Hi jk I am kitty -waves-

I am going to pass out now...cant stay awake anymore. Take care of yourselves mark and jk -hugs-

night night xx

*Hugs JK* Awh thanks , you cheered me up this morning :) I hope the deal on your house go's smoothly and you can get on and we can all beat S.I. together , I'm in a "I'm not going to let it beat me mood" right now and these moods don't come that often and they can go FAST so I'll just try and be positive whilst I can.
JK , Who wrote the book "Cutting"? I may have it I have quite a few books but no motivation to read them , they don't get to the point fast enough but maybe I'll make reading my new years resalution ????? I've read one graphic novel this year , thats it ,I'm a little ashamed about that.:S

and no he will be out of the office during winter break and he is only in on mondays and wednesdays anyway so he is done until the beginning of january. And no, I am not on meds for schizophrenia. I havent been able to talk to my dr since I realized thats what it was....he really is stupid I dont know how he got to be a doctor... -sighs-

*Squishes Kitty* are the sleeping pills kicking in? I'm sorry your Dr is crap :(

*Waves to Owen* Whats the matter Owen?

OH don't hurt your head Owen :( Why are you upset?

:( *Gives Owen a Teddy Bear*

Well I'm wondering wherther my worker has got into work today because of the snow so I rang the centres but no answer :S I left a message and I hope they get back to me by midday hmmm , My meeting is at 1pm, so I'll leave at 12.30pm to go the scenic route for the exercise. hmm I'll just have to ring later if they don't ring me first

Are you feeling any better Owen ?

:) Good :)

You are welcome Owen :) You can keep it . Aren't you tired ? it must be late over there

WOW I would be tired I think :P

Darn... My depression is creeping up on me again , I was so positive earlier but now I'm just anxious and flat :( My one on one worker or her office have not gotten back to me , I'm worried that they'll be shut because of the snow , Kat, My worker has to come on a very treachurous road :S

Night Night Owen , Sleep well :)

No reply still at the centres or their office in another town. Hmm I'll just have to hang out in Morrisons if they are shut whilst I wait to meet my Friend ........

*hugs everyone and then hides*

*Hugs Nicole and roots her out of her hidey hole* How are you hun?

SO I went to my one to one meeting , walked all the way across town and it was shut. Hmpff. I had already gone to the bank but.......it was shut so I bought some trousers (I needed new Trousers) and Milk and Bananas in Morrisons , Trudged home, and have to leave to meet Hannah L My friend in 15 minutes.

*hugs mark* I'm very triggerd but haven't got any bandages so trying not to cut :(

Oh *Huge Hugs Nicole* I'm sorry you are so triggered , can you distract yourself with music or T.V. or a walk in the snow with your headphones in?

*lols at mark* snow? It's sunny here! I am trying to distract myself on here and facebook, kinda worried if i go out i will do something silly, but then again, I need bandages, cause i wont last forever. :/

Well I'm back from coffee with Hannah L , we chatted , we drank coffee she took me and showed me her new flat which is really nice , she made us tea , Ugh how do you tell someone you Love them without it coming out "Bly Bluv Blu" ,she makes me tongue tied , or risking being told she doesn't feel the same about me , I'm feeling pretty flat and don't think I could take rejection without taking it out on myself . I can tell her anything else , she knows all about my S.I. and depression (We met in a Psych Ward) she knows really intimate details about me , I mean I can tell her anything but not this *Sigh* Sorry to moan .

*Hugs Nicole* How are you feeling now?

JUST tell her Mark!! I know it's not easy but it's the only way you'll ever know. If you don't, you'll come to regret it & wonder what could have been. If she doesn't feel the same way then you'll deal with it *hugs*

Having an okay day, although a child threw their shoes at me this afternoon & it hit my cheek :( Just adds to my sore head, least the migraine is dying I suppose. Til the next time *rolls eyes*

*Hugs Helen* Ouch! Your poor head:(

Hey guys. The cold is pretty bad for me today, can't move my joints much, but in true NHS physio style - here's a walking stick, there's nothing we can do. ¬_¬ *cuddles all*

Not heard from Rebecca in a few days. Must have calmed down a lot

*Hugs Sarah* I'm sorry you're struggling with the cold weather hun :(

hmmm where to start... I didn't think your gma was ad I just wanted that portion of your post in the proper order in my head lol sometimes stuff comes out differently than I want it to or makes less sense outside my head :) seems this time two subjects got stuck together... I'm glad you were honest with your gma and can talk to her *hugs*
as for the other portion, I was figuring that the girl causing you to dissociate my have her own motivations or emotions in regards to causing you to si or dissociate in general. wondered if maybe communication might help some. Does that make more sense?

*hugs everyone* How is everybody this morning/evening?

*puts heating blanket on Sarah*

*Hugs Crimson* I'm Feeling low , I don't know what to do about it , I want to be asleep *sigh* How are you in your timezone Crimson?

*Hugs all*

I think I'll take a bath. Just a quick one. I just think I'll get clean now or I'll not bath tonight . Um just on a side note does anyone know if UK banks are open on Saturdays? I don't know hmmm

*Hugs Lia*

Some are, some aren't Mark, depends on who you're with.

*snuggles up in heating blanket*

*cuddles Mark and Crimson and Lia*

Wishing I was still in bed asleep... *makes tea for Mark*

*hugs everyone*

I had a major panic attack last night and wound up SI-ing... not badly... but still :-( I was doing so well, about 2 months with nothing and then... *sigh*
I woke up with a fever this morning too. So unless i feel better i won't even get to celebrate the end of finals...
and the hits just keep on coming.

sorry i'm all whiny and didn't do individuals... i'll catch up later tonight after my test is over.

*Hugs Crimson* Thanks for the tea :)

*Hugs Laura* I'm sorry you had a panic attack , Could you think of your S.I. as a blip in an otherwise S.I. free 2 months? 2 Months is really great :) I hope your fever go's away soon Laura Hun . GOOD LUCK with your test

*cuddles Laura* I hope you're okay hun, stay safe and I hope the test goes well

*cuddles Mark* I also hope you're okay. I'm here for you if you need me

*snuggles Crimson* I wish I was still in bed, been the same all day, now its like 6pm >:(

hugs Laura* Mark's right, hun, it's just a slip up. We all have them. You made it 2 months! *throws confetti* Hope your fever goes away and you do well on your test.

*hugs Mark*

*hugs Sarah* Now there's an idea... lets nap in our ward beds!

*Hugs Sarah* Thanks Hun , I'm going to eat now but I'll be back on in a few minutes .

*Spots and Hugs JK*How are you this morning? Thanks for your PM :)

*waves back to Kitty*
Mark - I PMed you about the book, Steven Levenkron wrote it, and was recommended by my therapist for my friend to read. I haven't read it and also struggle to finish books, I have 4 by my bed lol.

Laura, 2 months is amazing, and you've just done it which means you can do it again. Well done babe, I'm very proud [and a little jealous!]

Hope Owen got to sleep and that we see Julie here again in the next day or so too :)

All your talk of snow, its raining heavily wih thunder and 26 degrees celcius here today, 90% humidity, gross!

Our Christmas Day is normally held in the sun, around a pool having a barbeque. Quite different on this side of the world that's for sure.

Hugs for you all, try have a good day or sleep wherever you are
JK
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