*cuddles Lia* I'm the same with my maths now :/

*Snuggles Mark* Yeah I was having issues with Facebook so I logged out before I got mad.

*Cuddles Felicia* How you doing hun?

*Cuddles Helen* Lucky :p

*Snuggles Kitty* I think its a UK thing hun. Edit: NO! Kitty please tell her, and don't go through with it. Please. I want you to be safe, I really do. You're wonderful and we'd all miss you

*Hugs Disturbia* Whats happening hun? Its good that you told, it might keep you safe, we want you to be safe. Took a lot of courage to tell someone about it. It really did. I have a massive collection but I daren't tell anyone. I hope you're alright

*Hugs Kitty* Please stay with us and talk hun , I don't want anything to happen to you:(

*Hugs Sarah

*Hugs Disturbia*

*Hugs Helen*

*cuddles Mark*

I played sims for a while to cheer up, built a house, but I can't be bothered. Bleh.

Edit: Just discovered something shocking - the way my mum varies my diet is affecting my medication as its absorbed in fats. So that could explain why I'm going completely mad on and off... Some days I have no fat because of the meals she makes and other days I have enough to survive. But no stability. ¬_¬

Tell your mum to screw it and eat what the hell you want?

*Hugs everyone*
I think I'm gonna leave the ward for a while guys, I will still be around reading posts, but I don't think i'm gonna post anymore. It's not fair on you guys. I love you all.Xx

Nicole*Hugs* I would miss you hun :S

Nicole we'll miss you *cuddles*

Lia, I wish it was that simple lol she's batshit on a sandwich kind of insane lol I have to eat everything she gives me or fear losing my student loan which she demands has to be paid into her account. She's controlling and at times, abusive. ¬_¬ *cuddles*

Don't go Nicole. We all love you.

*hugs everyone*

Nicole - we'll miss you hun. why do you want to leave? we like having you here.

Sorry i've been absent so much lately. My anxiety is even keeping me from posting much on here.

*cuddles Laura* I hope you're alright hun, we're here for you x

*Hugs Laura* How are you?

*Hugs Mark, Sarah and Laura*

I'm here on behalf of Nicole. She's having issues with her BPD (borderline personality disorder) right now and one of the issues with it is being scared of abandoment. She left because she was afraid of hurting us, but I've been talking to her and in her words, she's 'had a good ol' cry' and now feels better. She wants to return from her very short leave, but was just worried she wouldn't be welcome. I've told her it's silly, of course she will but she just wanted me to explain to you all that it's nothing anyone's done, she just didn't want to hurt us.

*Sings* On my own...

you're not on your own, i'm here.
Sorry everybody. I really am sorry about my little episode earlier. And thanks Lia for explaining for me. *Hugs everyone*
*joins in singing*

Ok, now I'm on my own :/

I'm here :)

I'm not myself :-( i dont like to admit it...

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Nicole*

*Hugs Sarah*

*Hugs Laura*

*cuddles Lia*

*cuddles Nicole* You're always welcome here

*cuddles Ian* Whats wrong?

I'm just struggling a bit, but hey ho, doesnt matter. It sounds bad but i dont care, its to much i cant be bothered.

I'm always here if you need someone to talk to