in for a little stay here to try to keep what little bit of sanity i actually have left...hugs to all. i hope all are managing to make their way through yet another day.

I can't do this anymore pretending everything is going to be fine and that I'm coping. The one person in my life who makes it worth living is ill and I can't even care for him as much as I want to. Life has become so destructive to just get by but I am paranoid he will find out. Where before I could confide in him with everything's that going on I just can't burden him with that but if he finds out he will be hurt im trapped in this hopeless loop. I haven't slept in over 6 days the only relief I can find is negative I just don't know how much longer I can hold out.

my anti-psychotics medicine is making me anti-psychotic.
and why does it always go backwards when using medicine?

*hugs all*

Not in a good place right now

So here I come... Checking in... because there's nowhere else to be, at the moment..

stupid feelings about that my body hates me cause i SI'd before... was up all night went home in the morning puked in the sink headache went to bed. woke up went back and started feeling headache.

Feeling a bit better, after last time. I only hope things keep getting better.

Need somewhere to hide, curl up and shrink away from everything that hurts me *curls up*

*Flops down into one the empty beanbags curls up under a blanket* Nope I am miles away from being okay.

*curls up and hides* Can't pretend i'm okay anymore, cracks are already showing

Hi everyone. I'm trying to work on a History essay and it's not going very well, because I just feel so down and that my work is terrible.

yeh, just, no, i'm checking in here for a bit, till things in my head are easier to cope with, till i am calm, i cant pretend im okay no more....its too hard....

Yay... High school all over again... I joined this damn school because I thought my fatalism was over and done with.. Apparently not.

*gives hugs to all in here and puts some goodies on the table for all*

I actually kinda cried myself to sleep... a guy who is in his 20s. Totally unacceptable. But it is what it is I guess. Emotionally overwhelmed and stressed to the breaking point at work and at home and with family and friends... the Dark Lord is coming so I guess staring at a wall will help me... sigh

crying is okay *nods, then curls up in a corner* ahhh stressed

*hugs hellokittymad* hope that is okay

Why are you stressed, if I may ask?

yeh aha (: hugs are awesome, thank you, I needed that today

erm, just stressed verious reasons, no sleep, lack of food, no college because i was too tired now feel like i've failed the course, no help and just not coping with life very well atm.

I did something so f*cking stupid - panic attack in front of my entire seminar, then ended up sobbing out my pathetic life story to the tutor afterwards. Why does the ground never swallow me up? I hate myself.

*hugs sapphire*