*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Kelly*

The water is off for the next 6 hours :(

*sends a warm rain cloud to Mark*

*Hugs* Thanks Lindsay , How're you hun?

Not great. How are you? Have you text me recently? I got a new phone and your number wasn't on my sim.

Goodbye, leaving ryl after five years
 

Hi everyone im sorry to post this here but i felt it would be best here as more people would read it here and i also used to post here alot. I have a little bit of sad news im leaving ryl after 5 years. I will have been here fives years on June the 14th 2012 as you will see it says under my name im leaving just after that. The reason im making this thread now and not in June is because i havent been on here hardly at all and il only be back once more so i thought it would be best if i did this thread now. I am a little sad i remember when i first came here and how bad things were but things are so much better now and i feel its time to say goodbye to ryl. I made the decision to leave ryl a little while back. I am very greatful for everyones help it means alot il never forget all that you have done for me, the times you have all listened to me and been there for me. If anyone is interested in keeping in touch by email please let me know.

Thank you very much everyone

Take care and goodbye

Ian

I'm glad you are in a place that you feel it's time to leave ryl, Ian. You'll be missed, but I think that's a place we'd all like to be some day. I wish you all the best and hope that you find all the joy life has to offer. :)

Hey all... I feel like I may be starting to even out again, thank heavens! Still having some issues with anger control, but at least I'm not bursting into tears every five minutes.

Ian, you'll be missed. Hope things go well for you.

Kelly, i'm glad you're feeling a bit better.

*Hugs Ian* I'll Miss You*

*Hugs Kelly* It's good you're Controling it.

*Hugs Lindsay* I Have texted you a couple of times recently yes , I didn't know you had a new Sim , I'm PM you my Number:)

How are you, Mark?

I'm Off to my parents for 2 nights in a short while for Easter. So may be more sporadicly on.

*Squishes Lindsay*

Hope everyone has a good Easter.

Happy Easter to everyone :)

*Easter Hugs Lindsay*

happy easter everyone

*leaves magical healthy chocolate easter eggs*

/peaks head around corner shyly\

how is everyone

Morning peoples.

Hi Cinny , Welcome , I'm Mark :)

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Lindsay*

I am so tense , took a Diaz.
40 weeks free today though.

How are you feeling now, Mark.

How's everyone else?

hey all... looking into getting internet at home with in the next month or so. I'm anxious to make that a reality because I hate feeling cut off from everyone, which I do right now.

I got through Easter weekend ok... didn't really like having to be around so many people. Kinda feeling anti-social lately and I often wish that this was a real place I could hide out from the world.

*Squishes Lindsay* I'm groggy , just up , How are you?

*Huggles Kelly* Internet at home ! woop :)

Having the internet at home is brilliant, I don't know how i'd live without it.

I used to have net at home, but our computer sucked and I couldn't use it with my lap top. I miss it tones and am anxious to get it back... just have to wait for the phone company to repair the underground line before I switch services. It's been over 3 weeks since they were out to mark the lines so I'm hoping it will be really soon.

*peeks head in* Hi all

*Hugs Lindsay* How are you today?

*Hugs Kelly* I hope you get it soon!

*Waves to Katshia* Hi , welcome to the VPW , I'm Mark :)

Hi everyone. How are you all?

My occupational therapist is trying to get me to go back to my voluntary work and the gym but I have no motivation to do anything. I want to give up on life because I fail at everything.

I know the feeling Lindsay, *Hugs*

How are you, Mark?

Just Up , :P , How are you Lindsay?

Wanting to be somewhere far away from reality.

hey all... just peaking in. I think I'm in for a very long week. Hubby's back at work with CRAZY hours for the next 2 weeks which means it's just me and the kids. I think I'll do fine during the school week... it's the week ends I'm worried about because my boys argue non stop when they don't have that break from each other that school provides. *deep breath* I know I can do this.

My biggest fear is having another panic attack when it's just me and them. I've been having them a lot lately and with no real cause. I'm fairly good at keeping it controlled enough not to end up in the ER, but it's still scary.

Hope you all are doing well. I'll try to pop in again as soon as I can.

*hugs all in here*

This day is getting worse and the weekend is going to be no better :(

*Hugs Lindsay* I hope you feel better today :)

*Hugs Kelly* I hope your kids aren't too much of a handful this weekend.

*Hugs Matt*Whats up ?

*Group Hugs*

*here* feeling all shaky and doubty feeling all bad. took a bike ride to the store bought some food. had almost a nervous blackout cause i felt the road shake and kinda came out of focus. then i felt that i was moving like this is it. get home feel like **** still shaking. cant even think about sleep cause there is something telling me it will all be bad somehow. cant stay awake. feel like i should wanna go in the closet and hide for some time til it goes away.
*puts sleep depravation and lemon cookies on table* *sits in corner staring blankly at the wall*

Monk, I hope you are feeling better now *Hugs*

*Group Hugs*

*hugs all*

I am going to just sit here and... do nothing. Cause this whole weekend has been hell. Maybe the quiet room will be a better place for me lol

*Hugs Mandie if okay?* I'm sorry you lapsed but once in 2 years is amazing ! You could focus on the 2 years? It's a lapse not a RElapse . I'm Mark Btw :)

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Matt*

*hugs Matt*
*hugs Mark*

*hugs Mark and Laura*

Doing a lil bit better I guess

*Huggles Laura*

*Huggles Matt*

hugs everyone

Hi everyone, hope you are all doing well ...

*comes in to hide from the world*

*hugs*

I'm losing it. I can't keep going. I'm tired of recovery, this is so f*cking painful right now I need to feel it physically. I want to scream until they are all deaf.

Update: I'm feeling better today, but I'm not sure for how long.

*Hugs Louise*

*Waves too Aamanee and Nomophobia* Hi Welcome to the VPW , I'm Mark :)

*Hugs Laura* I'm glad you're feeling a bit better hun *Glomps*

*hugs Mark* how are you today?

I feel the bad stuff coming to the surface again and don't know what to do.
All I know is that I don't want to be here at home when things are hitting me.

*Hugs Laura* I'm groggy , Just up , I hope you feel better today , How are you?

hey all... i think i finally made it out of my the funk I've been in for the last few weeks. I'm not 100% sure of that and I'm totally not holding my breath, but I'm feeling a lot less down today and more energized which is normally a really good sign for me. I also haven't cut in about 4 days now.

I haven't really been out of the house in a while though (thus the reason you haven't seen me around). I feel kinda like a shut in when hubby's working because I have less ways of escaping the house without the kids in toe. But at least it gives me an excuse to really get the house in order.

Hope you all are doing well :)