Is there something that you guys like to do? Yoga? Dance? that could help?
I'm going to a yoga class next month.

hugs- kitty xx
just made one of the toughest decisions of my life today and is kind of regretting it, (i dont want to continue with treatment now, but i said ok then :S )
who's looking forward to christmas, for one i am certainly not *shivers*
and thanks for the name mention...yup i'm shaz sadly x
Massive hugs some more >-huggs-<

No...I'm really limited on what I can do because of my chronic back pain.

I'm just feelin really low and suicidal right now...

-hits the back of her head against the wall really hard-

-hugs shaz back-

I struggle with things due to my arthiritis. >:(

*cuddles Shaz* I hope you're okay x

hmmm... maybe modified pilates?
my main problem is i'll find something that doesn't hurt me but get bored of doing it and quit, or not have the time or space or motivation/energy...

Yeah. About the only thing I can manage is swimming but I hate it. Walking is okay but eventually it gets my knees. Eventually I'll ask my doctor what I can do. So insanely thirsty today :(

-gets up from the floor- I'm so anxious...

-runs around the ward throwing things at the wall again, screaming-

Poor Kitty :(

I'm going to have to go sleep. I feel terrible. Night all *massive cuddles and well-wishes* xxx

-stops throwing things to run up to sarah and gives her a hug- night night. sleep well.

Hope you feel better tomorrow hun x

Me too...tomorrow is still a long way away for me.. -shrugs-

*sigh* forgot about B being in training and me having to cover his job this afternoon but I was only 10 min late to do it... And now it's time to go home... Maybe I'll bake some bread (since I can afford more flour if I need it now) or maybe some cookies...
*hugs my ward mates*
g'night everybody. :) be back in the morning (or afternoon depending where you are)

Night crimson. I know you aren't on anymore but still thought I'd say it anyway.

I'm pretty sure I will be here in the ward all night. I'm not leaving. I don't feel safe with myself.

-runs around the ward hitting herself into the walls and bouncing off of them-

.<3. .

-spots heather and comes running up to her and hugs her- you ok heather?

Im okish and sleepy. Howre you doing? *offers teddy*

freaking out really bad...suicidal... -shrugs, and goes back to pounding her head into the wall-

I'm freaking out so bad my heart is pounding I'm shaking gahhhhhhhhhh make it stop it won't stop make it stop

-sits back in her corner and hugs her knees and rocks back and forth-

-fails at keeping her eyes open any longer and curls up in her corner with her pillows and fuzzy blankies and falls asleep-

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Crimson* YEY! for the benefits people getting into gear :) and I like that house :)

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Kitty* Night Night , Sweet dreams :)

*Hugs Marshki*(Shaz?) Hey :) I'm Mark :)

*Hugs Sarah*

*Hugs Helen*

*How are you all this morning?
I STRUGGLED to get out of bed but I'm up now , Today I have a tenancy Review at 1pm which I hope isn't too much and then I'm DREADING the........Dentist!!!!..... I just know I'll get the whole brush your gums , brush in a circle, floss , brush better lecture when I know that I brush my teeth well twice a day, hmmmpf, wish me luck :S

*hugs everyone*
I.am.such.an.IDIOT!

*Hugs Nicole* Whats happened Hun? I'm sure you're not an idiot.

*Hugs mark* I am. I really am. :( last night. When i said i was going to bed. My friend text me....and we were talking....and then he was like 'do you wanna meet up?' so i went out and met him.....and we ended up................................................ .................................................. .................................................. ............................................yeah.
*cries*

*Hugs Nicole* Are you okay? , Did you use protection? Sorry I don't want to come over as the bossy person , just concerned about you hun and Tell me if I have got the wrong end of the stick , sorry :S

No you didnt get the wrong end of the stick, and No, we didn't use protection, but i have taken the morning after pill. I just feel like such a slut :( *hugs mark*

*Hugs Nicole Tons* Don't feel a slut hun, You're not one , I really beleive that of you , It's good that you got the morning after pill already , that proves you are level headed *Squishes*

*hugs mark..* I suppose. I didn't even mean to do it....i mean we just kinda got there and I was feeling so low and like nobody cared. And i thought he might care. And i was just feeling so upset that i didn't really care about my body. It's all i'm good for anyways :(

Nicole , People care about you , I care about you. You are a kind supportive, caring person and you are good for tons , way more than you give yourself credit for *Huggles*

*hugs mark* thanks, thats sweet, but really not true. I am worthless. Men always wanna sleep with me, but never have a relationship. Cause all i'm good for is sex. :(

Well I don't agree with that one bit , You've been there for me through November , and supported me and listened to me whinge about all of my issues and general crap , So you are good for being a friend to me *Hugs*

You're not a slut Nicole and nor are all you good for sex. You're an amazing friend & person darling. *cuddles tightly* Neither are you worthless. If you are....then so am I, don't think you'll agree to that somehow ;)

Hey Helen*Hugs* How are you this afternoon?

*hugs ward*

I am stupid. This is all. Apparently I can't leave well enough alone and I need to continue to do stupid ****. *sigh*

*Hugs Felicia* Whats happening hun ?

I may stop responding but that is because I am being taken to the Dentist in a bit but will get back online on my parents lappy later I hope :S

I'm stupid. I decided to see my ex at 3 AM... nothing good goes down at that time, seriously. So, I slept with him...and of course, I regret it.

I want my tools back. I cannot do this.

*Hugs Felicia* I'm sorry you want you're tools back :S But you'll be glad you don't have them in the long run , you will . We all do things we regret Hun , but , water under the bridge , you cannot change what happened but you can shape how you react to it and Self Injury will just be something you regret . I Hope that doesn't come over as all high and mighty , Thats not intended . Were you guys safe? *Concerned for you*
PM me ANY TIME .

Thanks, Mark. I know self-injury can't change it, and will only make me regret more. I just want those few minutes of not going over the "what ifs" in my mind, cause we weren't safe. And it's not like I have the money to buy the morning after pill, unless I wanna call my grandma, asking her to give me money for it, and that's not territory I want to cross.

Please get the Pill if you possibly can hun , Could you tell your Grandma it was for something else , A Christmas Presant maybe ?

I think a hormone bomb has gone off in the ward.

*HUgs Nicole* You are good for so much more than that.

*Hugs Felicia* You can't turn back time, and cutting yourself won't change things. We all make mistakes, and as long as you know that's what it was then nothing more needs to come of it.

*Hugs Mark, Kitty, Crimson and Heather*

*hugs everyone*

*Hugs Lindsey* How are you?

I'm ok thanks, Lia. Holding on.

How are you?

g'morning everyone. *hugs*
How is everyone?

*cuddles everyone*

*Hugs Sarah and Crimson* How are you both?

The time gaps are weird, there's Crimson saying good morning when it's almost 6.00 in the evening here.

I'm alright thanks Linsdey. Going out in a minute for my school awards evening *massive groan* but I'll live. I'm glad to hear you're managing to hold on :)

Lol it is weird Lia, I'm not here long before Mark's saying he's off to bed... It's almost 9 am here though. You guys are 9 hours ahead of me.

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Crimson* I did like the look of your prospective house , I think I said already but hey :)

*Hugs Sarah*

*Hugs Lindsay*

I have been going to bed early and I do tend to announce it :S is that okay?

Yeah it's ok Mark. :) I was just pointing out you in my statement to Lia since it reminded me of the time differences and that you guys are close to the same time where as here to there is practically night and day lol
Thanks :) I like this house too. It needs some work but its a good house :)