hmm what is the point in all this. its just more **** after more ****. im so cant do this anymore.

*holds shadowedsoul* There is a point, idk what it is to tell you yet, but there is one.

Bearing in mind I'm in bed in 30 minutes whats up Jill?

hugs mark, thanks mark, but it doesnt matter.

*Hugs Jill* It does matter.

Why can I do nothing but hurt folk?

hugs lia, you dont hurt folks hun? you okay
hugs sdixon thank you.

-hugs lia- you don't hurt anyone..

Yes I do. I do it all the time. It's all I do. I push people out, I let them down, I'm cold, I'm horrible.

*Hugs Kitty* How are you?

I have made a decision about something...just don't know the "when" factor yet. But I am going to go take a shower now.

hugs lia,*shakes head* no your not, your not any of those thing girly.

Kitty, a decision about what?

*Hugs Jill* thanks :)

Wow. 'You just seem uncaring'. The text I just got from the one person who I has told me that I'm not an Ice Queen, not cold hearted, not a bitch. She's seen that side of me but still she thinks that. She sees at last. And you know what? I'm not going to hurt anyone else with this. I want to protect you all from this part of me and I think that means being here to support you only.

hugs lia, i dont think your uncaring hun. just like me hate to show your emotions, or have a hard time showing your emotions. if that makes any sence.you dont deserve pain hun.

I'm back.

-hugs lia- you are not uncaring. I care about you.

-hugs shadowedsoul-

Anyone still here?

I am. How are you Kitty?

-shrugs- It doesn't matter anymore. Never really did. You ok Lia? -hugs-

curls up

It does matter Kitty. It's always mattered.

*Hugs Jill*

-hugs jill-

I don't know how I'm doing. I'm just kind of blah. Like I said, made a decision, now I'm just waiting to figure out the "when" factor. How are you?

Sorry it took so long to reply. Gotta keep hiding the screen. I'm here though.

hugs kitty, and lia. hmm im feeling really low, i just want to die. struggling to not act on that feeling. there is enough tablets here to do some damage. sorry i dont know anymore.