Confessions admit them here
 

Hey guys ,

A thread for all to confess :)

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I admit this is a problem

Hi there,

Do you want to talk about the problem?

I can understand how hard it can be to admit so well done for doing that. It's a good first step in tackling a problem.

Zed.

It Defo safe to say last night alchol was a problem look like I been battered x

This is a nice thread idea. I often find that being prompted to admit my behaviour helps me recognise the state I am in and how to improve something.

Confession: When you dunk your kitkat in your whiskey, you know it's a new low.

Edit: I am so drunk that I can't feel my lips on the rim of the glass, and yet I am proud of my ability to still articulate the word 'mellifuous' in a sentence to my housemate. Drunken pride always turns into shame come morning.

Kitkat in whiskey different

Hope you heads not banging


Confession : you know your drinking causes yu **** when you attempted to strangle your self and assulted police in the cells and had to be told you done it :(

Confession: Based on my own experience, I'm always in trouble moments when I'm being drunk .. Then the next morning i find headache and body pain :sad:

Hugs hisn how have you been ?

Confession I think about drinking a lot I court the days till I get paid and I hate myself for it

I can't sleep without technically OD'ing on sleeping pills.

Confession; I didn't expect to be bombarded with thoughts of taking drugs/going down that route again so easily. One simple,small thing and BOOM. I'm back in that mindset.

confession: i did more than drink today and i would like stronger drink :(

I feel you mate.

Confession: I find it easier to sleep when I have a certain level of nausea because I associate it with having taken something narcotic. A pathetic, unexpected pavlovian twist there.

Confession Part 2: I genuinely just ate half a packet of biscuits to try and recreate the nausea so that I can lie down. Not exactly hardcore, but it shows how stuff can mess with you. Also I just exposed the lack of a Custard Cream Abuse subforum.

Hello Hisn1977 :) I saw your post earlier and I think were in the same scenario. I am alcoholic before. I always go with my friends to the bar and drink plenty of liquor and when we drunk we start a trouble and got headaches and body pain which is not good to my feeling. My family always ignored me when they see me drunk and I thought its not good 'cause I feel alone and no one cares about me. Then, I ask myself “Why I should always do those things?” “Am I happy in this kind of lifestyle?”. After i realized everything, I start to control myself getting drunk. I always think that I need to change my daily routine just to prove to my friends, relatives and especially to my family that I've change for good. And they will be proud of me.

Confession; I siss not expect Criminal Minds to tip-share on solvent abuse.

Will I ever be free from it's hold?

Confession; I just want someone to hold me and make everything okay again.

Hugs all ....

I hope everyone is having an okay night andanages to be in control

Confession 1 : I can only feel like I can cope with this pain when I'm dunking and it hurts that thy don't understand it

Confession 2 : I hurt people and I trigger people and I ask them things toget what I want and I wake up thinking I want to forget

Confession 3: it's not okay to be drinking at 7am .

Confession 4: I can't keep out of trouble x

Hi friend! ... If you need a friend or someone to hold on, just approach me and I will be the one you can talk too. Don’t be afraid to approach me my friend. I can be your problem reliever if you want.

I can actually cope without drinking but it doesn't stop me from wanting/needing it.

everyone thinks ive stopped drinking. yet i drink everyday.
i cant stop.
even tho i have the fire in my belly to stop.
yet my head wont let me.
i want to be free.

im worth more than this!

Drinking magners at 08.56 isn't normal. But I'm so used to the alcohol level it jas mo affect until 3+ borrles....

Or maybe that's just my justifying it

Every day I seem to eat less, but in a sick way I feel proud and want to see how low I can get. I want my weight to be less and it kills me that I'm still in the healthy range

I gave away vodka so i wouldn't get drunk.
Then got drunk anyway and made a dick of myself
And wasted an entire day to feeling demotivated, tired and sick.
And yet,
I'd do it all over again.

I take something, then if I get any twinge or pain or any kind of bad feeling in my body at all, I think "holy ****, this is it, I've done damage, better never do this again".

And then I do it again.

I want to keep it a secret. Mine. But I know I won't. I was an addict for 5 years. But, once an addict, always an addict. Relapses are part of 'recovery'. But I don't relapse with this stuff, I go for the long haul. I like it. It doesn't hurt anybody else, will never effect my work etc. It's just a mini-escape.

It's a matter of weighing up the risk of doing it and being found out, and doint it and it helping me to function/perform better...

I hate being sober.

I may not be physically addicted but it's bad for someone who is claiming to have this under control. The truth is I lost control long ago.

And I can't seem to get myself to want it back.

A couple of years ago, I was confident that there were some lines I would never cross. But now, if only I knew how to get my hands on it, I would. I want to.

This alone tells me I need help, but I won't do anything/don't know what to do about it.

I really feel like I need to be out of
It I'm so upset!!

It angers/upsets/worries me, what my friend is doing because I've been doing it for 7 years. It's nowhere near as frequent or dangerous these days, but it's happened recently. It sickens me when I realise how low I am stooping for a quick fix. But I'd do it again in the blink of an eye.

Drugs are quite a big part of my life now. Lolz sorry guys. I don't even care anymore

I was addicted to booze, speed, ecstasy, cocaine and pot when I was 12-15. I'm 24 now, my life is nothing like it was then, I'm no longer being abused more often than I'm not, but I've started drinking again. I didn't drink much at all for nearly ten years, now that it came back into my life, I'm wanting a drink at 11am and have bought it without telling my partner intending to drink it alone...

I don't know the difference between what I want and what I need anymore.

I am falling

I let all this stuff get in the way and I messed up being his mum. All I can do now is try for the future but it hurts so much and there are days when I want to do something bad to make the pain stop!!

Recovery is hard ....

I want be ****ed so I don't feel ..

I am so weak. So weak. I'm so weak I can see the future.

I lost control

drinking. Myself
Into an oblivion takes priority
Over everything else
We're did I go wrong

Why do I do this to myself ? Throwing up sucks I think I got lost along the tracks

you think that I am all better now but the truth is that I'm not. I can't stop drinking even though I know I am strong enough to get through the days without it. I don't want to stop drinking. It's gotten to the point that being sober is terrifying..

I took a pill last night. I don't know what it was. I got drunk too and hurt myself. I am supposed to be getting better, but secretly I kind of like this.

I'm back taking small ods if cocodamol all that hard work for nor thing

I'm close to falling back into old ways and I don't know if i care enough to stop it.

Confession: Maybe I am not ready to quit drinking.

I lied yesterday. About how much I was drinking... I don't feel bad about it like I should... it just makes me want to drink even more. By drinking I finally have control over something. I need that control...

I really don't like you. Or you. Or you.

Actually, I don't think I like any of you.

I'm using you.

Of all the ways I could ever possibly do any damage to myself with, alcohol wins every time.

I've turned to alcohol and weed

I'm scared you will try and take away the one thing that is keeping me alive right now.

I am so underweight that I have started using cocaine to help me function through the day without getting dizzy or overly fatigued. (I have been trying to gain weight and recover for a year after having an eating disorder for 8 years)

I am scared I will turn back to vodka after I am discharged. it's not like I miss it but I don't know I just need it I guess... it's my escape.