Throwing my life away.....
 

Sorry..... I'm crying as I type this.

I have no life, I just don't know what to do. I'm bloody 30 years old, still living with parents in rural Ireland.
Most of my welfare benefits is spent on my car, tax insurance, petrol so really not saving anything!

My mum watches me like a hawk! Knows what time I leave & come home everyday.

I don't want to live like this........ It's not living!!

30 year old virgin ����

Firstly I'm sorry you're so distressed. I hope today is better for you.

Can I ask a few questions? What, if you had a lottery win for instance would your ideal life be? What is stopping you from gaining independence and moving out of your parents house?

Where are you going in the car? If you for instance moved to a town could you get rid of the car?

Do you have any friends, hobbies, a job, volunteer?

I can't get a job (ive applied everywhere!)so have only my welfare coming in every week. I'd love to move out but literally can not afford it. Cost is ridiculous!!

I've suffered anxiety/depression for years & I'm on medication. I was abused by my brother years ago & I can't stand the sight of him. He doesn't live here thank god! But it's killing me seeing my brothers & sisters getting on with life while I'm stuck here!
My car means everything to me! To be honest!