wheni first got here like an hour ago. they were asking me if i had something sharp with me. if i was delusional. if i saw things that they didnt see. and they put a bandage on my arm after cleaning it. and i get new sleep meds cause the ones i take i can stay awake all night on and i really need to get some sleep and dream my life normal again. its the only thing i can do to make everything normal. nothing is normal. not after what i have been through. life is hard and bad friends can make it harder. even though it seems like theyre trying to help. im gonna go cry inside now. since i just remembered how good it was to just talk to another person and the other person could understand what you were talking about.

Monk,
Take a deep breath. You sound very worked up right now. You did good asking for help, and hopefully they can help you heal and take care of yourself. We are here for you, and welcome to the vets psych ward. We all have rough moments, just remember that you can beat it, you are strong enough. Just learn to take a step back, breath, and focus your energy to where you need it to heal. You will get there. Step by step.

Best of luck for the next 5 days.

i know its just that i dont want to know ppl like a shadow clouding my thoughts or something cause i've seen these ppl before but i dont really know them like i lost something valuable. anyway i'll be here reading this thread. just want to say that i recently bought the self injury recovery bracelet and i remember from last time it help lift my thoughts so i could focus just a little better.

*Hugs Monk*

*Waves to Owen*

gonna try a new sleep med since i get four of the others and i can stay awake the whole night on them. its called apodorm. hope it gets to calm me down not only physically but mental too. i had a little nap during the day since i was tired. and i had a nightmare. it was about i was in a house and i went in a door and stashed my things then i went out and met this girl then we went back inside to see where i had stashed my things but i couldnt find the right door to where i had stashed my things so i went through atleast 20 doors without finding the right one. eventually i found the right door and saw my things but then i woke up. i have no idèa what the dream meant. but im used to dreaming weird stuff all the time. kinda keeps me in level with my normality when i dream cause dreams bring hope to life and i always that someday i hope something good with happen to everyone and life will be good and everyone will have it equal just like that song from east clubbers - equal in love. *hugs ppl* *goes in corner till he wakes up and takes the apodorm* *:)*

hi all, sorry I havn't been around for a bit. I'm still in hospital but should be discharged tuesday or wednesday. I have to have a 117 section meeting before I'm discharged as I'm on a section 3. I'm scared about beinng discharged, but also hate being in the hospital, my head feels all confused and I don't know what is right or wrong.

*Hugs Monk*

*Hugs Oliver*

waving to everyone and offering hugs to anyone who needs or wants one.

finding room of stuffies and making sure its unlocked for anyone who needs one.

It's normal to feel that way, Oliver. Try to take each day as it comes. I'm thinking about you.

*Hugs Celtic Wings* what are stuffies?

*Hugs Lindsay*

How is everyone?

runs in... huddles in the corner with the my fuzzy blanket and hood over my head....
guilty

hugs everyone

stuffies=stuff aminals.
:)
/maaaark- i *might* getta see you :D
if can scrape together the freaking train fare :P
louise- nice picture :)

*Hugs Heather* I heard from Felicia ! That would be so cool :)

*Hugs Mousie*

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Mousie*

*hugs Mark*

is it ok if i post a poem?

Yes thats Fine Monk :) How creative !*Hugs*

*Hugs Louise*

So now I say goodbye
For now it is the last time
I thought it could be better
But you've proved me wrong

I held onto this
I held onto us
But now I let go
Now finally it is time

You hurt me, and I think you know
I never imagined you would be that way
I never regretted a word spoken
But now I regret every day

It was not your story to tell
It was no longer your concern
Why couldn't you leave it be
Just the way you left me

But what's done is done
And now I say goodbye
As I slowly bleed because of you
And may your conscience be drenched in my blood.